Kreety's pov

Whenever I think I can ignore him, I can't do that, it's like everything of me wants him, it always search for him, it always find peace in him, it's always been like this and it will be forever like this.

If, for his good future, i have to avoid him and leave him for his good, so that he'll marry her and be happy with her and I know, by the time, he'll also forget me when he starts to love her.

Shrugging my thoughts, i went in my room and brought my phone and went to the terrace, i called Aryan with my elbow, i mean the trouble I have to go through.

I connect my earphones with my nails and put it my ears and kept my phone in pocket, wait for him to pick up the call.

"Hii, bhaiya" I told in a low voice, I was tired from my thoughts, it haunts me.

"Hii, kreety, tumhari avaz kyu low hai, kuch hua kya" he asked, worrying about me.

"Nahi, bhaiya kuch nahi hua, aur tum batao" I told him, taking a deep breath and made my voice happy.

"Hmm," he says and kept quiet.

"Kreety, mujhe pata tum bohot dard mein ho, mein tumhe force nahi karunga bolne ke liye, bas bata Dena jab tumhara maan, ho okay." He says and I imagine him caressing my forehead, he always does this when I try to avoid his question about myself.

"Hmm, Mera rehne do apka batao" I say, teasing him, i know i know i change my emotions very quickly, i have been used it.

"Soo, mein aur mahi engaged ho gaye hai" he says, probably blushing right now.

We were having our talk, where I teased him, but then I was turned back, as I soon as I turned I was slapped on my cheeks, I hold my cheeks and look it was bua.

"Muje thappad kyu mara, bua ji" I ask her, holding my hand on my cheeks.

"Muje tu puch rahi hai, ki mene tujhe kyu mara, tuje aur bhi thappad padne chahiye " she told, her eyes were red with anger, I was also angry but I didn't let it show on my face and remained calm..

"Mene kya Kiya hai, Jo mujhe aur thappad padne chahiye bua ji" i asked staring in her eyes, i wasn't scared of her ,I had the guts to stare in her eyes.

"Tu mere Shanaya ke dulhe ke sath nach Rahi hai, ha aur mujhe puch rahi hai tuje aur kyu thappad padne chahiye, tumhe sharam nahi hai kya ha, kitni besharam hai tu, ghar todna chahti hai meri beti ka, ha, dekh mein tere kya karti hu" she says, and holds my hair and drags me down.

"Bua, ji mujhe chodiye, mein nahi nach Rahi tumhare beti ke dulhe ke sath, chode mujhe" I tell her, hurt by her pulling my hair, i was crying by the time we reached.

"Sab lok niche ahiye" she shouted banging her hand on the table and throwing the vase in the ground, they all came down running down.

"Ye kya, kar rahi hai, Riya, chod usse" dadi told her,

"Nahi, mein kyu chodo hai, meri beti ka ghar tod rahi hai ye" bua ji shouted ragging in anger.

I shouted in pain but she wasn't leaving me,

"Please, bua ji mujhe chodiye, dard bohot ho rahe hai" i pleaded at her but she neglected me.

"Usse chod, Riya" aunty and mami told her but she didn't listen, instead pulled my hair in more grip, i felt down on ground on my knees, I was too tired now.

Dadi ji and uncle can come infront to help me, but bua threatened that if they came close, she'll bang my head on the table, I got scared.

"Nahi, nahi muje chodo , please " i kept my hand on my ears, i was having a panick attack, i know.

"Tu, besharam hai"

"Tu, ek kala fater hai hamare, zindagi mein, Jaa maar"

Please, stop, these voices were haunting me, i gripped bua hands and removed her hand in jerk and went, hid below the table.

"Tum, bohot buri ho, tumne mujhe use Kiya"

"Tumhe marna chahiye, tu sadak par padi bachi hai, tumhe koi nahi hai"

" Tum Maro"

"Tum Maro

"Tumhe marna chahiye"

These voices, were shouting in my ears, those scenes were coming infront of my eyes.

"Dekho,toh inhe, kese ro Rahi hai"

"Nahi, please " I heard my voice was pleading to someone.

"Kyu, nahi, tum hamare pass kud ayi thi"

"Nahi, mein nahi ayi, mujhe laya hai, mujhe chodo please"

Those scenes were coming in front of my eyes,

Kreetyyy, kreety" someone was shouting my name.

My body was trembling, i heard someone shout but I couldn't go towards him, I was locked, my body was blocked from going.

I felt someone shaking me, and I slowly come out, it was him, his face was tensed, i slowly look at everyone, after I came out, with help of him.

He slowly made me stand, balancing me, and made me sit on the couch, kneeling down, made me drink water, i kept my hand on his hand, i felt the need of his support, i just look down, silently crying when he kept the glass on the table.

