To Madison

Honestly, I now understand why you wrote letters and stayed in the study room. Writing letters has in some way calmed me down, and I am not as upset and guilty as I was before. And the study room has literally been my bed, I am here whenever I am not with you in the hospital.

The police had come and taken investigation of your attempt, they had asked for any sign of depression and I am sorry but I have them your letters, luckily they said they will be giving it back to us in the original condition. For some reason, I want to keep those letters forever. It will be a memory of when we went through a hard time.

I had decided that Rosie should go live with Austin and his girlfriend for the time being. It was hard, but in the state I am in right now, I don't think I will be able to take care of her. And I believe Austin will take full care of her.

You still haven't improved at all, no health changes, no physical moments. Nothing, please get better soon.

I love you to the moon and back.

Love you,

Shawn