Aaron's POV

Disclaimer: I can't say this enough but please proceed with caution with this chapter. If you are easily depressed or have any other thing like that, please be mindful of the following chapters. Also, I in no way shape or form, support suicide.

*Play Song*

Aphmau's been acting weird lately.

I mean, weirder than usual.

Usual being the past year of her unbearable pain.

She was getting better, but then out of nowhere, she started getting sad again.

What is going on?

I just want to be there for her...

I just want to hold her and protect her against this cruel world.

She's lost her father, than her mother...

What else could the world throw at her that could hurt her even more?

Aphmau's POV

*Play Song*

"KATELYN! IT'S HOPELESS!" I exclaim, my face on the brink of tears.

"Aphmau, just because you've seen some treatments and they didn't work, it doesn't mean none will work" Katelyn states, crossing her arms in a frustrated manner.

"Why did I even listen to you....." I scoff.

Katelyn face fills with hurt.

"Katelyn, I'm sorry, it's just that it's hopeless....the more we look, the more hope we lose.."

"But you are just saying just give up all hope we have left!" She retorts, her eyes wide.

"Katelyn...."

"No, you can't give up! What do you think everyone will think of this! What your parents would think? What he would think?"

"He?" I question, curious.

"You may have a brain tumor but that doesn't mean you can play dumb, you know who I'm talking about! Aaron!"

I  say nothing.

"See? Just by mentioning his name, it renders you speechless."

"I'm going to bed, night Katelyn" I say as I run up the stairs.

When I'm about halfway up the stairs, she yells something up at me that almost makes my heart stop.

"You are loved by so many people Aphmau, and if you die, it'll break them"

"It'll break Aaron...."

"It'll break me....."

I slam the door close to my room, then lean against the wall.

It'll break them....

Those words just keep ringing in my head.

It'll break them....

It'll break them...

It'll break him....

I know there is no chance I can beat this cancer.

My mother was the strongest fighter I knew, and she failed.

Who says I, who is the weakest person I know, can succeed at something that she failed?

I can't win.....

But I can also not lose.

I can beat life at its game.

Maybe....maybe I can spare everyone pain...

If I just go sooner.....

Please remember I in no way shape or form, support suicide. I hope this book can show you the numerous cons of it and the nonexistent pros. Just remember you matter, we all matter, and today may not be the best of days, but there is always tomorrow.

Have a nice day my crystals!