Today, I was........

Gosh I just hate myself sometimes.... UGH I mean, who cares about what I did today? I exploded a lamp in science lesson, so what!? I am just so busy with a lot, but when you look at what I actually do... It's nothing, just nothing! I don't have a writers block, I am not shy, I am not a junkie or agressive. I dont want to commit suicide, I am just a girl... a single lonly, depressive girl, who really is not having her day today. Who on this damn planet cares? I hate holland, where I live, I hate boys, where I have to live with every day! I hate my brain, well guess who hard it is to live with that! I just hate everything about myself, and I really understand why guys don't like me, Im ugly, not special at all and stuff.... I write, okay!? So!? I dont write super, or amazing, I'll never be a real writer. I sing, but not very good, not even good. I act, very good, but there are just so many other people that can act, but I'm just in the middle of nowhere so I'll never have a chance! That's why I sometimes just hate to watch Disney series with young girls in it: I mean : hello, I want that freaking too! I hate homework, just working in class is already a hell, and at home all I can do is write things, even though Im not even doing that anymore... I just sit and do things on my computer, even though my whole body screams: DO YOUR HOMEWORK!! CONTINUE THAT EXERCISE! LEARN THOSE WORDS, NO!NO WATTPAD NOW!! STOP WATCHING VIDEOS! and one cell in my body is like: but I like this more than working, so fuck off!! So that is just what is going on with me... I hate to be so negative, but I can't help it. It just goes automaticly! I just hate those people who think their lives are tuff, because they got a B instead of an A! Or because of their boyfriend/girlfriend broke up! I MEAN MY WHOLE FREAKING LIFE IS RUINED BECAUSE OF MY ADHD, THAT IS WAY WORSE THAN BREAK UP WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, WHO IS GOING TO LEAVE ANYWAY, NOW TOMORROW OR IN A YEAR, IT WILL COME!

So no words of the day, no guys of the day, no actors of the day etc! The one that helps me the best right now will be dedicated to in the next chapter, but nobody will comment anyway, so why would I even say this?

Watson the grumpy, angry little hobbit OUT!!!