I never wanted any of this, i didnt ask for any of this. But why? Why me, out of all people? Why couldnt i ever lead a normal life like the rest of them? Is it just too much to ask? The thought of him being dragged into this too makes my heart sear with pain. None of them deserved this. I didnt deserve this.
   
   I was just a girl, who knew nothing, who barely had any outbursts of any kind. I didnt know a thing until that day approached me where i was forced to choose. Choose the bitter truth or the comforting lie... and the truth was what i chose. I chose to unfold my past, then there was no turning back.

    I convinced myself it would heal over time. But time was something that played against me. I saw my death approaching towards me, the pain, the screams, the blood and the awful silence. I had always known that i would die at the end, just like it had always been.  Since my heart lied with my fate, my fate lied with my destiny and my destiny lied with my death. I never realised the pain of losing someone even if i had before until now. I was fine with my death, i had to embrace it either ways.

But the pain of him having to take that place for me is something that i wouldnt have ever wanted. . .