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I swayed to the music as I waited for my drinks to be made for me and Ryan. It had been a while since I had seen my friend and we needed to catch up.

Ryan was one of my closest friends and there was never a secret between us. Considering his parents had worked for Hydra said a lot really. He was used and abused from a young age. Being experimented and we shared the same cell block. He was enhanced but not the way Hyrda wanted him to be.

"So," He said taking his drink, "You're telling me you left two super-soldiers behind?"

"Yeah,"

"For what!?" He laughed, "You had the chance to get out of our lifestyle and have fun. But here you are standing before me with contacts and a red wig,"

"I look good,"

"I didn't say you didn't," Ryan smiled, "Is there something else you aren't telling me?"

I sighed and nodded as we walked back to our table. A few other friends sat there but I still spoke to Ryan.

"I heard them arguing when I was with Aiden. I pretended I didn't but I did," I took a gulp of my drink, "They both like me,"

"You shagged them both?"

"Shag is such a rotten word," I laughed, "Yes. Both of them but not at the same time,"

"Is that why you ran? Because they had feelings for you?"

"Partly,"

"Ah. I see," Ryan smiled, "You like them,"

"Do not!"

"Fine. You are falling for one of them,"

I groaned and rested my head on his shoulder staring at my drink, "Correct. I ran because why would they fall for me? Of all people. I've done a lot of bad shit with and without Hydra. Shit, I told them I was a damn escort and they still didn't run,"

"But you did," Ryan said softly, "Why?"

"Fear. Embarrassment," I shrugged, "I don't know. It could be anything but you know me. I've never been able to express good emotions,"

"Don't be afraid to like someone. It could go somewhere,"

"Right. Who would want a washed-up Hydra bitch who can't have kids or normal life?" I scoffed, "He deserves to have someone who can give him a family and not have to worry about being ambushed 24/7. Ryan, it's better this way,"

"For who?" He asked, "Because I know for a fact that you were miserable making that decision. I also know that this superhero you've fallen for is just as miserable as you,"

"I doubt it,"

Ryan laughed, "Stop being so miserable. A little birdie told me that they haven't left London,"

"What?" I said staring at him, "But it's been 3 weeks!"

"Yup!" Ryan grinned, "Think hard about what you want from life, Blue. Sometimes it's handed to you on a silver platter. Other times you have to fight for it,"

By the time I got home, the sun was starting to wake up. I yawned and kicked my shoes off not caring where they landed, then stripped my dress off.

I wandered into my bedroom and pulled on the shirt I stole from Bucky. I don't know why. It might have been the thrill of stealing right from under his nose or because I wanted to remember the smell of his aftershave.

"Idiot. You're an idiot, Blue," I muttered to myself.

My belly growled at me and I went in search of something to eat. I patted my tummy as I grabbed some things from the fridge and turned around just to scream at Bucky standing in my doorway.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I screamed and stomped towards him, hitting him in the chest, "Did you want to kill me?"

Bucky grabbed my face and kissed me. I instantly kissed back and he kicked my front door close, backing me into the wall. Bucky tapped my thigh and I jumped, wrapping my legs around his waist, pressing me harder into the wall.

There were no words between us as he carried me through the apartment and into my bedroom.

He dropped me onto my bed, breaking from the kiss and his eyes darkened as he looked me up and down. A small smirk appeared on his face and he crawled over me, tearing the shirt open.

"I thought I packed this shirt," He said, pinning my hands above my head with his flesh hand, "To think you stole this from under my nose,"

"All part of the fun," I breathed out, "Why are you here?"

"Why did you kiss me back?"

"I asked you-"

"I like you," Bucky said quietly, "I tried to convince myself that it was a passing feeling. That was until you and Steve had sex,"

I laughed slightly, "Your fault,"

"Yeah. It kinda was," Bucky rolled his eyes.

"So, is that why you're here? To tell me you like me?"

Bucky nodded, "Yup. Stupid isn't it?"

"Well, I wouldn't say stupid...but unexpected,"

"I couldn't leave London without telling you," Bucky said, "Even if you don't like me back, I needed to tell you,"

My heart leapt into my throat, "But...why?"

"Why what? Why do I like you?" He asked and I nodded, "Your guess is as good as mine. I don't know. You're beautiful, funny and a smart-ass. There's something that I was instantly attracted to,"

I began to panic and I pushed him off me and jumped to my feet, "You can't like me. I'm not...you can't,"

"You can't tell me to just stop having feelings for you!" Bucky exclaimed, "Shit, it has taken me 3 fucking weeks to track you down and tell you. So why are you so freaked out?"

"Because I'm not the one for you," I whispered, "I'm not,"

"What are you saying?" Bucky said quietly.

I swallowed hard, "It...it can't happen. You won't have a life with me. I can't give you kids I can't give you a happy family,"

"Whoa, whoa," Bucky said, grabbing the top of my arms gently, "Who mentioned kids or a family? I have only just told you that I liked you. Not that I want you to carry my babies,"

I started to panic and Bucky wrapped me up in his arms, running his hand up and down my back.

"Just breathe," He whispered, "I'm sorry for throwing that on you but again, you needed to know. I wasn't going to leave London without getting it off my chest,"

"What about Steve?"

"What about him?" Bucky asked.

"I had sex with him,"

"Your point?"

"I know he likes me," I said, "I heard you arguing and-"

"Do you like him?" Bucky asked, moving back.

"No,"

"Then why would you care?"

"Because I don't want to get between your friendship," I said, "I'm a stranger. Shit, you don't even know my real name!"

Bucky smirked, "Is that why you don't want anything between us? Because I don't know your name?"

"I...shit. I don't know!" I exclaimed, "I'm confused because I don't just fall for strangers! I've had a very hard past with men and just take a look at my Aiden. The idiot was my fucking kidnapper!"

Bucky's metal hand was around my throat in seconds and he backed me into the wall, "Don't ever mention that man's name in front of me. Understand?"

I nodded, feeling my body heat up, "Yes, Sargeant,"

"Good girl," He breathed out and moved his hand to my hair, "I like the red,"

Shit. I forgot I hadn't taken my wig off.

"Take it off. I want to see the real you," He said, kissing below my ear, "Oh, and Blue?"

"Mmm?" I said as he rubbed his fingers between my legs.

Bucky whispered into my ear and my ears went wide, making him chuckle.

"H-how?"

"I have my ways," He said, pulling my earlobe between his teeth, "Now, my little demon, get into bed. Now,"

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