Jess turned on her favourite album - Taylor Swift's Red. She was hoping that the same songs that kept her motivated while going for her daily runs would prevent her from chickening out. 

She quickly ran into her first hurdle at the first page of the website when she realized she couldn't look around until she created an account. She didn't think she'd actualy join tonight. She'd always been cautious and slow to make decisions.

People always teased Jess and Kayla about how different they were. At their first year at camp Kayla was the first to jump in the pool while Jess would lower herself in, inch-by-inch, over 10 minutes while the other kids splashed around. At middle school sleepovers, Kayla always chose dare, while Jess always picked truth (and often lied anways rather than reveal her secrets). Even today, hanging out with their group of friends on weekend nights, Kayla was always the one who made the decisions, while everyone was still boredly debating what they should do. 

Jess didn't have to be bold, because Kayla always was. But now, with Kayla always too busy, Jess was always bored. She thought again about her conversation with Kayla earlier tonight. Baby steps. Her first step towards becoming the person she wanted to be was creating a profile. She could do that. 

It was kind of comforting, when she thought about the fact that she couldn't access the site without a profile. That definitely meant her mom wouldn't find it, since she didn't even trust giving her details to Amazon to shop online. 

But she still didn't want anyone to know. As she stared at the name box, her mind went blank. She could imagine creating a profile, but she still didn't want her name anywhere near this. If Kayla was here, she'd be able to come up with a great username. 

Baby steps. She'd always loved the name Chloe. To Jess, it made her think of all the things she wanted to be, but wasn't. Sophisticated, exotic, more grown-up. 

Emboldened thinking about her best friend as her favourite song started playing in the background - 22 - she quickly typed in her birth year and her favourite name and hit enter: 

1993Chloe