" Bhua, apne ye kyu kiya" he asked bua, in anger, i need to go to the room before I have any more panick attack, I don't have any patience to deal with anything right now.

I slowly get up, and I walk with the support of the couch, I hear them shout
I stumble, but walk.

I still hear, him shouting angrily to bua,I climb the stairs, when he comes,

" Tum kaha Jaa Rahi ho" he asks me.

I didn't say anything, start to walk on stairs, holding the railing.

"Kreety, tum niche aau please " I hear, him say please, and I look at him.

"Muje mere room mein Jana hai, isliye mein Jaa Rahi" I told, as I reached the corridor, and I walk, when he holds my hands, I dont want anyone right now,it's better for him to leave, I couldn't say that to him, i released my hand and walk towards my room.

As I walk, i could feel his presence behind me,I was tired from everything, i didn't want more drama in my life.

"You are bad omen in their life, that's why it happened with you, you are bad, tum sabko use kar rahi ho, tum koi bhi deserve nahi karta" my inner voice told me.

It's true, i don't deserve anyone, I am bad, I am a bad omen in their life, I am useless, I use everyone in my life, I don't deserve anyone to love me,the incidents which happened to me was deserving , i deserved that, i deserve more than that.

I reach my room and slowly closed the room, without glancing at me, I walk in the bathroom and stood in the shower.

I wasn't crying,i felt no tears coming in my eyes, just my heart was hurt, it was broken into many pieces that it is scattered everywhere, where no one can find them.

It was hurt by many people, that it has been used to feeling pain and not getting emotional about it rather making fun of it.

I slide down, the wall, tired from myself, I want someone to love, to handle me but I don't deserve it, I dont, i deserve worse

But I am tired, I am so fucking tired that I want to kill myself, I want to kill myself, please stop this pain, it's too much for me to bear, i want to feel the peace, I want to live in peace, please I have bear it enough from childhood..

I didn't have anyone to love me, from childhood but when I did, he was snatched from me, he is still snatched from me.

I fainted in the bathroom, and whole night I was in the bathroom, when I got up in the morning, I showered and got ready.

I went and stood infront of the mirror told myself, I have to be myself now, vaani will also get up now, so I have to pretend so she doesn't detect it, just pretend for few days and then you can do whatever you want.

I forcefully put my smile on and woke up vaani.

"Vaani, bache uth" I told her, shaking her.

"Hmm, mumma," she streches her arms and hugs me..

"Good morning, mere bache" I told her, clearing her hairs from her eyes which will disturb her.

"Good morning mumma," she says as she rubs her head on my chest, I rub her back and kiss her head.

"Chalo, ab utho and ready ho jayao" i told keeping her on the ground and she runs to the bathroom, while I remove her clothes which she gonna wear, today for haldi.

Yup, today is Nayas haldi, and today I wore, saree and vaani is gonna wear small lehenga.

She got ready, she looked so pretty, like Princess, i complimented her and she smiles and smiles like a princess.

We went down, and saw everyone was having their breakfast and this time, all of them are silent, i wonder why are they silent when they are always chaotic.

"Good morning " i wished everyone with a smile.

Everyone looks at me, like I am a alien, ayein, ye kya hua hai inhe.

"Good morning beta" aunty was the first one to wish me, i smile at her and say on the chair, ate my food.

He was sitting with us having his food but his gaze was on me, i could feel his gaze on me, this time i didn't feel anything, rather I was numb inside.

The whole he was staring at me, absent minded, I ate my food and went out to see everything was ready for for the haldi.

Soon every guest of theirs had come and he had gone to amays house to bring haldi.

The haldi was going on, everyone was putting haldi on Naya,and she wasn't happy, she was just having a small smile on her face, but her eyes was showing it all, i went to her and asked her.

"Tu has kyu nahi Rahi hai" she looks at me, blank like I had asked something horrible to her.

"Tu chahati hai ki, mein hasu jab meri bestfriend dard mein " she says, in a scarastic and angry tone.

"Aree, Teri shadi hai, you should enjoy it, leave about me, think of your future, okay " I tell her and went out, i don't know what I am feeling, was i happy that she thought about me when it's her wedding, she shouldn't, this is her big day and she should enjoy it.

I was standing, when I heard his voice.

" Tum kaisi ho" as I soon I heard his voice and I leave, I want to avoid him at any cost, I have to, I dont want to become a home wreaker like she said, I dont want to become shameless as she said, I am done hearing people say bad things about me.

I am not blaming him, i am protecting myself from everyone,so that I don't get hurt.

I was running, when he blocks me, I turn and was about to run when he pulls me and asks me

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Hiii, guys

This is the chapter 11

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