A/N: This episode is not as longs as the other and i'm sorry about that but this episode is so emotional and i just couldn't make it longer. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter.

TW: Death

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Your Pov

https://youtu.be/m9Qez8dcZFw

(you sing Puck's lines)

"I never thought I'd have to say goodbye to someone who felt like a part of me. You were more than just a friend Finn; you were my brother. We grew up together, grew our personalities together, shared countless laughs and tears, and supported each other through thick and thin. Your absence leaves a void that can never be filled. I'll miss you every day." I say as tears leave my eyes. Finn's gone.

The call Burt made me was to tell me that Finn had gotten into an accident and that he didn't make it. I remember the phone falling from my hand and the look of concern and confusion Rachel and Santana shot my way. I also remember the look on their faces as I told them what Burt had told me. Rachel looked broken, the shine in her eyes was completely gone. I'll never forget that look.

Here I was in the middle of the hallway watching as people dropped things into Finn's memorial. People who didn't even know who he was dropping by and putting flowers on his locker.

"Y/n?" I hear someone ask for me, making me get out of my trance and see Quinn standing by my side. Her eyes were red and puffy and i also see some tears leaving and sliding down her cheeks. Next to her was Santana and she looked the same as the day I told her the news. I put my arms around both girls and they snuggled closer to my chest.

Mr.Schue had invited us back to McKinley to do a memorial week for Finn. At first I thought about saying no but I knew Finn would want us to be there, so I drove myself, San and Rachel to Lima.

"I still can't believe it" I muttered and felt Quinn sniffing on my chest making me hug her tighter. It's also been three days since his funeral and everything made it real for me. He's not coming back "Mr.Schue is waiting for us in the choir room" San mumble with a sad voice and we made our way to the choir room.

As soon as I walked in the room I looked at his drums and the seat he used to sit in and tears came to my eyes. We all sat down and waited for what Mr.Schue had to say, in the corner of my eye I saw Puck coming in and sitting in front of me. I put a hand on his shoulder and as soon as he looked at me I could see the same tears that were in my eyes.

"It just feels so surreal" i hear Mike say and i sank in my seat "They don't make 'em like Finn" Artie says "He was our quarterback" i mumble and everyone nodded "We honor Finn Hudson by taking care of the people he loved, and the way we do that is by helping them to move on" Mr.Schue says while stepping forward "How?" Puck asked

"By not making a self-serving spectacle of our own sadness.And I think we can all agree, that's what Finn would have wanted.I'm really glad so many of you could make it back for this" Mr.Schue says and we all nod "We wouldn't miss it for anything, Mr. Shue" Quinn says and wipes away a tear "The funeral was for everyone, but I wanted to do something just for us.To memorialize him the only way we know how...by singing.All week long.Anyone who wants to can come up and sing.Maybe a song he sung, maybe something that reminds you of him..."

"Singing isn't going to bring him back." i said a little harshly and Puck nodded at me "No, it's not.Nothing is.Not ever,but...for two minutes or so, we can all maybe remember the best parts of him.So, think of what you want to sing, if you want to sing, and we'll start tomorrow." he says and i was about to stand up but Mercedes walked to the front.

"Oh, I-I can't wait until tomorrow, Mr. Shue.I've been balling for three weeks.If I don't get this all out now, I don't think I'll ever stop crying" she says almost crying "Sure, Mercedes. Start us off"

"Um...I, uh, remember Finn telling me that he sang this song to his baby's sonogram.Well, he thought it was his baby. He was the first cool kid to be nice to any of us, and he was... our leader in here. We love you, Finn" Quinn squeezes my hand as Mercedes started singing

https://youtu.be/HKQbboaXfE4

(You, Quinn, Katherine are all close to puck and Santana is by your side)

When Mercedes finished we all clapped for her and got up to hug her. When I got closer to Puck I could smell school on his breath, it made me frown and I saw his hands had dirt on them, so when everyone parted ways I followed him.

"Hey Puck" I said and he turned around fast "Let's go get some drinks" I said and the both of us walked towards the nearest bar. When we got there we started taking shots after shots and when I looked at the clock I saw that it was already 6pm "So pucky. Why did you pull the tree from Finn's grave?" I asked and he looked at me with a glare before tossing some money on the counter and walking away. With a sigh I also put some money on the counter to pay for the rest of the shots before grabbing my jacket and walking out after him.

"Hey, don't ignore me" i said and he pretended not to listen "Puck c'mon talk with me" i say and after a few seconds he turn around and punches me on the face, i stumble backwards and he grabbed me by the jacket and presses me again a tree that was nearby.

"Don't you dare try to be Finn right now. You are not him" he says and pushes me further into the tree "I'm not trying to be him dude, i'm just worried. Finn's irreplaceable, he's one of a kind" i say and Puck's eyes softened before he started to cry and released his grip on me "Come here" i say and pulled him into a hug "It doesn't feel real Y/n. It can't be real" he says sobbing and i start to cry too.

