Kreety's pov

"Hum ye kyu kar rahe kreet" she asked me, borring her eyes on the tv, her mind was disturbed so was mine.

"Nahi pata maybe hume lagta hai ki hume idhar se Jaa kar udar sukoon milega" I tell her.

"Hm" she says and didn't say anything after that and neither did i, we were lost the whole time,when I glanced at the time, it was time for us to go

I book the cab, afterwards wait with our bags, downstairs for the cab to arrive, after some time, the cab arrives and the car, looked weirdly very expensive. We got into the car, and it was definitely more expensive looking in the inside.

It was so comfortable inside that wished I could sleep in it but you know my situation,soon we reached our destination and got down.

The driver bhaiya removed our suitcases from the tunky, we paid him, and walk towards the railway station.

When we reached there, on the platform, no was present there, everything was silent, we could hear only the sounds of the flies fluttering their wing.

When I heard some noises coming from behind, as I was to turn, someone suffocated me and Shreya,with handkerchief by keeping it out mouth

As I begin to struggle for my breath, i smell the Saint smell from the handkerchief and slowly the vision and noises starts to fade away as I fall on the someone.

I just had gotten up, i felt my vision was blurry, i couldn't see anyone, i glance around the room when I noticed him, i widened my eyes with shock and look away from him, how was he here and where was i??

I saw aunty sitting on the bed, next to me with a soft smile on her, I was confused, why was I here and why was she here, i should have been in the train by now right, how the fuck I got transferred myself from there to here.

"You were kidnapped you idiot " my inner voice told me, what the fucking hell, why didn't I remember I was kidnapped, I just remembered someone kept his handkerchief on my mouth and I fainted

"Aunty mein yaha kya kar rahi hu" I asked, confused.

"Tum yaha kyuki, kyuki ye tum chodo mein tumhe kuch puchu beta" she told me, I look at her confused

"Kya aunty" i asked.

"Kya tum mere bete se shaadi karoge" she asked me, i felt my face heating, and my eyes widened in disbelief, what the freaking hell and pointed to him and me.

"Hum dono ki shaadi" i ask her and she nods eagerly.

"Mein, mein kese " i was stammering, like what the freaking hell, why will we marry when him and Shanaya were the one to marry each.

I was continuing when he asked me, his voice cold, sent Shivers down my spine

"Sirf haa ya Naa" he asked me and i just blanked out, what the hell is happening right now, why is he asking me that question.

"Ha ya na"  he asked me again, i retreated back from the thoughts and shake my head denying it, i don't want to spoil his life when he lives a perfect life with her.

"Kyu na"  he asks me, I look at him anger in his eyes, I got scared

" Muje mujhe nahi nahi karni shadi aa aapse'' i stammered as i spoke because I was scared of his anger, when he holds my forearm in right, that i wanted wince but controlled myself and he made me rise on the ground

"Tumhe haa bolna hai nahi mein toh esa kuch karunga ki tumhe ye sapne mein pareshan karne ke layak hojeya" he  threatened me, I felt my heart race in high beat due to the anger building inside me,I felt so annoyed and raised my head and replied back to him.

"Kya karoge aap ha, aap tho bolte hai ki aap ye karoge but aap toh karte hi nahi"

"Es time zaroor karunga uss point Tak jaoge jaha tumhare weak point hai, ab bolo karogi mujse shaadi ya na, mere option open, either say yes or I'll hurt vaani because she is weak point as well  as strong point" he threatens me.

while i felt of bundle of emotions pass through me, i felt hurt, disappointed,  annoyed, angry and most of all, I wanted to kill him, i know, he'll hurt vaani if I don't marry him,i felt my tears were falling down from my eyes.

"  Tum ye bilkul nahi karoge " i shouted at him with tears falling from my eyes, i never thought, he'll be this evil to get what he wants, I hate him for doing this.

"Mein bilkul karunga agar aapne na bola tho" he tells me,this is enough, I'll show the similar pain to him when my time comes.

I wipes my tears and yellled at him loudly, i didn't care whether someone heard us or not.

"Ha ye tumse shaadi karne ki ab meine haa bola agar aapne kuch bhi kiya meri vaani kho toh mein apko Jaan se mar dalungi"

"Jo bhi karna hai mere sath wo sirf shaadi ke badh karye" he tell me and slowly continues

"akir fir apka ho jaoga, toh aap mujhe mar Dale mujhe koi problem nahi, aur aap mujhe pyaar bhi karye toh no double problem hai"  i felt my cheeks glow, i was also glaring at him, I was still effected by him at this stage.

I glared at his back, till he leaves the room and I saw Anaya, Naya and aunty coming inside with a suitcase.

They didn't say anything the whole time they made me ready, i just stared at them, with a hope they will let me go away from here.

We sat in silence till someone came and informed that I have to be down, i slowly get up, with the help of Naya,

I went out of the room, I saw ishaan, aryamaan bhaiya,atharv and amay bhaiya standing with chunni in their hand and holding it above their hand.

I felt a gush of emotions rush though when I saw them, i thought I will never experience this in my Life time but here I am.

I stand in the middle, holding Nayas hand for the support, she taps my hands gently, confronting me, I look at her, she nods in reassurance.

