I saw dozing slightly on my bed, not quite ready to get up to get ready for the meeting yet. Ivan was next to me holding me close with his arms wrapped around my waist. His one hand ran up and down my back in a soothing way. My head was tucked under his chin. I felt safe being held like this. Everything was completely at peace.

I wanted to stay that way all morning, but couldn't. I felt my stomach churn, a feeling I am well used to my now. I tapped his arms a couple of time to get him to let go. He moved his hands and I darted for the bathroom. I proceeded to hurrel up chunks while he got me a paper cup. It was just then at Mattie bursted into the room.

"Guys, where are you?" He asked sounding panicked.

It was unusual for my brother to act like this. While being the only one to be allowed to barge into my room he normally doesn't unless it's an emergency. So it imeadiently put me on edge.

"In here. Ivan, can you go see what the issue is?" I asked him whith my head still over the toilet.

"Da." He said and left.

I tried to listen in on the conversation, but couldn't really hear all too well. I did figure out it was something pretty bad when I heard shouting. Starting to get nervous, I quickly rinsed out my mouth of the nasty tasting bile. I walked out cautiously in case fists were about to be thrown. To my relief the fighting wasn't between them two. Instead Mattie was showing him something on his phone. What ever was on it was making them extremely mad.

"Hey, what's up? What's going on?" I asked them worried, glancing between the two.

"Uh... It might be best if you see for yourself Alfie. Go turn on your phone." Mattie told me as he pointed to my phone.

I gave him a confused look, but walked over to my phone anyway. I had it turned off for the night making it so I received no notifications. I held the power button, turning it on. I had to wait for a few seconds for the phone to fully power on. Whne it did my notification sound started going off like crazy. It surprised me so much that I dropped the phone on the bed.

I looked over at the others surprised before picking my phone back up. After about a minute strait of the sound going off my phone finally quieted. I unlocked it and stated at it mouth open. I have over three hundred notifications! All from the World Group Chat that we all shared.

Dread settled in the pit of my gut as I opened up the chat. The second I read the first message.

*England* 3:12am
Kan yu belive not told$ merica hs baby in bellly.is pregonto& stupd git tod that Russsssiann wanker sistrs yeserdy af diner we both ito

*France*6:00am
Mon amie, are you drunk again?
What is this nonsense about out dear America being pregnant?

*Italy*6:01am
America is pregnant? That is so amazing!

*Romanao*6:01am
How do we know this isn't just a stupido drunk man rambling on about something he made up?

*Scotland*6:03am
I know my brother well by now, and he does not make things up when he is drunk. In fact he is the most honest while he is drunker then an Irishman.

*Ireland*6:05am
Hey!
But he is right. If our little brother says that America is pregnant then he is. I wonder why he didn't say anything before.

*Italy*6:06am
Yay! America is going to have a bambino. It is going to be so cute!

*China*6:09
Aya! Why hasn't he come to see me yet? He needs a check up to make sure that the child is safe! He is too irresponsible for a child.

*Prussia*6:10am
Maybe he didn't know you knew about pregnancy stuff? Most new male nations don't even know they can get pregnant.

*Brazil*6:10am
We can get pregnant?!?

*Japan*6:11am
I am still curious as to why America-san did not tell us yet that he is pregnant.

*Germany*6:13am
We will ask him when he shows up for the meeting today.

I stopped there, unable to read more. My phone shook in my hands, cracking from the pressure I'm putting on it. My heart started beating a mile a minute. It became very hard to breath. The room felt like it was closing in on me.

I collapsed against the wall. It registered somewhere in my head that it was not as harshly as I normally did. Everything became too much for me. The sounds, the sights, everything. So I pressed my hands over my ears amd squeezed my eyes shut. I tried so desperately to block every thing out. I couldn't think, couldn't breath. It was too much. I felt like I was going to pass out.

I felt a hand rub gental circles into my back. Another held my hand in theirs. From some distance I could hear voices cutting through the dark fog of my mind. An arm wrapped themselves around me and I clung desperately to the unknown life line. They pulled me closer to them. Close enough that I recognised their comferting scent. Snow mixed with pine and vodka.

"That's it little one. Just keep breathing. You're song great. In. Now out. And in. And out." A familiar voice instructed me.

I found my self breathing in and out when told to. Ever so slowly I was calming down. I had calmed enough to look up to see who's arms I was in. I saw a pair of beautiful amethyst eyes staring back down at me. I knew it was Ivan who was holding me close.

"I-Ivan?" I stumbled out.

"That's right my dear Alfred. It's me." He soothed as he gently wiped the tears from my face. I don't even know when I started crying. "You're okay Fredka. It's all going to be okay. Breath in." I took in a deep breath and held it for a moment. "Now breath out."

I let it go in a shaky breath. I had finally calmed down enough to get my bearings. I was on the floor, about three feet from where I was standing. My phone layed crushed on the floor. My hand was covered in blood, likely from crushing the phone. My brother sat a small distance away with the first aid kit, probably to give me some space.

