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A/N: You and Jared are in college for this imagine

Your POV

"The sun was shining through the curtains, it felt like it was setting every inch of my body on fire. 'This has to be the last time, Jared' I told him.

'I love you'. It was a whisper, I could hardly hear it fall from his lips. Then he stood, pulling on a sweater and sweatpants. I remember following him down the corridor and outside.." I inhale sharply, remembering his every move. "I didn't even try to stop him," I conclude, my eyes fluttering up to look at my therapist.

"Y'know, Y/N, I think your issues really stem from this moment. You lost someone you loved very dearly and perhaps that is what spurred on this sense of insecurity. I do find it interesting however, the reason why you gave him up". The overpaid shrink glides her pen over the paper. This was bullshit and I can't believe my mother forced me to take yet another session. "I'm going to give you a little homework now, if you will," she said, chuckling at her nonexistent humor.

---Time skip---

"That sad excuse of a break up happened last month. But I am over it now" I wrote into my diary. Of course I have a class with Jared now. I have that kind of luck where god says to me "oh hey, is your life pretty shitty? Well here, let me help you out there with that- just kidding!"

I continue walking to my next class when I catch a glimpse of Jared and his new girlfriend Artemis making out:

I feel my stomach turn and my chest ache at the sight. "Y/N! Hey, lemme walk you to your next class" someone calls out to me and I turn to see a fellow student, Adrian, smiling at me. Not wasting any time, I run up next to him and he rubs the back of his neck as we walk. "For the record, I think he really messed up losing you".

"Thanks, Adrian. By the way, I really enjoyed your piece on Rutherford".

"Oh, that? You should see some of my good work if you liked that," he jokes and from the corner of my eye I see Jared watching us. "Hey, um, I'm uh having this silly little get together on Friday. It would be dope if you could make it Y-Y/N".

"I would love to. Definitely text me the details!"

---Friday night---

The noise was unbelievable, the vomit-covered ground shook.

"Yeesh, It's only 10pm, how did this turn into Coachella already?" I yell to Adrian, who smirks as he makes his way over to me.

"Let's get some liquor in you girl," he says passing over a bottle of Vodka, which I down like water. "Holy shit, that was hot".

"Y/N?" I turn to see Jared watching me intently. "What the fuck, Y/M/N (your mom's name) isn't gonna like you drinking all that".

"Why are you pretending to give a f*ck!?" I scream at him and he goes quiet, a concerned look covering his face.

"I'm not pretending, Y/N," he replies, making Artemis glare at me.

"How about another one, Y/N?" Adrian slurs, passing over another travel-sized vodka bottle, which I drink easily.

"Cool it, dude," Jared snarls from my left.

"Another one, says Jared?" Adrian continues to taunt, passing a shot glass over to me. Being barely able to stand, I slump to the floor and I hear Artemis scream.

"That is f*cking it, man, I'm gonna drop you-" Jared bolts forward, swinging at Adrian. Adrian staggers backward, his nose bleeding, while Jared rolls up his sleeves, ready to throw another punch. While Jared draws his arm back, Adrian passes out, and Artemis runs toward him.

"Are you okay?"

"Y/N, come on". Jared pulls me to my feet and takes me to his car. "Artemis, just sit in the back please". I hear a huff and a car door slam.

Black out.

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"Jared.." bright light swarms over my face and I crack open an eye. I'm in a 1967 Chevrolet Impala, my seat completely reclined and face to face with my ex. I must have drank a damn pub last night.

"You said my name," he smiled at me.

"Where is Artemis?" I groan and sit up too quickly.

"Careful, Y/N. I dropped her off at home. She was complaining about sleeping in the car".

"Why are we in the car?" I giggle and watch his crystal blue eyes lock in mine.

"I didn't want you to get in trouble with your roommate, you told me a while ago that she doesn't approve of excessive drinking".

"Right. Thanks". He unscrews a bottle and passes over an Advil to me.

"I promise it's just Advil," he jokes.

"You are so suss". I snatch the pill and down it with some water he has in his car. "Thanks".

"F*ck, Y/N. Why can't you just be happy for me?" I choke on the water and look at him. "I mean, I tried so hard to get over you but every time I see you I lose my mind".

"Jared, I'm sorry. I didn't realize-"

"Nah, don't give me that bullshit. Why did you give me up? Why didn't you want to fight for me?!" he growled, rolling his eyes and slamming the steering wheel. I flinch and the car is silent again.

"Fuck, I just don't understand," he mutters and I can feel his eyes on me. Before I know what I'm doing, I spring forward, kissing him with everything in me. I feel tears on his cheeks and the heat radiating off of his face. But he didn't kiss back.

I lean back slightly, my lips hovering over his, "Jared, I was afraid you would leave me, so I told you goodbye before you could. I'm sorry, I love you, J. I was scared. I love you-"

He silences me with a kiss I hadn't felt in what seemed like years. His hand was warm on my neck and every particle of our bodies was now truly aflame.

I pull away, "What about Artemis?"

"We broke up a week ago, she was just tagging along to make you jealous," he says breathlessly before pulling me back in again.

"I love you" I mumble against his lips and he smiles.

"I love you too".