Preeti's point pf view

Today I am going to clear all differences between Siddharth and I. I can't let anyone come between him and I. Serra wanted to separate us but I won't let her succeed in her evil plans. I love Siddharth not just for name, I can do anything for him. Reina di and Bua ji left after dinner. Siddharth didn't came home till now. Dad told me that he is going to be late because of some important meeting.

Everyday he calls me every hour to asked about my health and he talked to me little longer. But today he didn't call me, not even a single message and I know today I hurt him so much.

When everyone left to their room, I changed my clothes and hot ready In red transparent saree. Siddharth loves red on me and this is the first step to ask his forgiveness.

It's already 10.15 p.m and there is no sign of Siddharth. I was sitting in the living on the couch, waiting for Siddharth. I was fledging with my red chura when suddenly I heard the honking of car and I know it's Siddharth. I got up and run outside towards our driveway. I stopped on my track when I saw Siddharth step out from the car. He had his coat jacket in one hand, upper two buttons were undone while tie was hanging loosely around his neck. His hair are little mess and he was looking tired but instead of all this he was looking handsome.

My heartbeat getting faster when his eyes met with mine and I felt tears at the back of my eyes when I realized, I was the reason behind his exhaustion. Without thinking anything I ran to him and jumped on him while hugging him tightly by encircling my arms around his neck. First he was shocked but next

moment he drop his jacket on floor and pull me closed to him by my waist and nuzzles his head in the crook of my neck. I tilted my head aside to gave him more space and spark flow in my whole body when I feel his hot breath on my bare neck. It's been more than a month when we hugged again each other and again I feel protected under his arms. Tears streamed out from my eyes and I sobbed while hiding my face in his chest.

"Preeti..love..why are you crying baby? Are you fine? Should I call the Doctor?" He break the hug and asked me looking at me worriedly while cupping my face, making me feel more guilty for pushing him away.

More tears streamed out from my eyes when I lost his warmth.

"Preeti..baby you are scaring me. Please tell me what happened?" He asked me worriedly and with concern.

I shake my head as no and said while looking at him through my heavy wet eyelashes, "I'm fine. I just want to be in your arms." And without wasting any second, he pulled me in his arms and hugged me. I closed my eyes and more tears escaped from my eyes when I feel his lips on my forehead.

"Let's go inside and talk there. Okey?" He asked me while breaking the hug and wiped my wet cheeks. I sniffed and nodded my head. He took his suit jacket from floor and then we both come into the living room hand in hand.

I lead him to the couch and make him sit beside me. As I was about to sit beside him, he pulled me on his lap. I encircled my arms around his neck and hide my face in the crook of his neck.

"Now tell me..Why were you crying? " I pulled my face from the crook of his neck and looked at him when he asked me.

Tears welled up again in my eyes when I looked in his coffee brown deep orbs which are looking at me with concern. He tuck the loose strand behind my ear and waiting for me to speak while looking into my eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry pushing you away in morning. Not in just morning but from last month too. I was so deep drawn in my own sorrow that I didn't realize that you are also going to the same phase. You also lost your baby, our baby."

"You don't ha..."

I put my hand on his mouth stopping him to complete his sentence.

"No Siddharth, Please let me say today. Today I want to share my all pain and sorrow with you." Tears fell down from my eyes when I was letting my heart, my emotions and pain, in front of him. I cupped his face with my palm and said, " I can see your pain, longing in your eyes, I can see how lonely you were feeling but I was so drawn in my own sorrow that I ignore you and push you away. How could I not see that you also needs me as much as I need you. We always share our pain, sorrow and tough time together, then why not this? Siddharth, I love you..I love you so much and I can't live if you also leave me." I choked in my own tears and broke into sobs.

"It was hurting when you pushed me away. I want to take you in my warm embrace and tell you how much I am missing our baby. How much I am miss, talking to him. It could my little princess, who exactly look like you and I will spoil her with all gifts and princess dresses, because she was her papa's princess. I was feeling so lonely that I wanted to rest my head in your lap and wanted to sleep like a baby." He said while looking deep into my eyes. A tear drop from his left eye when he was looking at me. First time, after that day, he pulled the mask down and let me see his vulnerable state.

"Preeti...I promise I will give you as much as baby you want but never ever push me away from you. No matter what happened in our life, I will never leave you and you also promise me, you never let anyone come between us, not even our children."
He said while directly looking into my eyes like he cam see my soul through my eyes. I can see love in his eyes but his eyes holding the possessiveness also.

I leaned down and kissed on his eyes while sucking the unshaded tear which he was holding.

