Chapter 4~ Tragedies and Trust Issues

When both of the males returned I sat them in chairs before taking a seat on the bed. Then I started my tale as words and memories flooded my brain.

...Unclean...

Flashing images of my past, "I was being beaten and bruised by brutish men hired by my own parents. Everyday a living hell in that cage. No food, barely any water. Constant scars and reminders of how freakish and dirty I was until one day the men got tired of beating me up. They decided that I wasn't even good enough for beatings, no they decided I deserved far worse though none of them probably saw it that way..." I laughed bitterly as I explained to the two males in the tent, vivid flashes of my past replayed on an endless loop. "One day they took me out of my cage...brought me into a dark and stuffy room filled with dirty disgusting men and liquor. They chained me to a table and tore off the rags that I called clothes before..." I trailed off lost in my past only to be pulled out by Smile's, no Ciel's, voice.

"Before what?" he asked tentatively, even though everyone in the tent knew the answer already.

"They raped me..." I murmured, "No matter how much I begged for them to stop, no matter how much I bled, no matter how much I pleaded for the gods to save me, anyone to save me from that hell they just laughed. All of the men in that room just watched, drank, or defiled me further. They were treating me like their own personal slaved or pleasure, and I could do nothing about it."

...Unnecessary...

"Since the day I was able to walk and speak my family was degrading the very thought of my existence. I was useless, I could never do anything right. No matter how much I craved or wanted their love it was never given. I was a freak, a mistake, something that should have never been brought into existence. I endured the torment from the only family I knew until I was old enough to leave the estate." I should have been crying, but instead I held a burning anger inside my heart causing me to have a hardened gaze.

The butler, Sebastian I believe, asked, "Estate? Does that mean you were once of noble birth?"

"Indeed, my real name is Siren Amare Sapientia Venatrix Sin Roseworth, but I have long since abandoned my title of nobility and taken on Sin as my last name, it's befitting of someone like me."

"Did you run away?" Ciel asked, but more like interrogated.

"No, I spent most of my time in the forest outside the property of my family's estate. I got lost there when I was younger and Lady Artemis blessed me. She along with Aphrodite, Athena, as well as Hades gave me some hope and purpose for me to keep living." I replied blankly.

"The Greek gods gave you blessings of power?" Ciel asked. I only nodded in response.

"I'm sure they didn't mean to, but once I was blessed I gained more powers furthering my parents distress and hatred of me. They felt threatened because they were more directly connected to Thanatos than I, their daughter, and yet I was the one to receive all of the power. Every generation in my family had Thanatos' power, except for my parents." I continued to explain my origins as well as my family tree.

"Wait but wouldn't one of your parents be an outsider to the family?" Ciel questioned, skepticism clear in his gaze.

"No, my family had a long standing tradition that we were to marry and have children with our own family. My parents were brother and sister. Just like the Greek gods my family had incestuous relations throughout the generations in order to keep the bloodline pure and powerful. But when the power skipped a generation my family thought it was a fluke and my parents and I were abandoned. They blamed me for their misfortune. Even though I am quite glad they despised me so, I would have had to marry my cousin who was absolutely horrid. He wasn't very bright and had a terrible bullying streak, much to arrogant which gave him an ego so large that when he was older he felt he could defeat anyone. He went to war and died. To my knowledge I have no family what so ever."

...Unwanted...

"The day my family sent me off, was the day that all of my hope in humanity died." I stated bitterly.

"How old were you?" Ciel asked.

"When I was blessed by the gods I was merely three years old, when my parents sent me away it was my fifth birthday. I spent five years being beaten, when I turned ten I was raped by those rats. I escaped a year later." I answered with a dark look that seemed to make both of the males cringe.

...Pain...

"Daily I endured the torture, constant taunting or scars added to my body and mind. Images I will never be able to erase, a history that will always be there haunting me eternally. The pain and agony of my past fueled my hate. I wanted to make them suffer, suffer the pain, the sadness, the loss of hope." I looked up to see an expression of understanding cross Ciel's features.

"You wanted revenge, to make those that wronged and humiliated degraded defiled you pay..." He stated more than questioned.

"Did your parents every come back or change their minds, surely they wouldn't have been so cruel as to completely forget?" Sebastian tried to ease the tension.

"No they never changed their minds, a few years after they sold me off they came to visit. Though they were too drunk to realize it was me, they even participated in the beatings. Going as far as to burn me with Grecian Fire." I stated coldly.

"Grecian Fire?" Ciel wondered.

I opened my palm and summoned a small flame, it was a sickly shade of acid green, "This is Grecian Flame, the flame of the gods, it has the ability to burn everything, and everywhere even underwater. Even though I was able to erase my scars the burns that I attained through this fire are never healing. They cannot be erased," I closed my palm and extinguished the flame. I untied my corset so that it fell loose, exposing the burned scared flesh of my past, they still looked fresh. But the most striking feature about it was what it said...

"Suffer?" Ciel read in shock.

"They wanted me to remember forever, to never forget what I endured," I redid my corset and sat back down.

...Revenge...

"I had had enough, when I was eleven I escaped my prison. I practiced my powers until I was able to use them correctly, then I got my revenge." I stated darkly smirking at the thought.

"You killed them?" Sebastian spoke after a moment.

"Eventually. The men that had beaten and defiled me were the first to go. I captured each of them before stuffing them in cages in the cellar of my own parents' estate. I barely gave them water but made sure to beat them every day like they had done to me, when they were barely alive I made a visit to my parents for the first time in years. I had grown, I was twelve now and knew how to use my powers. I locked them up in a cage with the rest after showing them what I had accomplished. After I disposed of all the bodies of the vile men I did the same to my parents until they were broken and pleading for their lives. They begged for forgiveness and had the gall to call me their daughter. I watched the fear in their eyes only grow when I summoned Grecian Fire. I controlled it so that it only burned my father, hearing my mother's screams as I watched my father burn before turning to her. I looked at her and said with a smile 'Goodbye!' before burning her with the same fire." I finished. Both males looked shocked but then they smirked.

...Determination...

"Afterwards I was reduced to working the streets, kind of like a vigilante hunting and killing the criminals that I deemed evil. When I was thirteen I caught wind of a circus that was capturing children under the influence of a noble. Naturally I followed the lead and here I am, I joined this circus under the name Siren Sin in order to kill the noble because of their actions as well as the ones under him." I finished with a look of determination and pride.

"I see, so you are willing to help me?" Ciel confirmed.

"Of course, why would I tell you all that if I didn't want to. You must know Smile I have trust issues that go as far back as when I was a little girl. I do not nor will I ever trust easily, but keep this in mind as well...once I trust you it is a privilege and honor, but if you do anything to lose my trust that I had placed in you it will never be regained." I told him seriously.

"It is almost time young master, Lady Sin. Let us go to the performance tent, the show will be starting soon." Sebastian stated as we walked out of the tent and towards that large performance tent.