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When it comes to Mckayla, she'll always go out with her birthday parties! I mean, when I arrived with Andrew, hand in hand, her house looked totally awesome, I could sense the cool factor oozing from the house as Andrew and I walked up the stairs, hand in hand!

Thankfully I wore the big guitar on my back, if I was carrying it in my hands, the part of the case I'd be holding would feel quite damp due to my very sweaty, nervous hands.

Ew!

I looked over at Andrew, and wow, he wore a gold chain, loose basketball shorts and a nice black tank top, the butterflies were going crazy again! Before I said something dumb like "I love you...."

"Mm?" Andrew turned his head to face me, I blinked and laughed, "Oh, I just love your outfit and all! Are you excited to see the party?

"Hell yeah." Andrew nodded his head and grinned, "This party is going to be tight."

I nodded my head and watched Andrew ringing the doorbell, standing closer, I sighed happily and clung on to his arm like a sloth.

That was a close one! I mean, if I did say what I just said, would he say it back?! Would he think it's werid? I mean, I need to not have a major freak out!

When the door open, Tracey was in the doorway, wearing a tailored suit with bright green sneakers and a beanie on top, she smiled and ushered us in, and as I stepped in, the thumping beat of the music filled my brain as we walked down.

Andrew was walking ahead as I walked back with Tracey, I looked up and was in just pure awe about the whole party, with all of the spooky green decorations placed a grin on my face as I sighed happily. "This party looks perfect; Mckayla must have worked hard on this."

"Oh yeah, she totally did!" Tracey agreed, "God, I can't wait for her Quinceanera party, next!"
I turned my head and blinked twice, "What?"

"Mm? What?" Tracey raised an eyebrow, "What did I say?" 

"You just said Quinceanera, right? McKayla never mention that."

"Oh! Well, She told Andrew and I."

"Yeah, but she didn't tell me." I pointed out, "What's up with that?" 

Tracey tsked her lips and patted me on the shoulder, "Oh Rosey, Rosey~ Look, it's not a big deal, she simply must have forgotten, nothing else."
She shrugged.

"Yeah, okay." I sighed and played with my hair and took deep breaths; Why didn't Mckayla tell me about her second party? Why didn't anyone else tell me about it? Is it just a mistake?

I shook my head and tried to take a deep breath as I entered the living room, the room was spaced out, with then DJ Guy blasting the best music ever, with the loud thumping base and the jumping beat.

Everyone was on the dance floor, cheering and having a good time as the DJ kept playing this one song with a thumping base, a jumping beat and with an awesome guitar sound!

Andrew and I moved over to the tables filled to the brim with salty popcorn, cans of orange soda, hot, sizzling pizza in boxes and bunch of red and black cupcakes far as the eye could see!

Andrew chatted with Tracey as I picked up a cupcake  and began to chew it, Tracey grabbed some sodas and handed one to Andrew, "Oh by the way, Andrew, I wish you good luck."

Andrew chuckled and drank his soda, "Mm, yeah. But I'm sure I don't need it."

Was there something I was missing? I looked at Tracey who smiled at me, "Liking the party so far?"

"It's fine-"

"It's great!" Andrew chimed in, "Where's Mckayla?"  I sighed and glanced over at Andrew, but nobody noticed, as usual.

"Oh Mckayla? She said she wanted to surprise everyone later in the dance!"

"Cool." Andrew smirked, "I wonder how it's going to go down."

I sighed and drank my soda as everyone began to talk about McKayla.

I mean, I do love her and all, and it is her party, but sometimes it feels like all they do is talk about her.

I backed away to see how the party scene was going, and of course, everything looked awesome! Everyone was dancing on the floor with a lot of dance circles around, I just danced along to the music and tried to see some of the dances in the circles, I kept getting pushed out!

After the 5th time, I marched back annoyed to one of the other food table and looked at everyone else and saw a lot of purple, like a lot a lot. From plum pants to Boysenberry shirts and jacket, everyone had some form of purple on them.

I looked down at my own outfit, a red zipped up hoodie with dark jeans, I gulped and got some soda for myself. Why didn't anyone just tell me to wear purple?! I look like a stupid red mess and for what?! I stood by the dance floor, just watching everyone else having fun as I kept drinking it.