"I promise, I will never push you." I said while moving to his other eyes and kissed on it. His grip tightened on my waist and he took a sharp breath.

"I promise, I will never let anyone come between us, not even our children." I cupped his face, bent his face and kissed on his forehead.

I looked into his eyes and he was looking at me with love. He cupped my right cheek and leaned down. I closed my eyes and leaned to his touch when he kissed on my forehead. I again feel protected and love under the warmth of his arms.

I put my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly while he also hugged me tightly by my waist. We both sit there like that under each others warmth. None of us said anything but our hearts talking to each other and after a long time I felt a weight lifted from my chest, I feel light like a feather and a saw new rays of hope in our life.

"Preeti..."

"Hmmm.." I hummed while nuzzling my face more in the crook of his neck.

"I'm hungry. I didn't have anything since morning." I gasped, after pulling myself from the crook of his neck and looked at him with shock.

"I'm sorry. I forgot to ask you. Aapne hume phle kyon nhi btaya ke aapko bhuk lagi hai. Or aapne subha s kuch khaya kyon nahi?" I asked looking at him with concern.

(Why didn't you tell me before that you are hungry and why didn't anything since morning.)

"I was busy whole day." He shrugged and looked at me apologetically. I so wanted to kiss him right now because he was looking damn cute right now but I control my hormones.

"Rukiye, hum aapke liye khana lugate hai." I said and get up from his lap. He protested first but when his stomach growled he looked embarrassed and loose his grip on me. I chuckled on his cute face and kissed on his cheeks before walking to the kitchen.

(Wait, I will bring food for you.)

I come back to living room with food and saw Siddharth in a deep thought. I wanted to ask him what is bothering him but I pushed the thought away. I will ask him later, first he need food. He is hungry. Today I make all his favorite vegetarian food. I am sure he gonna love my surprise.

I walked to him, Siddharth turn his face towards me when my anklets and bangles are twinkling and making sound while I was walking. His eyes stuck on me and he looked at me from head to toe like he noticed me first time in night. I feel tingling in my whole body when he was looking at me intensely.

I slowly walked to him and served food in his plate. As I was about to sit beside on the couch beside him, I gasped when he suddenly pulled me on his lap and caged me between his arms.

"Feed me like this." He said while tucking the strand behind my ear. Blushed crept on my face and I shyly took the plate and make the morsel of chupati and curry. His eyes were on me when I feed him the morsel and gasped when his tongue touched my fingers. Red colour crept on my cheeks when I saw so much intensity in his eyes.

When I was about to feed him second morsal, he took it from me and feed me.

"Aapko kaise pata that I didn't eat anything?" I asked him while ignoring the blush on my cheeks.

(How do you know?)

"Aaj tak khaya hai kabhi mujhse phle, jo aaj khaogi." He said while looking deep into my eyes.

(I know, You never eat before me.)

He know me so well. He knows that I didn't eat anything, if he doesn't eat anything. Why I pushed him away when I know he was taking care of me and loving me so much.

What good, I have done in my previous life that I get a husband like him.

After that none of us say anything and we both feed each other and I feed him the last morsel sitting on his lap. I wiped the curry at corner of his lips and we both keep looking at each other with unreadable emotions and love. His eyes shifted from my eyes to my lips. I know it's been a long time we both make love and even kiss each other. Today I wanted to shower him with all my love and wanted him to make love to me whole night. I don't want him to stop and keep exploring each other's body.

I want him to make move and kissed me with possessiveness and love. His eyes again fmet my eyes and I saw hesitation. It feels like he wanted to kiss me but something is stopping him. I cupped his right cheek and leaned to him. Our nose are touching and I can feel his hot breath on my lips. I leaned closer and decreased the distance between our lips. He took a sharp breath when I took his lower lip between mine and suck it. His hold tightened around my waist and his lips started moving against mine softly like he was making love to my lips. He took my lower lip between his and suck them after biting it.

"Aahhh.." I moaned when he pulled my lower lip and deepened the kiss after tilting his head little. His one hand is around my waist securing me in his lap while other one on my hip, squeezing it a little, making me want his touch more.

He licked my lower lip asking for the permission. I parted my lips little giving him the permission to explore my mouth. He thrusted his tongue inside my mouth and sucked his tongue with same passion as his tongue exploring my mouth.

I broke the kiss when I feel out of breath and put my head on his chest. My chest is heaving up and down try go catch some breath while his heartbeats were feeling like a music to my ears. I can feel his erection poking between my thighs. He also wants me, like I want him, maybe more than me.

He scooped me in his arms in a bridal style and I tightened my hold around his neck. He walked to upstairs towards our room and we both keep looking each other, intensely and love. Not for a single second we broke our gaze broke and keep looking at each other with love.

