"I NEED U" The first song i heard , This was the first MV i watched . At this time i was in a seriously abusive and bad relationship . Things were so bad that i felt like i was sinking into a pit of darkness. I would turn to YouTube and i would just watch different genres of songs. But never could relate or find that clarity of mind. Then , i started listening to Bangtan Sonyeodan's I NEED U which triggered something inside me . I just kept on listening to their songs initially i could not understand Hangul at all. Then i began translating the lyrics of the songs and started analyzing them and found that the songs they write have a lot in common with what i feel about my current situation. It was all in there.

What did I NEED U mean to me or How i related myself to it.

Fall (everything)
Fall (everything)
Fall (everything),
scattering apart
Fall (everything)
Fall (everything)
Fall (everything),
falling

Because of you, I'm becoming ruined
I wanna stop, I don't want you anymore
I can't do it, this sucks
Please don't give me any excuses

You can't do this to me
All of the things you said are like a mask
It hides the truth and rips me apart
It pierces me, I'm going crazy, I hate this
Take it all away, I hate you

But you're my everything (You're my)
Everything (You're my)
Everything (You're my)
Please go away huh

I'm sorry (I hate u)
I love you (I hate u)
Forgive me

I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I'll get hurt?

I need you girl, you're beautiful
I need you girl, you're so cold
I need you girl (I need you girl)
I need you girl (I need you girl)

It goes round & round, why do I keep coming back
I go down & down, at this point, I'm just a fool
Whatever I do, I can't help it
It's definitely my heart, my feelings
But why don't they listen to me
I'm just talking to myself again (talking to myself again)
I'm just talking to myself again (talking to myself again)
You're not saying anything, please, I'll treat you well
But the sky is blue (the sky is blue)

The sky is blue and the sun is shining
So my tears are even more noticeable
Why is it you? Why did it have to be you?
Why can't I leave you?

I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I'll get hurt?

I need you girl, you're beautiful
I need you girl, you're so cold
I need you girl (I need you girl)
I need you girl (I need you girl)

Girl, just tell me you wanna break up
Girl, just tell me it wasn't love
I have no courage to say that
Give me my last gift
So I can't ever go back to you

I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I'll get hurt?

I need you girl, you're beautiful
I need you girl, you're so cold
I need you girl (I need you girl)
I need you girl (I need you girl)

So each line of this song was an eye opener for me to know what is happening to me . There was every aspect of my bad relationship reflecting through this song. It made me realize that i have far more people who actually love and care for me than a person who is humiliating me, Violating me and to top it all behaving . This was exactly my situation where even though he hurt me i kept needing him . But it was all a mask which hid his actual face. One most important thing that Bangtan has made me realize is to Face your fears and stand strong . Fight till the very end till you have no more energy. Fight for what you know is right and don't hesitate to hit back.