"I know Puck, he was our guy" i say and cry on his shoulder too "I'm gonna put the tree back on his grave i promise" he whispers and i nod "It's okay buddy, i got you now" i say and we walked towards his house, he was way more drunk than me so i went with him to his home.

When we got there I put him on his couch before leaving. I know it's weird but I just didn't wanna go home right now. I felt like i couldn't sleep, so i went towards Finn's place. When I got there I saw the living room light on and as I was about to knock on the door I decided to wait.

Kurt told me they were separating Finn's things and that seems like a personal thing, only for family so I just sat on their step and put my head on my hands while I started crying for the millionth time this week.

Suddenly it started raining, I didn't care. I just sat there under the rain and let the water soak my clothes and hair and before I could remember I leaned on the wood handrail and fell asleep.

"Y/n? Y/n wake up sweetie" i was woken up the next day by Carol, she was standing behind me with a towel and a sad smile on her face. Her eyes and cheek were red and puffy like she cried a lot. I slowly got up and realized I was still wet from the rain "Sorry Carol. I just fell asleep" i murmured and she gave me another sad smile before hugging me.

"I'm so sorry" I stuttered as I started to cry on her shoulder, she hugged me tighter and put the towel around me at the same time "How are you doing?" i asked her as we pulled apart "I'm walking towards it you know" she says and i nod as i dried my hair "I didn't knock last night cause Kurt told me you guys were going through some of Finn's stuff and i didn't want to disturb anything" i say and she gives me a thankful smile.

"Come in" she says and i nod, we walk in and i see Burt sitting on the couch, once he sees me he gets up and comes in for a hug "How you doing?" I ask in his ear and he hugs me tighter. "Holding up" we pull apart and I look around "Sorry to disturb you all" I say and Carol waves me off.

"Nonsense honey, after you helped Kurt go through bullying you practically became family" she says and Burt nods by her side "Well i considered Finn and Kurt as my brothers" i say and they smiled, i took off my jacket because it started itching, as i was doing that Kurt came down the stairs

"Hey Y/n" he says and comes to hug me "I was already leaving" i say and they frowned "Dear, wait up" Carol said and went to get something up-stairs "How are you Kurty?" I asked and he smiled sadly as he wrapped around himself Finn's letterman jacket "Bad. It just doesn't seem real" he says and I nod.

"I'm the same way actually. Have you talked with Rachel?" I asked and he nodded "She's a mess" he said and I sighed, before hugging him "I couldn't tell Finn that to his face but you and him are like my brothers, and I love you guys" I say and he starts crying on my shoulder.

"Here" Carol says while coming back and handing me Finn's football helmet. I looked at her in shock. "Are you guys sure?" I asked as tears came to my eyes "Honey, yesterday we were talking and Finn also saw you as his sister. He loved you, with all of his heart. HIs Jersey is going to Rachel but we wanted you to have something of his" she says and i start crying before pulling her into a hug again.

"When we were at graduation I gave him his helmet and he signed it. It was like he felt famous" Burt told me with a laugh and I chuckled "Lucky me i guess. I mean i have my favorite quarterback's helmet signed by himself" i say and hugged them all again with a smile "Thank you all"i say and they hugged me tighter. They are the ones keeping me on my feet.

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https://youtu.be/_9pwcNJQOpw

(You and Quinn are next to Santana and Kat is sitting next to Tina)

As Sam and Artie were singing in the auditorium I saw Santana leave the room, making me frown and go after her. I ran a little to catch up to her and when I did I passed my arms around her shoulders and brought her closer to me.

"What the fuck?" San says as we saw some cheerleaders taking down Finn's memorial. I ran towards the girl that had Finn's drumsticks in her hand "Give these to me right fucking now" i say and she widen her eyes before doing what i said, once i got the drumsticks back i walked back towards Santana "Sue told us the candles can't be here anymore" ne of the girls said making me and San look at eachother.

"Look i know some people who will beat your ass if i asked them too so if i were you i would listen to me and stop taking down this memorial" i say as i come closer to the girls and they got scare really quickly "We got some time c'mon" San says and pulls me towards Sue's office.

"You have no right to take down that memorial" San says as we storm inside Sue's office "Well, as a matter of fact, I do, Sandbags. Hey man-woman. Listen I allowed that memorial to remain in the hallway for over a week" she says and i scoff "Oh, please. You wanted that memorial gone because you're such a coldhearted b*tch" i say and she looks at us offended "What did you just call me?"

"She called you a miserable, self-centered bitch, who has spent every waking minute of the past three years trying to make our lives miserable. I'm officially over it." San says and i cross my arms "I don't care for your attitude"

"Well, I don't give a hot wet monkey's ass what you care for. You are not our principal." I say with a glare "See, I don't go here anymore, Sue, and that means I can finally tell you exactly what I think of you. I have hated you ever since the day I met you. You are a horrible person who never had a nice word to say about Finn Hudson, so don't you dare think for a second that he didn't hate you, too!" San says and starts crying.

"If I were you, I would choose my next few words very carefully" Sue threatens us and i scoff "What are you gonna do? You're gonna expel us?" I said and came closer to her "Get the hell out of my office!" Sue says and gets up "How about you make us get the hell out of your office?" Santana says and I can tell she's getting really worked up.