I looked at him, looked at my hand, then held my hand out to him. He smiled at me and carefully made his way over to me. He gently took my hand in his. I watched for a few minutes in since as he cleaned at out my hand.

"What time is it?" I asked. My voice lacked it's normal cheery tone. I was tired and quiet.

"Almost eight. You were like that for a long time." Ivan told me as he continued to rub soothing circles into my back.

"We're going to be late. We need to get going." I told them.

"Alfred. You just had a panic attack and you want to go see the people who caused it?" Matthew looked up at me shocked.

"I am the world superpower. I can't let them think I'm weak right now. If I don't go to them, they will come to me. At least this way I'll have the four of you at my side." I told him. He finished wrapping my hand up, allowing me to stand.

"Fredka, are you sure you're up for this?" Ivan asked me, looking me right in the eye.

I chuckled a little. "I can take anything this world has to throw at me and keep on fighting. I will be okay. And if not then you guys will be there."

"Alright, if you think you can handle it." He told me as he kissed my forhead.

"Are you seriously just going to let him go right after a panic attack?" Mattie asked him baffled.

"Since when have we, especially I, have ever been able to control him?" Ivan deadpanned.

"...Fair enough." He sighed in defeat.

He has been dealing with me far longer then anyone else has. I gave him a look that was a mix between sympathy and smugness. I stood up on shaky legs and took a deep, calming breath. When I had steadied myself I gave them a confident nod.

An hour later we're walking up to the meeting room. Standing just outside of the meeting room doors were Katyusha, Natalia, and Gilbert. Mattie had texted them earlier, telking them what happened. They already knew from the group chat, so they offered to walk in the room with me. Even Gilbert wanted to stand next to me. It will sort of be a show of loyalty and union. If someone wanted to mess with me right now, they have to go through them.

"Hey guys. Glad to seeyl you all made it here safe. We were beginning to worry." Gilbert said with a laugh.

"Don't worry, we're fine. We just had something we needed to take care of first." Mattie told him before placing a kiss on his cheek.

"Alfred. Are you alright? You look very pale." Kat asked me in a very worried tone. She walked right up to meet to hold my hands in hers, trying to sooth me.

"Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. I'm just a little nervous." I told her as I rubed the back of my head. "I just wish that England would have kept his mouth shut for once."

"That is asking for too much." Nat added in. I snorted in laughter.

"You hit the nail on the head there, sis." I told her. "So, are you all ready to go in a face them?"

"We are if you are." Gilbert said and the others nodded their heads in agreement.

"Okay." I took in a deep breath and opened the doors.

It was dead quiet in the large room. You could have heard a ducklings feather drop on the plush carpet. Everyone turned to look at us. I quietly took in a deep breath and stepped forward to my spot with my head held high. I will not show fear or nervousness right now.

We walked over to the empty section of the table. For once I was at the head of the table so I could a dress everyone. I sat down with Ivan and Mattie on either side of me. Gilbert sat next to Mattie with Germany on his other side. Natalia sat next to Ivan, with Katyusha on her other side. Next to her was Cuba.

When the six of us had sat down I turned to look at the rest of the nations. They all looked back at me with expectant looks. I took a final breath in to steady myself. It was now or never.

"So," I started, my voice echoing slightly in the for once quiet room "you all have recently heard from England" I said sending a glare to said nation "that I am expecting. What he said is true. I am pregnant with twins. I am just over fourteen weeks long. I have known for about two months now.

"Just so you all know, my condition has not affected my work performance in any way. I am still able to make it to meetings, I am still able to talk to other nations about trades and what not, I am still able to perform my duties as a nations. If any of you have any questions, now is the time to ask. I will answer all to the best of my abilities. I will not answer to any shouting, screaming, or any other way that is not with someone raising their hand. You may ask me now." Dozens of hands imeadiently whent up in the air. "Yes, Italy?"

"Ve~Do you know if you are having boys or girls or one of each?" He asked me happily.

I smiled, glad I chose him first. "No, I do not. I won't know for a few more weeks. Sorry Italy."

"Ve~It is okay." He smiled cheerfully at me.

"Okay, who else?" I looked around. "Yes, Spain?"

"How do you know you are pregnant with twins?" He asked me. A lot of nations nodded in response, each wanting to know too.

"That is s good question. Canada, my brother, is the one who has been my doctor during this. He took an ultrasound of me and saw that their are two babies in me." I told them as I pointes to my brother. He waved his hand at the confused nations. "Next. Germany."

"How long have you been keeping this a secret from us? How much longer did you plan on keeping it a secret from us?" He asked in that gruff tone of his.

"I found out just before Christmas. Maybe a week before." I said trying to think back. "As for how long I was going to keep it a secret, well. I pretty much was going to wait untill you all figured it out for yourselves. Next." I pointed to France.

