When I was in that relationship, I had thought this is it
This is the type of love that I've been searching for
This will be the last relationship I'll need to be in
This man honestly loves me

But I was wrong
So very wrong

I can't describe the pain that takes over me sometimes
The aching feeling in my heart that hurts beyond belief
It's been over a year now, but I can't shake this feeling

I can't let go of this torturous pain that I feel
I can't forgive myself for being so stupid
I can't forgive him for doing this to me

I was so happy
I am happy still
But then there's just sometimes when I get reminded
Reminded of the love I had and the love that was just thrown away

That was it for me
That was the relationship that I wanted to spend the rest of my life in
I honestly don't know if I'll find that anywhere else or with anyone else now
I don't know if I want that with anyone anymore now

I can't go through that again
Loving someone so deeply only for them to throw me away like that
I honestly don't think that I can handle something like that again
If I'm not already broken all the way, that would do it; going through that again

That relationship was honestly everything that I wanted and needed
Now that it's gone, I'll survive, but I am constantly reminded of it
Every day
Every hour
Every moment there's a reminder of what was lost

It hurts
It really, really hurts