JOURNAL ENTRY #5

Wednesday, 1st January

12:11 A.M

A new beginning, but not a new me.

I can hear the darkness deafening me, I can see the pain blinding me.

Everyone is celebrating a new year.

I am sulking another year to live with myself yet again.

It's too much to bear. Sometimes I feel that it's better over with.

But I can't. I have much to live for. But I have much more to not.

I can hear my family partying downstairs. I feel the echoes of their happiness.

Wishing I could too. Wishing I could feel the happiness radiate too.

I'm numb. All I can feel are my failures, the darkness within me.

Juniper.