High school was about to start for me. I've just came back from another funeral for yet another family member that was close to me..

I went to my bedroom turned my iPod on and crashed onto my bed. My blue eyes were all red and puffy from the sobbing that I did. I flipped thru my songs until I found carry on my wayward son by Kansas And played it ..

It seemed as if no one cared about me anymore .. like I wasnt there anymore.
I knew i wasn't ready to become a high schooler but I learned to deal with it..

Everyone else wad okay, I forced myself to believe nothing was wrong with me but I knew there was ..

I find myself up in the middle of the night sobbing and wailing for those that were in my life. Crying to be accepted by my uncle and cousin..
I get up every morning a forced a broken smile upon my face that no one notice ..

I truly was alone and depressed ..
No one wanted to help me escape this feeling

This is the true self im forced to hide in my empty dark hollow heart..