Jungkook's Pov

I woke up in Jin's arms, surprised that we stayed like this all night. A blush finds it's way to my cheeks, not knowing the full reason why. Whenever I stare at my hyung I can feel my heartbeat quicken.

What is this unexplainable feeling? Why can't I just stare at him without my heart beating at an abnormal rate? Is this what they call falling in love? Is this what it feels like to fall for a person? I don't know how to explain it.

Whenever I see him I see the most perfect being. His smile, his laugh, his singing, his motherly characteristics, just everything about him is so perfect. He knows how to comfort all of us, even if he himself needs comforting too. Sometimes I wish he would look at me more than just a friend. Sometimes I wish he saw me as a man, not as a little boy.

"Oh, good morning Kookie," Jin says in his morning voice.

Kookie, the way he says it sounds so nice. I like the way it rolls off his tongue. When the other guys say it it doesn't really faze me, but when Jin hyung says it, I feel myself wanting to kiss him. I don't want just that, I want him to moan it, to writhe under me as we exchange words of affection to each other.

I quickly shoot out of bed, leaving the room without saying anything to him. I rush to Namjoon's room, hoping he could shed some light on what I should do. He should know right? I mean he's with Hoseok after all.

I knock frantically at his door, only for it to be slung opened to reveal a half naked Hoseok. I blush profusely, embarrassed that I bothered their "alone time".

"What's wrong Kookie," Namjoon questions. I burst into his room, Hoseok closing the door. I sit in a chair in the corner of the room as they both sit on the edge of the bed.

"I have a problem hyungs," I start off. They look at me, waiting for me to continue. "I don't know what's happening to me, I'm scared. This new feeling that I feel is confusing me." My voice is a little shaky.

They look at each other then back to me. "What is it Jungkook," Hoseok asks, concern coating his voice.

"Whenever I see Jin hyung my heart flutters. I can't help but feel like he's the most perfect being. That's not all, just now when he called me Kookie I wanted to hear him moan it. I wanted to thrust into him as we whispered sweet affectionate words to one another. I'm scared, I can't look at him without wanting to claim him as mine. What is happening?" I start crying. I'm really scared of myself right now. I don't have the answers of what I'm asking. I'm confused, hurt, and lost most of all.

Namjoon walks over to me, placing his hand on my shoulder. My sad eyes meet his amused ones as I see him smiling at me.

"That my little Jungkook is called love. You're falling for Jin, and you're scared because it's a unknown feeling to you. You don't have to be scared of it though, you should embrace it. Confess to him before it's too late. Don't let this feeling go,' he advises.

I place my head down, contemplating his words. I know he's right, but what if he doesn't feel the same? What if he rejects me?

"I'm afraid of rejection Namjoon. What if he denies me because of our age gap?" I lower my head down even more, sadness consuming me.

"Do you know for a fact that he'll reject you," Hoseok pipes up. I look into Hoseok's direction to see a gleam in his eyes. I feel as if they're hiding something from me.

"I don't know. I mean yesterday we went around town together while holding hands. I like to think it was a date, but I'm almost sure that for someone like Jin it was so I didn't get lost in an unknown town. It probably honestly meant nothing to him." Disappointment washes over me.

"Look Jungkook, you won't know unless you confess. Would you be happy if he were with someone else? Would you be okay if someone else had his heart without him knowing your feelings? Just sitting here and not doing anything about it isn't going to get you anywhere," Namjoon blurts out, a little annoyed at my doubting state.

"I understand all of that, I'm just scared. Do you know what it feels like to be scared of being rejected by the one you love? It hurts. If he does reject I will become a depressive person who won't be able to move. My whole being will become numb, I won't know how to move on. I've been in love with him since we first debuted together. When Jin hyung thought he messed up and he was in tears, my own heart ached for him. I have it bad, and I can't move on from this, yet I can't do anything about it. I'm stuck Namjoon, and I don't know how to get out from this corner I'm trapped in." All of my emotions just pour out of me.

Tears involuntarily roll down my cheeks, me becoming a sobbing mess. Hoseok looks at me with pity, reaching his hand out to stroke my head. His hand is comforting, it helps me calm down.

"I'm sorry Kookie, I know confessing to the one you love is a hard and scary thing to do. It's just that you never know if the person reciprocates your feelings if you don't try to tell them. Is there a chance of being rejected? Sure there is, but there is a chance that something more beautiful can come out of this as well. You can't give up so easily. Besides I see the way Jin looks at you, it's different. He has some infatuation with you, he's always wanting to be by your side. He took you around town without the rest of us, that's saying a thousand different things in of itself. As Babe Ruth once said, don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. If he rejects you, we are here for you. Take this opportunity to bond with him, make him see you as a man and not a kid. I'm sure he holds feelings for you too," Namjoon encourages. His voice is a little more softer than before.