I opened the door for him and he closed it at the back of his feet. He slowly make me laid on the bed and leaned to me. I closed my eyes in anticipation and waiting for his lips to met with mine again but instead of my lips I felt his lips on my forehead and then I lost his warmth.

I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was sitting beside me and caressing my right cheek lovingly.

"You changed and sleep. I'll come after taking a shower." After saying this he got and went to washroom to take a shower.

I feel a pang of hurt inside my heart and I know he didn't do it deliberately. He also wants me like I want him but he stop himself because he doesn't want to force his feelings on me. He respects me that's why he didn't initiate anything. But today I want to clear this difference between us. I don't do it because I want to move on. I want it because, I am missing him so much. I am missing his naughty talks with me and the way he teases me when he make love to me. I am doing it because I want my old Siddharth back who didn't think for a second for touch me or kiss me. Who shows his rights on me before thinking anything.

I heard the sound of shower from washroom. Without thinking anything, I got up from the bed and went to the washroom.

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When I walked inside the washroom, I saw Siddharth was taking a shower. His head was rested on the glass wall, his eyes were closed while water is pouring on his bare back and he looked deep in thoughts. He was in his trouser pants while his upper half was bare.

Without thinking anything I walked to him in the shower. He was so deep in thoughts that he didn't realize my presence. I snaked my arms around waist and hugged him from behind. I kissed on his bare back where my name written on his back and rested my head on his back while warm water was pouring on me socking my red saree.

He noticed my presence because next second he hold my hand and spun me around. My back hit the glass wall and my eyes met with his intense coffee brown eyes.

His eyes roamed from my head to toe, drinking me in his eyes, making me shiver under his gaze. My saree was wet and stick with my body like a second skin, showing my all curves. My nipples become hard like pebbles and pocking through the thin material of my blouse. His eyes finally stop on my breasts and he looked at them with is hungry eyes while rolling his tongue on his lower lip.

I closed my eyes and and moaned when he rolled his thumb on my erect nipple of my right boob. But suddenly his moment stopped and I opened my eyes in curiosity. I saw hesitation in his eyes, like something is stopping him. Maybe at morning I stopped him that's why he is hesitating to make any move.

I pushed all thoughts at the back of my mind and leaned to him. He took a sharp breath when my lips touched to his jawline and started kissing, and sucking his skin while my lips travelled down to his neck.

"Uuugghhhh.." He grunt when I bit on his neck and then suck it to soothe the pain.

"Preeti..are you trying to seduce me?" He asked me in his harsh breath.

"May be.." I whispered between my kisses and took his one nipple in my mouth and suck it which gifted me a moan from him. His grips on my shoulders became tighter which encouraged me more. My hands roam all over his chest and abs. I wanted to feel his muscles which I missed in past month. Finally my hand roam down to his V-line and I touch his bulge over his pants and rubbed it. It was the first time I myself touched him otherwise every time Siddharth made me touch him down there by holding my hand. A throaty grunt escaped from his mouth and he grabbed my wrist, stopping my movements.

"Don't start anything, you can't finish." He said while looking deadly in my eyes. His jaw were clenched and I know how hard it is for him to stop himself.

"I intend to finish, what I started." I said while looking deep into his eyes and next second he slamed me to the glass wall and hold my both hands over my head.

"I'm a starving lion for month, I might eat you whole night." He whispered through his clenching teeth while looking into my eyes.

"I also won't stop you either." I whispered seductively looking into his eyes and next second he slammed his lips on mine and kissed me harshly and passionately, pouring all his anger in a kiss.

He was biting and nibbling with my lips and thrust his tongue in my mouth, kissing me deeply. I was trying hard to match with his pace but failed miserably. He grip my both hand over my head, with his one hand while he cupped my left boob with his free hand. I moaned and arced my back when he started teasing my nipple with his thumb and squeezed my boob in between. He let go of my hands and attacked on my neck. I hold him from his shoulders and move my head aside to give him more access of my skin to explore.

"You don't know, how it's hard for me to control when I saw you in this sexy red saree. You look dead gorgeous in red." He said between his kisses and nibble the skin behind my ear.

"Siddharth, make love to me whole night." I whispered while gripping his hair from his scalp and pull him more closer to me.

"I will, my love." He said while touching my bare stomach and tease my navel with his thumb.

He removed my saree pallu (drape) from my shoulder and kissed on my cleavage and he unhooked my blouse. He completely remove my saree from me and I was only left in my unhooked blouse and under skirt. He slide down my blouse form my shoulders slowly while kissing on the swollen mounds. Finally he removed my blouse and took my right nipple in his mouth and sucked it. I moaned his name and dig my nails on his back when my stomach churned in excitement. I clenched my both thighs together when I feel sensation and my core throbbed in attention.

