1 month PASSED

It's so hard to catch my breath. My muscles are burning and sweat is dripping from every crevice. My left side is bleeding profusely but I can't touch it. So much for a Zen class.

This is a terrible position and I've been in it for twenty five minutes! The clock on the wall in  front of me says so. 

The silence is deafening in spite of some jocks whimpering as the teacher silently comes around each of us one by one. 

Right now I might just piss my pants.

 "This yoga position, it's called the Vriksasana. Oh it's fun and relaxing the first 30 seconds then every fibre of your body starts to scream in pain. The point of this subject is to show you that you children. Our future leaders never relax, never sleep! Sleep is your enemy, I can tell by the smell of your sweat that some of you eat pancakes and pizza for breakfast,  lunch and dinner." Master Cheng says spitting in Asher's face. 

This man may be old and fit but that does not mean he can do whatever he likes.

 Well i think. 

The poor guy is trying his hardest not to die from laughter. 

He will die definitely because our wonderful teacher just stabbed Roxanne some pimped up Alpha in the eye after she tried to set her foot down. 

Imagine what he will do to a person that laughs.

 I'm assuming that he takes things literally because he suggested our muscles will be screaming and that's exactly what's happening now!"Class!"

His eccentric behaviour is annoying, all our teachers are eccentric. 

You'd think that Ryan would let you off with a warning or something. 

My body is about to collapse it takes me every fibre of my being not to shout the question "what" at him. 

He stops in front of us gawking as he is about to open his mouth he throws a star blade at someone. 

We hear a very loud yell from a male. 

Maybe it's the douche Oscar. 

Do...not...turn...around. 

He's constantly testing us.

 He throws another at someone this time the scream is pitchier and a thud fills the silence. 

"Shit!" Another who could barely whisper fell on his own. 

Cramp maybe?

 This is actually kinda funny.

 "Class we have an exam in a month as you all know. Anyone who fails will lose half a brain just like Roxanne earlier. Why would anyone name their child after a tik tok song?"

 What?

 Are you freakin kidding me?! 

My jaw nearly drops to the floor. 

Well somebody just did, another dude who got too excited. 

The groaning and falling is comic if you listen to it carefully from my end. 

How the heck does he know tik tok.

 FMYLYF!

 I have so many questions but  first I realised that this was another test. 

"Class dismissed."He says.

 No one moves, for the first time no one rushes to leave.

 You know why?

 Because during the first class he told us that he dismisses us when the bell rings. 

It hasn't rung. 

This is an improvement considering how hyper we are and...get. 

He nods in approval. 

This is so not fair.

 Does he not understand the anguish we are in.  

By we I mean me.

 I have a wound in my side just because I wasn't standing properly. 

I wasn't fully 'zen'. You feel for me right? Right?!

Drip drip drip, the blood i need falls onto the leather mat, tik tik tik, the clock is taunting us.

 I need to go home to my pancakes!!!!!!!!!

Mia is probably having the time of her life in Dinner class with Amber who does not know how to properly eat pizza.

 Who the hell eats pizza with a fork and knife!

 That is disrespectful. 

Oh yeah. 

Amber is Ryan's cousin and Asher's new girlfriend.

 I really hope she's the one. 

 I think she is because of how weird she is. 

And yes I'm still stuck on the fact that she eats everything with a fork and knife.

 I love her though.

 Very nice,kind,caring,smiley,high most of the time unlike Ryan.

 Ryan has been so cold to me lately, I do not know why. 

My grades are at A+ every week and he makes it seem like i butchered a baby panda.We share the same classes now. 

Yeah, no way out of that, I'm screwed. 

He's right next to me looking calm and zen from the corner of my eye.

 Maybe he's mad because I throw knives blind folded better than the whole school including him. 

Why can't he give the spotlight to everybody else.

No one bullies me as much as he does. 

Yells at me for being too far away when I go to parties with the girls.

 Beats up other guys when they look at me for too long. 

Zac and Asher are getting sick of it too. He treats me like a trophy in public, occassional handholding, walks in the school garden. 

Giving me his football jersey before every game just because it's convincing. 

Kissing me whenever Alphas, Betas and Omegas stare suspiciously. 

I'm getting sick of this game because *sigh* a part of me wants this to be real.

I'm human okay?

 It's okay to have feelings for once and lately I haven't been able to feel. 

Our pillars are strength, focus and power. And none of them allow emotion, feelings are weakness now where ever I go. 

Soon I'll be Mrs whatever his last name is and be stuck in a fake  relationship. 

I'm scared that if I leave...I might miss out on the opportunity of a lifetime. Finding love.

I want to cry so bad now. 

The physical pain can't amount to the mental and emotional pain I'm in.

 The bell rings and shadows rush past me as I relax and set my foot down I can barely remember how I walked all the way to the infirmary alone. 

Is this really how I feel without pancakes and food on my mind. 

I think I"m going insane.

Maybe it's the blood loss. 

Yup, I'm just insane. 

I lie down on the gurney as asked by the whack looking nurse and fall asleep.