*** This is about depression, so it might be a little upsetting ***

The worst feeling isn't waking up and not wanting to face the day.

It's waking up and feeling happy or excited for the day,

But then suddenly it changes.

The dark clouds roll in,

And your "happy" feeling is shattered.

All of a sudden you don't want to do what you need to,

You don't want to do anything you want.

You just want it to be over.

You want your good day turned bad to just go away.

It now physically hurts you to move,

Your body feels like it's being weighed down by cinder blocks,

Every breath you take hurts, and ever move you make is exhausting,

And you just want it to stop.

You know you have to do things,

There are people depending on you,

But when it hurts so much for no damn reason,

What are you supposed to do?

When you can't break down and cry,

When you can't just go home and stop feeling,

What is there to do?

Trapped in your darkening mind,

Trapped within this feeling,

What can you do when all you want to do is just stop.

It doesn't even have to make sense,

This feeling of just wanting to hit pause in your day,

Stop your actions,

Stop your feelings,

Stop anything and everything.

Stop the voices from whispering to you,

Trying to tell you to do things you know you don't want to do.

Trying to lead you down the dark path you know you can't go down.

It's confusing and irritating,

You know you will feel better, but those damn voices just keep telling you that you wont.

You know this will pass, as it has many times before.

You know you'll be okay.

But those voices,

Those damn dark whispering bastards.

You just want them to stop.

You want it all to stop,

But you don't want it all to end.

Just pause life, please.

Just let me be for a few moments to get a handle

On these feelings,

On my life.

Just stop for a few damn seconds so I can see the light at the end of this tunnel,

Because I know it's there.

Just stop.

The worst feeling for me is knowing,

Knowing I was happy just an hour ago,

Knowing I was enjoying life moments ago,

Knowing I was going to be productive today,

But now,

All I want to do is stop.