*****

"Aahh..Sid..Siddharth..aahh.." I moaned and hide my face in the crook of his neck when he thrusted deeply inside me. My back was touching to the glass wall while my both legs are around on Siddharth's waist while he was pounding inside me securing me in his arms. I already come for two times while he was still inside me, thrusting inside me finding his cum.

"I love you so fucking much." I cried when he hit direct into my g-spot and I cum third time in our first round. He is all rough today like he is punishing me for pushing him away. His face is turn all red and his breathing was harsh.

"Uugghhh..." His muscles twisted inside me and cum inside me while moaning my name. I hugged him tightly when I feel his hot seed inside me, giving a spark in my whole body.

After that he make stand in my on feet. I stumbled but he hold me tightly, securing me in his strong arms. He cleaned both of us and wrapped a towel around me and his waist. He picked me in a bridal style and walked inside the room.

He carefully make me laid on the bed and kissed on my forehead. When he was about to pull away I hold his hand and stopped him.

"I told you, not to stop whole night." I said looking intensely in his eyes.

"But you are tired love and I was rough. You must be exhausted." He said while caressing my cheek lovingly.

"Don't stop yourself. Because I also want you as much as you want me." I whispered while cupping his both cheeks and kissed on his forehead.

"Are you sure?" He whisper while looking at me lovingly and I nodded my head. Next moment he removed the towels from our body and started making love to me.

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I and Siddharth sitting in our room's balcony on a cozy mattress and our body was covered with white warm blanket. We are not wearing anything under the blanket. I was sitting between Siddharth's leg and he was playing with my chuda while I was playing with his engagement ring. Moon was illuminating the whole balcony, making the night more calm and beautiful.

"I love these red bangles in your hands. You look like a new bride." He whispered while playing with my chuda.

"Our life is been a roller coaster ride in past moths but I am glad you are always with me and never leave my hand." I said and kissed on his palm.

"Everyday you call me every hour to ask about my health and talk to me. Then why didn't you call me today?" I asked while looking at him over my shoulder.

He didn't say anything and uncomfortable silence fell between us. I waited for him to say and open up to me.

"You were pushing me away and didn't open up to me. So I thought you need some space from me. It was hurting and hard away from you. Whole day, I was only thinking about you. Not for a single minute I focused in my work. I just wanted to be with you, in your arms or just wanted to hear you voice." He whispered and I can sense the intensity behind his words. He was hurt and being away from me, is hurting him more.

"I'm sorry. I hurt you so much. I was feeling guilty for our baby's death but now I wanted to move on from that and be with you. I want to give you all my attention and my love." I said and kissed on his cheek.

"Don't be sorry love. Because our baby's death is my fault not yours." He said while looking into my eyes and then looked blankly in front of him.

"Sometimes, I think that, if Serra was not obsessed with me then our baby still alive. You were not get poisoned. You were not in this condition. You will be happy without me. Sometimes I feel that I am a cursed in yo...."

"Siddharth...Please.." I put my hand on his mouth stopping him to say anything.

"Never, ever think about that you are a cursed in my life and I will be happy without you. Because without you I'm nothing. I am the most happiest person in world if you are with me and if living with you is a curse then I am ready to take this curse in all upcoming lives. I want to be your wife, your batter half in all our seven lives. So never said that again." I said and tears welled up in my eyes, thinking about my life without him.

"But I always give you a sorrow." He said while looking deep into my eyes and I can see the hurt in his eyes.

"No, love. Sorrow and pain is a part of everyone's life. Before you I was just breathing but I started living when you came into my life. You show me the beauty of the world and introduced me with the pure feeling of love. I live my most happiest moment with you and want more. If you are thinking that girls obsession put ruined my life then tell me one thing, will you live me if kartik's obsession create havoc in our life or you go through the same as I were go through?" I asked him and tears streamed out from my eyes. I looked at him with my heavy wet eyelashes. I can't imagine my life without him then how could he say that he is a curse for me. No he is a blessing to my life which only god gave to me.

"I never leave you love and I am sorry for saying that. I'm sorry for thinking like that." He said while wiping my tears and pecked on my lips but he convert the simple pack in a intense kiss. His hand cupped my breasts and he gave them a squeeze.

I looked at him with wide eyes when I saw the lust and love in his eyes.

"What..? I'm not done yet with you. Night is still young and don't forget I warn you before." He smirked and slammed his lips on me. I smiled between the kiss and kissed him back with same passion.

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