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Carter smiled as Asher got himself dressed, his eyes didn't deviate from his figure. "You ready to go back then?"

Asher looked Carter over with a small nod. "I'm nervous but I am ready. I just..there is so many bad memories."

"You said you wanted to look for something though, didn't you?"

Asher nodded, he lowered his eyes and studied the shore line. Carter noticed the look on his face and stepped forward cupping his cheek. "Baby what is it?"

"I am just preparing myself."

"Take your time." Carter replied as he caressed his cheek. Asher blushed and nuzzled into Carter's hand. After a few minutes Asher finally felt it was time to go to the old homestead. As they arrived on the land Carter noticed the police tape, he held Asher's hand the entire time. Carter could feel him shaking. "Babe, are you sure you want to do this, we c-"

"No I need to find what I came looking for."

"Okay, where to?"

"Your old room."

Carter nodded following Asher up towards his room, they looked around for a moment. Carter smiled as he walked through the house, he was happy here, but Asher was doing everything he could not to break down and cry. Carter noticed the blood spot on the carpet from when Asher was stabbed. Asher avoided it as best he could as they walked up the stairs. The walls were covered in graffiti and the house looked like it had been deserted. As they entered Carter's room Asher eyed the bookshelf, he quickly took notice of what he came for. He raced forward letting go of Carters hand as he grasped the book in question.

"A book?"

"It isn't a real book." Asher replied as he removed the outer cover. "It was her diary."

Carter squinted as Asher franticly began to read the last few months entries. Carter quickly took notice of Asher's mood change. "What?"

"She is a fucking liar."

"What are you talking about?"

"We had planned to run away together, or at least that was the plan when we started out..but but..but.. she had been planning on leaving me behind long before I thought she had. I don't know what her deal is now trying to get me back but." He broke, tears rolled down his cheeks as his hands shook. He dropped the diary and crumpled to the ground. "She wrote ways she thought about killing me."

"What?" Carter asked his jaw instantly tightening, he grabbed the diary and began to scan her entries. He found the entry from five months before he was stabbed.

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Asher.

I loved him, but now, I fear if he comes with Avery and I..then I will only remember the evil that came from this house. Carter gives him so much attention and now when I look at him all I can see is Carter. I don't want him to continue to suffer and be Carters slave however, so I feel I may have to kill him to save him.

I don't know what to do about it yet, I may stab him, or poison him. However I do not know where I will get the poison. If I can get to him in the night I will suffocate him. If he is dead then Carter and Alex can no longer hurt him, I thought it would be a good idea to go away with him. Avery does love him so much, but I do not think having two people with so much trauma raising her, if we both went through what we have and we try to raise her then she may come to learn of her past. I do not wish that for my child, and so I think I will have to leave Asher behind or kill him to ensure Avery's future and mine. I do not know if I can go through with it but if I am to ensure he is not used by Carter and Alex when I leave then death would be a welcome retreat.

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Carter looked to Asher with sadness in his eyes, Asher looked to him with puffy eyes. "Did you get to the one where she thought about pushing me out the window?"

Carter's eyebrows raised quickly. "What?"

"I guess not.

Carter continued to scan her entries, he cringed as he passed a few more stating how she wanted to stab him and where would be best to stab or slice. That was when he saw it. Two months before her escape.

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Carter is increasingly growing more distant towards me and becoming closer to Asher, which I am thankful for because he leaves me be, but I can see it is taking a toll on Asher. He has been fake seducing him for our escape, and I feel some what bad for each entry I have written detailing my thoughts on killing him, but as I see Carter growing closer to him, I see the pain he is in. So tonight if I get time alone with him, I will kiss him against the window when he thinks it is closed. The fall should hopefully kill him rather then just injure him. If he doesn't die, then...I do not know what I will do.

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Carter growled. "She really did string you along thinking you were going to save her and Avery didn't she?"

"I was a fool. I shouldn't have ever thought that she wanted us to be together after all of this, I mean she did get a new boyfriend almost instantly. She didn't think I would be good for Avery...I could care less about Valery but..Avery..I saw her like my own."

Carter looked him over when he got to the night of his stabbing.

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It has to be tonight, I am with child again, and I think that Carter has taken to much of Asher to fix. The first time therapy was helping, he only had some nightmares, but I hear him waking up and screaming, I hear his sobs when he is alone. He is to far broken for anyone to fix. I have to put him out of his misery. I have to do it. I will have to stab him, I hope it kills him. If it doesn't Carter may fix it or take him to a hospital then he will never be safe. If he does go to a hospital, I will go there and ask him to come with me, and in the night I will finish the job. He won't be able to function in society after all of this trauma. Killing Carter is to much of a risk, but Asher is weak and easy. I can do this.

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Carter realized she was planning on killing him when she went to the hospital.

Asher continued to sob. "She...didn't think I could survive. She saw me as weak, she wasn't wanting me to come with her that day she came to the hospital room. She wanted to fix me by killing me."

"You aren't weak baby. You are so strong, look at you, you are still here. You've changed me, I no longer eat people, I don't hurt you anymore, we only kill bad people. Look you are everything and more than she ever thought you'd be. She thought you would be useless, but look where you are now."

Asher continued to sob, but nodded. "What does she want with me now?"

"I honestly don't know, maybe she is guilty and sees you are actually still alive, or..or maybe she still wants to kill you thinking it will fix it. I do not know what she wants with you. I. I really do not know baby."

"I wish I hadn't read that. I thought maybe she had planned to stab you and missed, or something stupid. I don't know why. I really do not know why I wanted to know. I just..I.I don't know."

"Hey hey stop it, it was good to find out. Does this mean I can finally stab her stupid face though?"

"No, she still has your kids. You can't just kill her."

"She clearly has a killer tendency too. We can't just leave the kids with her."

"Between her plan and our actual murders I think she is more qualified to raise them."

Carter lowered his eyes. "Okay maybe, but it is taking a lot of me not to want to."

Asher snickered. "Did you want anything from here?"

"Maybe..."

"What is it?" Carter dropped to the floor and reached under the bed. He pulled a box out and opened it quickly. Asher peaked around him trying to look inside the box, his stomach turned slightly. The box was full of bones. "What do you need from that?"

"It isn't the bones in the box I want babe," Carter replied as he pulled out a smaller box. Asher watched him open the smaller box. His eyes grew wide as Carter pulled out the contents of the smaller box.

"Is that another ring?"

"Well yes, but it's special to me. I..want you to have both." This ring was more masculine, Carter placed it on another one of Asher's fingers. "Just don't freak out."

"Why would I freak out?"

"Well uhm..I. this ring belonged to my first kill." Asher stared at both the ring and Carter for much longer then he had planned to in silence. "That was to much wasn't it?"

"No..sorry no, I just was surprised. I..I guess it makes sense why it would be important to you. So now, are we going to see your parents or."

"If that is okay?"

"I can handle it."

"Okay. Then I think it's time to go."

Asher nodded, they walked back through the house Carter held Asher's hand tightly. It was time to leave this behind them.