I should have just asked, maybe someone would have told me! Maybe-

"And Now, Introducing McKayla Queens, make some noise!" The Dj roared over the microphone as everyone looked over to see McKayla at the stairwell with leather pants, a neon green tank top with a funky graffiti top and a wine purple cap with black Xs.

"What's up everyone!?" McKayla hollered as everyone clapped and smiled for her as she ran down the stairs, and the DJ turned up the music again for everyone to dance to. Mckayla looked awesome, Andrew and Tracey walked near the dance floor and clapped for her.

"Hey guys!" Mckayla waved, "How we enjoying the party so far?"

"It's pretty amazing, Mckayla." I smiled, Tracey dropped her jaw and rolled her eyes, "Understatement much? This is THE party, I loved your entrance, dude!"

McKayla smirked and flipped her hair, "Thanks. It's the best one in years; glad you're having fun guys." Mckayla looked over at me and titled her head. "Huh, great red hoodie, Rose. It... suits you well."

Tracey and Andrew snickered behind me as I forced a smile and nodded my head, "Thanks." Andrew smiled at Mckayla, "You look really good, Mckayla. Real good." He flashed a grin, Mckayla giggled and lightly touched Andrew's chest. "Not so bad yourself~"

Andrew's eyes shined like a bit before he walked off, I scoffed and crossed my arms and glared at him before looking over at Mckayla. She raised an eyebrow, "What's up with you?"

"Why didn't you tell me to wear purple? The invite never mentions wearing any certain color." McKayla shrugged and hummed to herself.

"I guess I just forget, but hey!" Mckayla placed her hand on my shoulder and smirked at me, "It's just a color."

I stared at her and nodded my head slowly, "Right..."

Mckayla took her hand off me and made her way to the dance floor with everyone chanting her name as I watched her dance with Andrew, Tracey and some of her other friends.

It might have just been a color mistake, but while I noticed some of the gossip girls giggling at me as they point at my outfit, I'm starting to think it wasn't a mistake...

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Andrew and I got on the dance floor together, staring into each other's eyes as he twirled me around, dipping me down, and as we kept dancing, I looked into his deep coco brown eyes...
But; they felt different.
I mean, still pretty and soft to look at, but it's like, a spark had been removed from them.

Then out of the blue, he pulled me off the dance floor and we moved towards the edge of the house, where I could see cars parked out in front.

He took a deep breath and smiled at me, "Hey, can we talk about... us?"

"Yeah, what's wrong?" I swallowed the lump in my throat.  Andrew shook his head and grinned, "Oh it's nothing. Look, I like you and all, and I'm hoping that if when we get to high school, we keep things chill."

"Keep things chill? That's it? I asked, Andrew smiled and nodded his head as I sighed and smiled, "Yeah, I can do that. If you ever need anything, I'll always be there."

Andrew nodded his head and smiled, showing his pearly whites at me, I sighed happily and brushed my fingers through my hair, everything's fine and great! My world didn't just crash and burn! 

We just talked again, as I tried to make the butterflies inside of me not burst when Mckayla walked over, holding a platter of chocolate cupcakes with grape-flavored frosting with purple and black sprinkles on top.

"Hey guys~" Mckayla grinned, "I got you guys some cupcakes; my dad had a chef he knew baked them for me. They're super tasty! Try it!" Mckayla moved the platter towards me, but by accident, one of the cupcakes fell on my sneakers, gunking it up.

"Oops! Sorry Rosey~" Mckayla winced, I smiled nervously and picked up the cupcake from my shoe, but the purple ring of frosting still stayed on there. "Uh, that's okay, Mckayla. I'm not mad. I just need the bathroom."

"Okay, it's upstairs on the right. You remember that, right?" Mckayla asked, I nod and walk away from Mckayla and Andrew, only to noticed them talking again, Mckayla offered the cupcake platter again and Andrew bit into one, but when he did, she leaned in and whispered something in his ear, and he just had that spark in his eyes again.

How odd...

