One of the worst feelings for me is regret.

I say I don't regret anything,

But that's a lie I like to tell myself.

I regret a lot of things,

Things I've done,

Things I've said.

Things I wanted to say but didn't.

Things I wanted to do, but didn't.

The things I didn't say or do, are the worst to regret.

I can always try to fix the things I've done or said,

But when I haven't said or done something, when I should have,

Those moments are impossible to fix now.

Those moments are what keep me up at night.

Replaying those times.

Replaying those lost moments.

Telling myself all of the things I could have done.

Ways I could have saved some relationships.

Ways I could have prevented some actions.

All of the things that I can never change now.