I smile at my two hyungs before I mumble a thank you and dash out of the room. I stand in front of Jin's again, debating on if I should enter or not. I decide to knock on the door, only to have a puffy eyed Jin open the door.

I look at him worriedly, wondering why he was crying. He lets me in without saying a word.

"Jin what's wrong," I ask him. You could hear the concern in my voice.

"I thought you were upset with me, you ran out of here way too quickly without saying anything to me. I really thought I did something terribly wrong. Whatever I did Kookie I'm so sorry," He cries. Seeing him cry like this because of me aches my heart.

"It wasn't because of you," I mumble.

"It wasn't?" I can hear his voice lighten up instantly. I just shake my head in response, too afraid to open my mouth.

"Then why did you run out of here? Why didn't you say anything to me before you slammed the door shut?" I can hear the doubt in his voice. I feel so guilty that he's in this state.

"Please don't hate me when I tell you something. If you don't feel the same way then just act like I didn't say anything," I plead. I look into his doe eyes, getting lost in them. His eyes have the power to literally paralyze me, they're so alluring.

"What is it?" His soft voice wakes me from my trance. I look down to my lap as my heart rate increases more by the second.

Suddenly my palms become sweaty with nervousness taking over me. I can't breathe properly as I search for the words to tell him. I don't know where to start. Should I confess everything at once? Should I just be blunt or should I drop hints? Should I just tell him nevermind and that I'll figure this out on my own? No, if I use that excuse he'll pressure me into telling him what's wrong. I take a deep breath while contemplating on what I should do, all the while Jin's waiting for me to confess to him.

Well, he doesn't know that I'm confessing to him, but he knows something is up. I have my nervous eyes meet his quizzical ones.

Here goes nothing, I sigh to myself. "Jin, as a man to another man I have to be straight with you. As cliché as this line sounds, you make me feel something no one has made me feel before. Everytime I'm around you I have butterflies in my stomach. Everytime you securely hold my hand, I feel safe with you. You have literally taken up my whole world, I don't see anyone but you. When the fans are screaming your name I tend to get jealous, knowing that they're able to shower you with their love, unlike I'm able to. I want to change that though, I want to be able to show you how I feel. I want to shower you with love, gifts, and anything else that you deserve. I know I can't truly give you what you deserve, because in my eyes you deserve the whole world," I confess.

Jin just blankly stares at me with his mouth open. He doesn't say anything, he just stares at me. With each fleeting moment I feel all hope escaping me little by little. Him staying silent is even worse than him flat out rejecting me. I don't know what's going through his mind right now.

"Kookie," He starts off after a long, uncomfortable silence. Oh no, here comes the rejection. Here comes the 'I'm older than you, I only see you as a younger brother that I have to take care of,' speech. I swear, my whole world will crumble once those words escape those beautiful plump lips of his.

"I had no idea you felt that way," He continues on. I just get up, walking over to the door.

Without looking at him I place my hand on the knob. "It's okay hyung, I know how you feel about me, so please don't bother with telling me the reasons as to why we can't be together. I understand completely," I whisper, turning the knob so I can escape the heavy atmosphere.

I just want to burst into tears, I won't be able to face him anymore. I just ruined a perfectly healthy relationship that we had before this.

Before I can escape, Jin's hand holds the door closed. He turns me around, having my back against the door as he stares deeply into my eyes. My vision becomes clouded with unshed tears as I stare back at him.

"It's rude to not let your elders finish talking," He states. I gulp as look to him to continue. "So as I was saying before you rudely decided to jump to conclusions, I had no idea you felt that way. I've been holding myself back from kissing you for so long now because I was afraid you'd hate me. Truth is Kookie, I feel the same way." I just stared at him wide eyed.

I can't believe he just said that to me. I find myself leaning in to kiss him, him responding right away. His lips are just like whay I imagined to be like, soft. They are so soft that I just want to kiss them forever, he literally has me wanting to claim all of him with his lips alone. We pull away from each other too quickly, but I don't mind because now I can kiss them whenever I want. I now have the right to claim them as mine, to claim him as mine.

"Let's go around town with the rest of the group today," He suggests. I just nod my head as we cuddle in his bed for a little longer, loving the feeling of his arms wrapped securely around me.