The air is warm and fireflies buzz alive around us. Joel's hand slides around my side, firmly gripping my hip with rough fingers. I cast a questioning look, but then notice his reasoning is a group of teenage boys going quiet as we pass. I try to ignore them and calm my stuttering heart.

Stumbling with joel's arm wrapped around my waist, we make it to my front porch where my light was left on. A warm welcome home, inviting us in.

I fumble to unlock my door and mumble a 'sorry' to joel, as he gently takes the keys from my hands into his.

"Nervous?" He chuckles lightheartedly.

"Yeah." I blurt out.

"Oh. I was expectin' a witty comeback or somethin'." He unlocks the door smoothly and gestures after me.

I glance around, looking for any signs that I left the house in disarray. The only thing I'm able to spot are a few glasses on my coffee table. The house is slightly warm as tommy hasn't found a generator for me yet, but thankfully a breeze blows through my open windows, cooling my heated cheeks.

"Erm, yeah. This is me." I mumbled turning around to face him.

He turns and stares into my eyes as his arm moves and he turns the deadbolt in my lock behind him. I gulp, tentatively taking a step backwards.

He moves towards me and cups my face in his hands, kissing me roughly. I let out a whimper as he reaches down and grabs my ass. He peppers kisses down my neck and mumbles something.

"W-what?" I ask, eyes fluttering in euphoria,

"Bedroom darlin'. Where is it?" He replies, pulling back to chuckle.

"O-oh! Right, it's this way." I shyly grab his hand, leading him into the hall. My heart is hammering in my chest so loudly, I think maybe he can hear it. I padded around the room, distracting myself with lighting candles. He watches with an amused smirk from the doorway.

"Didn't pin you as the romantic type." He remarks.

"I-it's for light." I mumbled embarrassed.

He shakes his head and laughs.

"I'm just pullin' your leg. Relax." He teases and makes his way over. He pulls me into another kiss and I can feel the blood roaring in my ears. He slides his fingers up my shirt and rakes his nails across the side of my stomach. I gasp, and he slides his tongue into my mouth.

I moan softly and let him take the lead, doing as he pleases. I start becoming aware of something firm on my thigh and I almost see stars. Suddenly, he pushes me onto the bed and I bounce back.

"J-joel!" I Squeak.

He grips my shirt into balled fists and rips it down the middle. The tops of my breasts are exposed and I'm scared he'll do the same with my bra.

"You can get another." He winks in the dim light.

I cover my eyes with my hands and he parts my legs with his knee. I'm blushing furiously as I hear rustling, and a few seconds later I hear something metal hit the floor.

His belt.

Hands grip my wrists and he crawls on top of me, knee hitting my heat. I shudder, and he feels it. My hands are pulled from my eyes and I'm met with brown ones.

"Don't hide." He purrs.

Thoughts swirled around in my head as I felt him pepper kisses down my stomach. Now that we were behind closed doors, Joel was a completely different person. In the barn he seemed so shy and hesitant, and now he was like an animal.

He unbuttoned my jeans and took them off, tossing them to the floor where they wouldn't be missed.

Growing shy, I stop him with my foot to his chest.

"What about your clothes cowboy?" I remark.

He chuckles and steps back to yank his grey short sleeve over his head.

"Better?" He asks.

"Much." I say nodding.

He stares at me for a moment and cocks his head to the side.

"You wanna help me out here sweetheart?"

The name he gives me almost makes me melt into the bed. I sit up confused for a moment and my heart speeds up at what he wants me to do.

With shaky fingers, I undo the button on his jeans and gently tug them down. My face feels hot and biting my lip is the only thing that keeps me from screaming. I pull down his boxers and suck in a breath at his size.

His fingers tangle in my hair and I grow nervous. I've never done this before and I'm worried I'll mess up.

I close my eyes and lean in to take him in my mouth. He doesn't taste bad and I sigh mentally. Not sure of what else to do, I start suckling softly. He lets out a slight groan so I think I'm doing something right. I pull off with a pop and lick the head, swirling my tongue in circles.

He gently pushes my head down until my the tip of my nose is touching his pubic hair. I gag and tears form in my eyes.

"Fuck." He pulls me off and gently lifts my head up by my hair, until we're eye level. He kisses me and a string of saliva trails behind when he lets go.

"Lay on your back baby." He pushes my chest down, and I fall back onto my soft covers.

He grabs my ankles and snaps me forward so that my ass is on the edge of the bed. He pushes my knees up and presses a tender kiss to my clit through my panties.

I whimper and blush furiously.

I look down, and he's making eye contact. Slipping his fingers into the waistband of my panties, he pulls them off and goes slack jaw.

"Oh darlin'." He whispers huskily.

I cover my face with my hands again and he starts pressing kisses along my thighs. His hot breath reaches where I need him most, and then a tongue swirls my clit. I stifle a moan and my toes curl.

"You're already so wet. That for me?" He mumbles.

I don't answer, and instead my fingers make their way, tangling into his salt n' pepper hair.

He teases my entrance with a finger, then slowly pushes in. The euphoria that I feel is indescribable. I finally make a sound, and this seems to please him. He adds another finger, finding a pace to slide them in and out of me.

He brushes against something and my back arches.

"Right there?" He asks, curling his fingers again to hit the same spot.

"O-oh god Joel." I breathe out.