"Donna, call the police" she says to her secretary "Donna, you pick up that phone, and I swear to God, I will shove my foot so far" San says and Sue comes even closer to us "That's assault!" Sue screams and I see fire in Santana's eyes "No, this is assault!" she yells and pushes Sue back, hard, making her hit the shelf behind her All of our eyes widen and Santana runs out of the room.

"You know you deserve this and much more Sue. You can mess whatever you want with us, but Finn is dead Sue. He's not coming back, what you did was the worst thing you have ever done" i say and go after San. I start to look for her everywhere but after 5 minutes i finally found her sitting on the football field "Hey" i say and she turn to me and wipes away a tear "What you did was-"

"Fucking crazy" she finishes gor me and i chuckle "Yes it was, but it was also necessary. Sue went too far" i say and she nodded "Come here" i say and hugged her as she cried on my shoulder "Finn would be honored to see you standing up for him like this" i say and she smiles.

"I think i found the perfect song to sing for Finn" she says and i smile at her "Well then let's go"

https://youtu.be/TlWHTfrGhoY

(you and Quinn are next to Mike)

As Santana runs away crying I get up to go after her, but before I could move Kurt holds his hand up before giving me a small smile and I nod. I understood what he meant and I sat down while Kurt went after Santana.

"Puck? You wanted to sing something?" Mr.Schue asks after a few hours. Kurt was already back into the room and he told me that he gave Finn's letterman jacket to Santana. Puck grabs a guitar before going to the front. He grabbed a stool and started strumming some chords.

https://youtu.be/67u2O5omOsA

(you and Quinn are next to Mike)

"Where is it, Puckerman?" SAn came storming into the room "It's just a tree. I told Y/n I'd put it back" he says and pointed at me "No, not the tree. Finn's jacket. I went for a lie-down in the nurse's office, hung it up on the coat rack by her door, and when I woke up from my grief siesta, it was gone" my eyes widen as i look at Puck in shock.

"I know you took it. We all know you took it" My sister says and Quinn tries to calm her down "I didn't take a jacket" he defends himself "If we were rounding up the usual suspects, that would pretty much just be you" Kurt enters the argument "I didn't take Finn's jacket!" Puck screams "Enough! Please! No fighting this week. Santana?" Mr.Schue says while getting closer to the two and putting more space between them.

"Seriously, Puck, you can keep it tonight, but I need it back tomorrow. All right? It's Santana's now" Kurt says and walks away with Santana and Quinn behind "I swear I didn't swipe the jacket, Mr. Shue" Puck says and I could see sadness in his eyes "I understand wanting the jacket, Puck and I'm not saying that you took it"

"I didn't." Puck continues to defend himself "But if you did, all I'm gonna say is that all of us want some piece of Finn to keep close to us" Mr.Schue says and walks away with a guilty face, making me confused.

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It was the next day and this time I was standing in front of the whole glee club while having a guitar in my lap. I gulped and tried to swallow the tears as they came to my face when I saw Finn's drums. I see Quinn giving me a small nod and I take a deep breath before talking.

"Uh....Finn and I had a complicated relationship at first. I mean we did get into a fight" i say with a chuckle and the glee club smiles "But after everything we went through, Finn became like a brother to me. We had to be together for a long time when I helped him administrate the glee club and that was one of the most important moments in my life. He was a fucking hero" i say and a tear slips down my face.

"Yesterday I was sitting in my room and I wrote this song for him. It's going to be the first song on my album so i can always have a piece of him when i present my music around" i say and Mr.Schue smiles with pride at me "Here we go"

https://youtu.be/8ofCZObsnOo

At the end of the song I had tears streaming down my face. The glee club kids surrounded me and we hugged each other. When we pulled apart Kurt pulled me away for a bit.

"I send the music to my mom like you asked" he says and i look at him with hope "She loved it Y/n, you really are a part of us" he says before starting to cry. I smile and bring him into a big hug. Once we pull apart he checks his cellphone and his eyes widen "Rachel's here" he says and i widen my eyes "Yeah. I'm gonna go get her. Tell everyone to go back to their seats" i nod and run back inside. I said that to everyone and all of us got back to our seats. Quinn sat next to me and pulled my arm a little.

"I'm so proud of you Y/n" she says, making me smile and hug her, San grabs my hand and I give her a firm squeeze as we see Rachel getting into the room "Nobody treats me with kid gloves, okay? I don't know what to say, either. I loved Finn, and...he loved me, and he loved all of you guys. I know he did. I like to sing in the car and, um...and before Finn, I used to sing alone...and this was the first song that I...sang with him when we would...drive around together, so...this is for him" Rachel says while some tears slip down her cheeks.

https://youtu.be/z-uLll_cZHs

(you and Quinn are next to Santana)

I could see all the emotion Rachel was going through and her song and her voice made me cry for two reasons. One she really was Finn's soulmate and now she has to move on. Two I just keep imagining if something happened to Quinn and I had to deal with it. It made me cry even harder.

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