"Why?" He asked sounding a little hurt.

I stayed silent for a long time trying to put into words what I felt. I didn't want to hurt any ones feelings, I always hated doing that, so this was difficult for me. After a long moment of silence I sighed. Their is no sugar coating this truth.

"To start this is non of your guy's business. Non of were supposed to know for a long time." I glared at them. "Secondly I don't trust any one of you. I haven't trusted any of you in a long time.

"I don't want any of you all over me, stressing me out. I don't want any of you messing with me. I don't want to listen to any of your jabs or opinions. I wanted to be left alone, and the only way for me to be able to do that is if non of you knew untill I couldn't hide it any more." I ranted at them. "Non of you are good at minding your own business, hence why we are here in the first place. Someone," I glared at England "over heard something they shouldn't have, and instead of keeping it to themselves they had to tell literally the whole world. And what did the world do? Decide, via text, to stick your noses where it doesn't belong.

"Not one of you even bothered to ask me if I wanted to talk about this. You all just assumed I did or decided what I want isn't important. The only reason why I'm saying anything right now is to just make sure you all shut up and leave me alone during the rest of my pregnancy." I finished my rant at them, slightly out of breath.

It felt good to finally say something I've been wanting to say to them. It felt nice to finally point out their rudeness and unwilling to think about how I would feel about this. At least they had the decentcy to look ashamed of themselves. Most wouldn't make eye contact with me. Next to me Ivan and Mattie gave me encouraging looks.

"Now, are their any more questions, comments, or concerns?" I asked them as I looked aroind the room. Italy raised his hand. I sighed slightly tired. "Yes Italy?"

"Ve~ I want to say that I am sorry for not taking your feelings into consideration. You are the mother, you should have been the one we asked. I am sorry." He apologized to me.

"Si, we should have." Spain agreed.

"Ja. I should not have told everyone we would talk to you about this." Germany said with a small embarrassed blush. Gilbert reached over and gave his brother a pat on the shoulder. A proud smile stretched across his face.

"Oui. We never should have pushed." Francis said.

"Hai. You have my apologies America-San." Japan bowed his head to me.

"Shì. I should have known better by know then to stress an expecting mother out like this." China also apologized.

All around the room, one by one each of the nations apologized to me for forcing me onto this position. Even the ones who weren't so fond of me. I felt the corners of my mouth go up. For the first time in a long time I gave the whole world a real, genuine smile.

"Don't sweat it guys. I'll forgive you all this time." I laughed. "I won't mind talking to any of you one by one or in a small group. I know a few of you are going to be a little more curious. So after the meeting if any of you want to talk I'll talk. In the mean time how about we get this meeting back to it's original topic. Germany."

"Ja. Right. Everyone, it is time to officially start the meeting. You will each have exactly ten minutes to say your part. Their will be absolutly no going over the time limit." Germany semi shouted to the nations. Italy raised his hand not even a second later. "Germany recognises his friend Italy."

"PASTA!" He shouted in his normal cheerful voice. This effectively made the whole meeting dive into chaos.

I snorted a laugh. You can always count on Germany to get a meeting back on track and for Italy to derail it like the train hit a fallen bridge that was also on fire. I looked around the massive chaos that was the nations of the world. A small, proud smile made it's way to my face. Despite all their self centeredness they are still able to admit when they are wrong. They apologize to me for their inconsiderence for pushing me to do something I didn't want to do.

Well, all but one. I looked over to a certain Brit. While everyone else apologized to me he stayed silent. He looked anywhere but at me. Like he was ashamed of himself, but didn't want to admit it. Not that it mattered to me. He is no longer my problem. His actions have mostly no affect on me anymore.

He is not my problem.

After the meeting I stood talking with a few of the nations. Italy, Finland, Hungary, and Spain to be exact. They all wanted to know more about the babies and I showed them the ultrasound picture. After cooing over it for a minute they disbursed. When Germany came over to collect Italy he stopped to say something to me.

"Just so you know, because you are pregnant you don't have to come to meetings if they are too much for you. I don't want you becoming stressed or too tired." He told me.

I gave him a big smile. "Thanks bro. I think I'll be fine for the time being, but I'll definitely take you up on your offer later when I'm pretty much a walking whale." I laughed. He gave me a small smile before walking off with Italy in tow. With them gone it left only Ivan and I in the room.

These guys may be idiots and jerks most of the time, but at least they are some what nice and caring idiots and jerks some of the time. Sure, they can be a little inconsiderate. At times they can be rude and mean. They are only human after all. They do have their moments. They also have moments of great kindness and love. Times when they help each other out when they need it the most. Times when they can make the whole world feel like it can take on anything.

That is why I love them.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I leaned back into his broad chest. Peace and happiness washed over me. This is the world I am going to bring my children into. The world I love with all my heart, flaws included.

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Hope you enjoyed. I'm not sure when the next one is going to come out. I need some ideas for this book.