He chuckles and leans back in to suckle on my clit. I squirm and pant, but his other hand keeps a firm grasp on my hip, holding me in place.

A feeling I've never felt before begins to build up, and I grasp the bed sheets.

He breaks away for a moment to say something.

"Come on baby."

I make eye contact with him as he dives back down, and this sends me over the edge, the sounds leaving my mouth obscene. My legs shake, and I don't realize how hard I'm squeezing his head between my thighs until he laces his fingers with mine.

He sits me up and undoes my bra. I can't move, still in a daze. He shoves me down and kisses me roughly. He moves down my jaw and nips at my flesh.

I start feeling anxious as he attacks my breasts with his mouth. Maybe I should tell him. Would he still want me?

"Joel, I-ah." I most as he finds a sweet spot on my neck. He lines himself up with me and it takes everything I have in me to push his shoulders away.

He notices the scared look in my eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asks concerned.

"Joel, I-I'm um. I'm a virgin." I spit out quickly. My face is so hot, I think my head will explode.

He leans back and stares at me.

"Oh. I didn't realize. A-are you sure you wanna go through with this then?" He furrows his brows, no longer sure of himself.

"Y-yes! Yes! More then anything, I'm just...nervous is all." I look away from him, too embarrassed.

"It's okay baby, relax. I've got you. Trust me okay?" He coos.

I nod and open my legs for him once more. He kisses my forehead and pushes the tip in. The sensation is weird and hurts a little.

"Joel, I'm scared." I look back up at him, eyes glistening with tears.

"Shh, it's okay. It only hurts for a second, I promise. I'm gonna make you feel real good." He grabs my hip and places his other hand next to my head.

I let out a soft 'okay' and grip his forearms as he pushes himself into me. He looks up to gauge my reaction but I squeeze my eyes shut and throw my head back. Theres a bit of pain but it's replaced by an amazing euphoria.

"O-oh god!" I cry out.

"Shh, I know. I know." He wraps him arms under my shoulders and holds himself up.

He stills himself and buries his face in my neck. I try to get used to his size and dig my nails into his back.

"You okay? Does it hurt?" He asks.

I shake my head and he begins to move slowly in return. I gasp continuously at the foreign feeling and they soon turn into moans of pleasure. He speeds up and bites my neck.

"My god, you're tight." He states through gritted teeth.

A low squelching sound could be heard and I feel embarrassed by how wet I am.

"M-more." I gasp as he hits the same spot from earlier.

He re positioned his hips and went slightly harder.

"Right there?" He grunts.

"Yes! Yes! Oh god, please!" I cry out.

"You're gonna wake the neighbors darlin'." He chuckles, but I don't care.

I roll my hips with his and I feel pressure building up. He speeds up some and slams his hips into mine. I feel so full, and he hits every spot I need him to.

"Oh fuck, Joel please." I bite his shoulder.

"Mmm, please what?" He asks but I can't answer. Babbling like an idiot, I grip the sheets and arch my back.

"Come on (y/n), use your words." He coaxes through a groan.

I don't know exactly what I need or what I'm asking for, but all I know is I don't want him to stop.

"R-right there, p-lease don't stop." I say through a sob.

"D-don't stop Joel, please!"

The bed is shaking now, and my legs feel like jello.

"You're doing so good for me baby." He whispers against my skin as he fucks himself into me.

He changes the pace once again and skin is slapping on skin.

I sob and babble. It feels so good, nothing like I've ever felt before.

"Come on babygirl." He grunts lowly. I don't know what he's asking for but the name sends a sensation through my lower belly.

"J-Joel I- I'm-." I choke out.

"I know, it's okay." He moves his hand up to the bed board and angles my hips again.

"Fuck, fuck!" I cry.

"God, you are so fuckin' pretty, ya know that?" His hand wraps lightly around my throat and gives a squeeze. I grasp his forearm and look him in the eyes.

He lets go and pushes my knees up to my chest, slamming into me.

My legs shake again and I go to grab onto something, pulling Joel back down.

"O-oh god! Joel!" I scream and something rips through me. Ellie told me about this once, an orgasm. He kisses me on the mouth and continues to slam into me. I'm crying and moaning into his mouth, and he's loving every second of it.

"Good girl." He grunts, nipping at my jaw. He buries his face into my neck once more and groans. He's panting as his hips stutter, and he snaps into me one last time before going still.

We both lay there for a moment, our chests heaving. I don't know what to say and I can't pull my thoughts together.

"You okay?" He kisses my forehead and I blush furiously.

"Yes."

"Good. Here, let me go get you some water." He pulls out and I stare at his ass as he walks away.

Burying my face in my hands, I mentally scream before pulling myself together. I lift the sheets to see the mess Joel and I made.

I just had sex with Joel miller. I just lost my virginity to Joel Miller.

There was blood smeared on my thighs and sheets mixed with his cum. I gasped realizing he came inside of me. Fuck, what should I do ? What am I gonna tell Ellie?

He walks in before I could think of an answer and I try not to stare at his chiseled chest.

He sits down next to me and I grasp the glass with shaky fingers, gulping it down. He's quiet, watching me.

"Wanna get cleaned up?"

I nod and he holds his hand out. I grab it and stand. My legs felt like jello, so I use his arm to stabilize myself.

Outside, the cicadas are chirping, and there's faint music coming from the barn. I smile to myself as he leads me to the bathroom.