Serious trigger warnings for this chapter. I felt like I needed to make it and it is supposed to be a positive message.

Why we love The Hobbit... 

Or The Lord of the Rings for that matter...

is because it is a tale about preserverance. The dwarves never gave up even when they lost their home to a fire-breathing dragon. 

And even though the world declared Thorin mad for trying to win back his mountain, he went anyway. On a suicide mission with only a few dwarves, a wizard and a hobbit by his side. He had a dream, a wish to fight for.

Even then he didn't loose hope. 

He knew that the odds were against him. That is was very likely that he would loose some of his companions. That he might not even make it back himself. And even when he wasn't king of Erebor for that long, he did what he set out to do.

A brave little hobbit joined this quest. He didn't know if he would ever return to his comfortable home. Nor did he know if he would get all the food he needed in one day. 

Most of the time he didn't. And still he stayed. 

He set out to do something for someone else. For a folk he didn't know before they rampaged his house. 

He went with a wizard whom he only knew from simpler times. And even when he had his doubts he still went with them. Because he had a pure heart and wanted to do what was right.

Bilbo was brave in the eye of all danger he faced.

I could include the other races in this but I don't think of them as fondly so it wouldn't work for what I am trying to accomplish here.

I know that there are times that can be hard. Sometimes you might even think that it is not worth it anymore. 

Mornings can feel like another obstacle in your day. Why would you get out of bed when you already 'know' what the day is going to be like? Why would you bother making most of it when your life lays on the ground, shattered into pieces?

And when night comes you might pray that you are taken away from the world that night. If it can just happen in your sleep so that is not really your fault and your family and friends won't hurt as much... not as much as they would if you did it with your own hand.

When people say it is all going to be better in time, and on the outside all you do is laugh. While on the inside you wish and you pray that those good times will finally arrive. Maybe you have already stopped believing...

If you know you live in an unsafe environment, either by your family members your lover or your friend, and people say; "You should really move out of that house." Don't you just want to laugh and ask;

"I know that, are you going to buy me a house? No? Oh, then are you going to give me a job so that I can rent my own place? Also no... Well, can I stay with you for a while then until I find a good job? No..."

Why do other people have 'good' lives and you don't. I can tell you that most people have their own stories to tell. And the ones that don't have had a lot of luck in this life. For some reason that luck isn't given to anyone.

Some say it is because we all 'need' certain things to happen to us so that we become our best selves. And religious people may say that God won't put anything on your shoulders that you can't carry.

Then let me ask this; Why are there so many people who can't carry it? 

For the ones who can't';

You are not alone. As cliché as it may sound, you are not alone. 

The people who have read my books here on Wattpad for a while now know that I haven't had the most luck this year. In September of last year my life went downhill for what feels like the billionth time in my life. And I am only twenty one years old. 

What I found is that I hanging out at the wrong places. Now I feel like I only did what others expected me to do. 

Health care was one of those things that people really thought I would shine at. And I did. 

I also hated my job because of the all things that were going on behind the screens. 

At the job I hated I met people who I didn't identify with. I was different than them because I had not followed my own path. I listend to others when it came to that. 

So I met the wrong people. 

I strongly believe that if you do something with passion and it is a place where you love to come, that others pick up on that. And then other people who share something with you, will come to you. 

That is one of the reasons why you should get up in the morning.

I hang out in the library now, go to the dock to read because I love the water. And I have met great people. Most of them just for a random chat but that does miracles to you.

Just like the outdoors do. 

The story of The Hobbit is one about perserverance and strength. 

Just like your life story. You wouldn't be here if you didn't have those two qualities.

And you are going to use them to make the best out of your life. Like Thorin you won't give in to the people who are trying to bring you down. Especially when you are the one doing it to yourself. 

You are going to do everything in your power to get yourself back up. That is what you owe yourself.

Like Bilbo, you will go out of your way to follow your heart. See it is a new adventure.

No one knows what is hidden inside that mountain. The only way you will know is to find out yourself.

Because things will get better in time.

All you need to is listen to me. There are 542 people here who are following me. Some may be dealing with these thoughts right now.

Others on here are more than willing to talk to you.

Take that hand. Accept it. 

Find something that makes your day better.

One thing that I thought helped me was listening to music with lyrics that perfectly matched with what I felt at the moment. All it did was that afterwards I felt more horrible than before.

Even when you hate clichés, listen to songs and read books that fill you with hope. There is a reason that feeling exists. There is also a reason why it disappears so quickly.

It is a feeling you have to give yourself. A feeling you have to remind yourself of. 

And it is a feeling that can safe you from yourself. 

So for the last Dutch song chapter, let me give you three that help me. Even when you don't understand the language, the translation and music itself will make you feel something.

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Wijzer dan je was - Nick en Simon

https://youtu.be/lgvNrqQHU_o

Will my reflection ever deceit me

Or will this continue to be the truth, longing for lost times

Photo's, they are the living prove

Does your reflection show who you want to be

Not lonely and alone

Your path leads somewhere, the future

That is the living prove

Chorus;

Don't hold your breath, don't live your life in hesitation

But take the time and push the hands forward

It will make you wiser than you were

It will make you wiser than you were

With fear I look at the present

The past grows by the hour, the future is short lived

Uncertain, I am the living prove

Take your photobook and look for

Moments from before, re-live them

Experience, be the living prove

Chorus

It will make you wiser than you were

Chorus;

Don't hold your breath, don't live your life in hesitation

But take the time and push the hands forward

It will make you wiser than you were

Don't hold your breath, don't live your life in hesitation

But take the time and push the hands forward

It will make you wiser than you were

It will make you wiser than you were

De dag dat alles beter is - Nick en Simon

https://youtu.be/Xwchji8mvdE

Heavy clouds are gathering

Your head stops the last stroke of light

You see the shadow of your fingers

They are all pointing at your face

Chorus;

Everything you seek you will find

and everything you wish for you will receive

Everything you love

will attach itself to you

Remember the setting sun

The morning that was too good to be true

You better prepare yourself

For the day that everything is better

Your dreams arise from the deep water

Slowly they take solid forms

Not one single seconds

do you waste on castles in the sky

Chorus

Everything that remains 

what you take with you when you go

Represents you and no one else

You can not be someone else

You don't want to be someone else

You will never be someone else then yourself

Chorus

Remember the setting sun

The morning that was too good to be true

You better prepare yourself

For the day that everything is better

Vallende sterren - Nick en Simon

https://youtu.be/HKbk7Dq5ZZQ

If unexpectedly all of your dreams would come true

but you are interupted by the alarm

Will that stop you from believing that your dreams will come true

Don't start this day so disappointed

But remember what the night has told you

Chorus;

Because who are you in this life

to give up on your dream

You look at the moon and a shooting star

with her glowing light is coming

You can see them go,

all the shooting stars

that extinguish in the light of the moon

If the newspaper of today

would be that of tomorrow

Would you open that paper today

To read in secret

if your dreams of tomorrow will come true

But don't be so disappointed today

about what the papers of tomorrow have told you

Chorus

You can't live without a wish

because you are only human

and every human has a dream

You look at the moon and a shooting star

with her glowing light is coming

You can see them go,

all the shooting stars

that extinguish in the light of the moon

All the shooting stars that extinguish in the light of the moon

That extinguish in the light of the moon

All the shooting stars

That extinguish in the light of the moon

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~ Nathalie