"Mr Douchee!" *hiccup*

"I have a question."

"Yes Angel." He smirks rubbing circles around my hand.

"Why are you an asshole."

"Because my mother was a bitch and my father is an ass."

.......

"Uhhh."

Do you hear my heart shattering to pieces?

"I think so." He chuckles making me feel insecure. I said that out loud.

"Yes you did." He laughs.

"I'm full now!" I exclaim to Ryan who's staring intently at me but he seems lost, distracted even.

He blinks at me and smiles when he sees my four empty plates, six empty wine glasses and one empty chocolate fountain.

It's funny how they kept changing the glasses as soon as I was done with one and Ryan just stared at me the entire time, helping me crack the lobsters and clams etcetera.

I really had to wrestle with the oysters there. But you know what? They're gone.

You know why?

"Cause I'm the champ." Wow, I really said that out loud, he barely notices it.

"Finally we can go to bed." I agree, big meals and me equal food coma.

That's a guarantee.

We get up and the floor's wobbly, "I feel woozy." I say trying to brace myself.

He quickly comes to my side and helps me stand, his hands so sure of what they're doing.

Wonder what else they do.

"Okay, too many drinks." He says.

I am offended, me?

Too many what?

"It's wine for Rob's sake, I'm fine." I say steadying myself, "Sure, let's go." He says.

Suddenly we're in a moving vehicle.

He's playing with my hair as I rest my head on his muscular broad shoulders.

He's looking so happy and content it's strange.

"Ryan?"

"Hmm?"

It takes a while for my words to come out.

Come on make a sentence it's not that hard.

"What did I want to say by the way? I forgot."

Damn it!

"I don't know what did you want to say?" He asks smiling down at me looking like a freakin angel.

"Oh, yeah. Why are you being so nice to me? I thought you were mean to me."

He thinks about it his eyes going up then coming back down. "I don't know."

"Weird answer but I don't care because I'm in my little La La Land."

The soft brushing of my hair is so comfortable.

I just want to stay like this forever.

Feel the calm beating of his heart against his chest the movement of his diaphragm contracting and expanding. I just want to be like this forever.

Dumb dumb you said that twice.

An insane idea pops into my head from nowhere.

"Ryan, I wanna go to the beach."

He coos softly, "We'll go tomorrow." I sit up balancing myself with my hands propped up on his thighs.

"No, you're not getting me. I wanna go now." I demand but knowing very well that I sound like a toddler.

"No, you're drunk, don't want you to drown." He says gently.

"Now." I emphasize looking him straight in the eye.

He shakes his head crossing his arms.

I plant my hands on his sculpted chest tugging on his shirt pulling off my best puppy dog eyes.

"Pwease?" He puts my hands down slowly but I'm not giving up yet.

"Please!"

"No."

"Please?"

"No."

"Ryan it'll be fun."

"Are you insane it's going to be cold."

"Ryaaan." I whine finally letting go of my dignity slowly.

I have another idea.

"I'll take off all my clothes right now if you don't let me."

His eyes widen as he looks around kind of nervous.

"You wouldn't."

"The driver can't see me come on!"

His shocked expression turns into a smirk, "You're bluffing." He retorts.

I return looking smug, "Fine, don't say I didn't warn you." I say removing my hair pins and shaking my head trying to get my curls free.

I slowly take off the straps of my dress not losing focus on him.

His dumb look is fading quickly turning into one of utter shock and embarrassment.

My bra is nearly off-

" Okay, okay fine! We'll go to the beach."

"Hehehe! Sucker." I say cackling and quickly putting my dress back on.

"I've done worse mothafucka"

I'm going to the beach.

some moments later

"Babooshka!Ryan's an asshole!"

"Whoo!" I exclaim running around kicking sand and mocking Ryan who is leaning against a palm tree and smoking.

The adrenaline rushing through my body is too much, I need to get it out.

It's so hot too.

"Ryan!" I have to yell his name just so he can hear me.

"Yes?"

How come he didn't have to yell?

"You have my phone right?" I ask getting my way to an idea.

"Could you go to my playlist!"

"Sure." I fall to the ground backwards which sets Ryan off.

I lift up my thumb to let him know that I'm okay.

It didn't hurt, it just feels like I hit a very course pillow.

In like thirty seconds of trying to make sand angels my favorite song starts playing.

I get up excitedly timing the chorus right.

"You're so gorgeous! I can't say anything to your face, cause look at your face! You're gorgeous." I screech continuously pointing at Ryan.

"I'm so curious,blah blah blahh wa wa wa! You're gorgeous!"

I sing wholeheartedly whilst mad crumping in one spot.

Ryan's just watching me look like a fool laughing.

You know what?

I'm not going to look stupid on my own.

"Ryan, come dance with me!"

He laughs and walks closer to me still smoking till we're at shoulder length.

He puffs out smoke in my face and I frown fanning it away.

"That is so rude." I say to him and continue, "Why do you like smoking anyway? It's bad for you."

He smirks at me and asks, "Why do you eat so much?" I am taken aback a little bit.

"Oof...because I can't live without food, it's good for the soul." He looks at me with a 'precisely' look.

Fine, I lose this round.

Then the next song starts playing, "We could leave the Christmas lights up till January."

I look at Ryan gleaming with excitement, he looks like he's just about to crack.

"Ryan?Do you know this song?" He nods hiding that smile.

"Dance with me." I say grabbing his hand pulling him to me.

"Fine." He groans rolling his eyes.

He puts his hands firmly on my waist as I wrap my arms around his neck.

The chorus comes and our feet move in sync as I sing lowly, "Can I go where you go? Could we always be this close? Forever and ever." Ryan continues which shocks me from head to toe.

His deep voice harmonizing with Taylor's.

His voice is amazing!

"Oh you're my my my my, lover" We both sing looking at each other's eyes.

His eyes the color of deep forest pools just waiting for me to dive in and never come back.

I don't even realize that we're going straight into the water.

Ryan smirks and says, "Wanna swim?" Knocking me out of my daydream.

Is it a normal dream because it's the middle of the night?

"Yes! Let's go have some fun." He takes off his jacket and tie and shoes and dives in so elegantly.

I remove my shoes and walk up to him now that he's standing.

The cold water rising above my knees.

The music continues as I find my way back into Ryan's arms.

So warm.

He picks me up bridal style and before I know it I'm three feet in the air arms flailing and splashing into the sea.

It's much much deeper here because now I have to tread.

Where'd he go?

I look around but he's no where, just the sound of water lapping against the beach.

This isn't funny anymore then he shows up from the deep right in front of me the moonlight illuminating his gorgeous self.

I splash him with water, "You asshole! Why would you do that?" He smiles coming closer.

"You like games don't you." His voice low and husky. I hate when he does that.

We're now so impossibly close, our breathing increasing and visible in the air.

He lifts me and I wrap my legs around his waist still looking deep into those fierce eyes.

I know what's about to happen and I'm not fully ready for it just yet.

He kisses my neck moving his nose along the nape.

"Don't you want this?" He asks his breath brushing against my cheek.

I put my arms around his neck and really emphasize this, "Don't break my heart Ryan Walker."

On cue his lips collide with mine and we're sharing a deep and passionate kiss.

Our lips moving in sync and my head is screaming finally.

I don't want this to end. We let go slowly and I see his expression so content, like it's been so long and his questions have been answered.

He lets me go and I push him into the water laughing at his 'wtf just happened?' expression.

This continues for a while.

I don't know what I'm doing, I just hope that it's the right decision but for now let me be happy.

I just don't want to end up a fool in the end.

Though I am kinda stupid at times. But I'm sure that this is the right decision.