Dear Journal..

Welp, I'm back again and even more depressed than before
Yaaaaay *sarcasm*
So, uh, I've gotten confirmation that they both hate me-
This morning when Tana dropped me off for school, she didn't even say anything or hug me
She just... stared at me
I feel like one day she's just going to say "I'm only here for your dad, you can go die in a hole"
And a little bit ago dad got mad at me for something about spoons
I could hear him with her in the kitchen saying "this is bullsh*t, how do you loose a spoon?"
Then minutes later they come to talk to me acting all normal and like they weren't even mad at all
Aaaand when dad bended down to give me a kiss, he had one hand on the side of my face and the other on my throat
I don't know about you guys but I feel threatened
This is why I have mastered the art of lying
Life just keeps getting worse and worse and all I have to do is fake a smile and say that I'm fine
I'm so glad the people around me aren't observant
To sum it up, I feel alone and unloved