We walk to aisle, i felt nervous due to the people's gaze and especially his, i kept my gaze on the ground, and when I reached the aisle, i saw someones hand in my vision.

I travelled my gaze from the hand to the face, it was him, i felt my heart quicken staring at his eyes, and I felt my breath trembling, I kept my step on the stairs.

when I stumbled and kept my hand on his and he gently pressed my hand as We walk to the the Agni, and sat opposite, and the did the rituals as the pandit told us.

"Kanyadaan ke liye, dulhan ke pita ko bulaye" the pandit asked, i felt lost, I didn't have anyone to do the kanyadan, I am orphan and this Rituals requires family, and I don't have one.

"Pandit ji, woh anat hai, kya mein uska kanyadaan kar sakta hu uske Bhai ke rishte se" i heard, amay bhaiya ask the pandit, i couldn't help but feel overly emotional.

I felt my tears were already fallen down when I hugged him, i couldn't control myself from doing it,

".hey, it's all alright, aj se mein tumhare Bhai hu, kabhi bhi  tum par musibat aye toh mujhe bata Dene, mein humesha tumhre paas hoga tumhari dekhbhal karena keliye okay" he whispered, while hugging me, rubbing my back

I nod at him, and retreated back and he did the kanyadaan and all the other rituals were done, and it was time for the most important ritual of the wedding.

"Dulhe ne dulhan ke maang mein sindoor bariye" the pandit told him.

He grasped the sindoor between his  fingers,i felt his hand brushing my forehead when he was putting the sindoor on my partition

I felt a bundle of emotions passing through as he puts, i felt happy, emotional, and felt some tears had gathered in my eye, and they fall along with sindoor which fell on my noses.

The Panditji told us to stand up for phere, he first got up and held his hand  for me to hold it, i slowly hesitatenly kept my hand on his and hold it.

I got up for the phere, and we did the rest of the phere, he was in infront of me for 4 rounds and I was infront of him for 3 rounds.

While taking the round, we held into eachothers pinky finger as instructed by the pandit and did the phera.

When it was over, we got down to touch the elders feets and I couldn't Describe what I felt the entire time, I was so confused and scared what will happen now.

Why did he marry me, who Kidnapped me here, why was I brought here, where was Shanaya, i couldn't concentrate on anything, it was as if question had been arised in my brain that i didn't know who to ask.

I didn't notice when we got in the car, and I was sitting beside him, while he constantly time to time rubbing my hand with his thumb.

I tried to remove my hand, but he didn't let me, instead pulled me closer to him, and held my hand in the tight grip.

We reached his house, and when I was about to open the door, he opened it and held me in the bridal style.

I didn't say anything, I was tired from the whole day, I want to rest now, I don't have any energy to deal with anyone.

He puts down on the ground, infront of the door and mami,was standing there with a thalli.

"Bete, zara isme paer rakna aur bhagwan ke room Tak Jana" she tells me and I nod, slowly keeping my feet in it and walking to the room.

I reached there, i prayed with him, standing beside me, and then aunty told me

" Bete iss mein apne dono haath rakhna aur, diwar par apne badh mein chipkan"

I nods and did as per as she said and we went to the living room, i couldn't feel anything, i had become numb that I didn't feel anything even in his presence.

"Naya, mujhe change karna" I told Naya after I called her closer, she nods and removed the shawl from his shoulder because my pallu and his shawl, they were knotted by his sister's.

We go upstairs, i noticed we weren't going to the room where I used to say.

"Hum kaha ja rahe Naya" I asked, then she replies to me.

"Simple si bat hai, ab apki aur Bhai ki shaadi ho gayi and I think heard that married stay in one room, so obviously we are going to bhaiya's room"

I felt my heart quicken at the thought of, i will be in the room with him, that alone, and I don't know what will happen to me nor do I know how will I act.

We went inside, I saw his room was decorated with flowers and decoration, i felt this tittle doesn't belong to me, it never did, it belonged to Shanaya so why am I here in her place.

I am her replacement right, when she cames back, he will marry her after divorcing me, obviously he will, he let his room be decorated for them,, I was never in this picture was i, then why am I here.

I changed, which was to difficult for us to remove, and I noticed myself, I was full on looking like a bride.

Chuda in the hand, mangalsutra around my neck, sindoor smugged on my partition and nose,  hands full of mehndi like a bride and some round thing on my fingers of my legs

I looked like a bride even though I wasn't one to begin with.

"You are his bride now, you'r Mr, bear's, the one you always longed for, the one you always loved,  he is yours now, you married him" my inner voice told, I shake my head denying.

No he isn't mine, he was never, and never can be,  he is like a star to me, so far yet close, and I can never reach a star, in this lifetime, a big no.

He'll always a star to me who is Forbidden for a girl like me,  a girl who had a traumatic childhood, a girl who was rejected because of her looks and brown colour.

But I will be always his, Even though, he isn't mine, I'll always be his, no matter what.

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Hii guys..

This is the chapter 21.

I want to ask you'll, whether you'll like if I update the lost starlight from today, like every day, there would a chapter from this book and a chapter from that book, let me know in the comment

Whether you want it now or should I update the book after this book finishes.

I hope you liked this chapter, and I am hoping you'll vote and comment your favourite dialogue from the previous chapter as well as from this chapter.

Byeee...