Hey, peeps, what's good.

Now, I'm getting serious, here.

For all of you who read my message post, you'll have seen that I sounded depressed and I quote-unquote, 'dug my own grave'.

It might sound a bit exaggerating, but to me, I felt like I made the biggest mistake in my entire school life.

You're probably looking at this confused why the heck that I, above most people, would even be sounding this monotone, when you can't even hear me. Logic.

I'll ask you guys the first question.

When you fall in love, like when that guy you can't just stop thinking of for a few days, then he turns around, with a big crowd of his own gang and some from your own level, points at you, and says 'I was joking! I never really liked you to begin with so...'...what happens to you?

Well, for me, I got crushed. Real bad. It happened literally YESTERDAY. These feelings I literally could not believe felt like I was trapped inside my own anime (SERIOUSLY, MY MIND LITERALLY WAS LIKE AN ANIME GIRL), didn't even last a week. I was humiliated and now I never want a boyfriend or anything like that again.

I don't even know if I can even live down that situation. I don't want everyone to stare at me and think 'Oh, that's the girl who fell head over heels for that one popular guy!'. Yeah, believe it or not, that guy was very popular and I had no idea, since he was a grade older than me. I had no idea. Now, he's hanging all over this movie star-looking model, like a cruel plot-twist in a manga.

This was just too terrible for me to even register until I got home and cried in peace.

Honestly, I have always thought my life was as ordinary and boring as it could possibly get, right now. Yes, it was pretty dangerous in the past, but beforehand, it was just plain bleh. But now that I got stuck in my very own, 5 day anime life, I never want to go back into it.

The MC in any anime or manga or Voltage Inc. app is strong. She's permanently stuck in whatever story the creators put her in. But she stays strong and survives through her story and beyond. I could never do that in real life, because it hurt and I ran away. She took the pain and dealt with it with everything she had and everything she was.

That just proves how cocky and weak I am in these types of relationships...

Sorry I made this sound like such a depressing update.

I already have these coming in slow.

And I'm not saying this to seek comfort, I just want you guys to know...love is a painful thing if you don't take it by the horns and just let it play around with your heart. Keep your guard up and learn a little about that one person you're looking for. Or you'll end up like me.

-Author