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As the party kept on going, Tracey was super insistent that I'd followed her around the whole night, in her words, "Losing a friend here isn't such a smart idea, you know?" She smirked, I smiled back at her and crossed my arms.

"Okay then. You wanna just get more snacks? I'm still kind of hungry." I chuckled, Tracey smiled and nodded her head, "Why not! It's only natural that we have good times together, we are good friends~"

Tracey began to push me from behind towards the kitchen as I stayed quiet. Tracey saw me as a good friend. I mean, we are friends, but then again, it seems like she prefers hanging out with Mckayla over me.

Nevertheless, we ate the cupcakes McKayla's dad ordered and drank too much soda for my own good, but as we did so, some other girls came over to talk to Tracey about something. "Mm? What is it?" She titled her head.

"Uh, it's about the gifts? Where do we put them? We bought a lot." The first girl chuckled nervously as Tracey sighed and smiled, "I'll show you. Oh, Rose?"

"Yeah?"

"I might take a little while but have fun!" Tracey waved as she ushered the other girls to where they placed their gifts as I was all by myself, sipping on sodas, but after the 4th can, I needed to use the bathroom again, so I got out of the kitchen and began to walk up the stairs.

The upstairs felt different, you could hear a pin drop on the carpeted floor, and thankfully, as I ran towards the bathroom, I didn't slip and fall. I quickly used the bathroom and washed my hands.

When I left, I heard a faint sound.

"Oh you, you're too sweet~"

I kept walking around to hear it better, still unsure to hear it better when I stopped by McKayla's room.
There was a lot of giggling and laughing and then the sound of.... Kissing?

What the? I grabbed the handle and jiggle it gently, it's unlocked. I gently open the knob and peaked inside of the room.

And what I saw would be too much to explain. McKayla and Andrew were laughing, utterly wrapped around each other and kissing each other! When they parted for air, McKayla had this lovey-dovey look in her eyes and touching his chest like he wasn't in a relationship with me!

"What the hell, you two?!" I pushed the door open, Mckayla and Andrew backed away from each other as I turned on the light and slam the door as hard as I could.

Andrew kept looking away from me as I felt my entire body shaking into pieces, I took a deep breath and balled my hands into firsts. "So, what's this for? Huh? Why were you guys kissing each other, huh? Tell me!"

"Can you not?" Mckayla scoffed, "Why are you even up here anyway?"

"To use the bathroom! But that doesn't matter! Why are you with my boyfriend!? You knew I like him; you told me that I need to do nice stuff for him, and you're kissing him behind my back? What is wrong with you?!"

"God, Rosey! Calm down, we're already done anyway, get over it!" Andrew growled, I turned at him and blinked back tears, all of the butterflies I felt before were bitten by vicious snakes.

"W-what? We didn't break up, you told me that we need to keep things chill, big difference." I argued back, Andrew placed his hands in his pocket as McKayla shook her head and smirked at me.

"See, you heard it yourself. You guys are done, get over it." McKayla scoffed, I stared back at her into her eyes before taking off my glasses and placing them back on.

"Okay, okay... that's fine. Be with each other. I hope Andrew was worth it!" I slammed the door and ran out of the party, out of the house and went back home before I sat out on the steps and covered my face with my hands, sobbing like a baby. Everything felt so blurry, they lied to me! I was a dummy for 6 months! Did anyone care? Why do it today? Of all days? Why this day?!

Why? Just why?

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~Dear Diary, ~
~I'm tired, I got back home at around 7:20 Pm and Mom was asking me questions about me being home so early.~

~Of course, I told her that I was just feeling tired, and when I got into my room, I bawled my eyes out, screaming into pillows and stabbing said pillows with pens, but that's about it.~

~I just, I can't believe it. This is actually happening to me! To me of all people. I can't help but wonder why? Why did McKayla do this to me? In fact, how could Andrew and McKayla do this to me?!~

~I need so many answers, but I also don't want anything to do with this whole drama! I'm just sick of it all and it barely started! I'll probably just make a big post about everything, ho

~Looks like I need to clean out my stuff a bit earlier then I thought I would need to.~
-Rosetta H.
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(Author: Chapter Four of the Lolita Diaries is out! Please enjoy! I worked super hard on this one! Thank you!)