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I left before the sun kissed the horizon and I swallowed back my tears. I should have a proper bye to everyone but I didn't want to cry. I was done with crying. I was done with being brokenhearted and always being hurt.

I would get myself something to eat and jump on a plane back to London. Where Dizzy was. I needed my friend and she would knock some sense into me. I never was one to feel sorry for myself but here I was. Feeling sorry for myself because Bucky said some hurtful words.

I scoffed, "Loser. That's what you are. A damn loser,"

With one last look at the building, I pulled my hood up and turned away. I crossed the road feeling sharp pains in my chest but I ignored it and called Dizzy.

"For nuts-in-a-vice or ball stomping, please press 1,"

"I'm coming home,"

"What? Why!? You've just got there. Oh shit. You're pregnant!"

"I'm not pregnant. I want to come home,"

"What happened?"

"Oh you know, the usual. Blue left blue because of heartache and the feeling of being unwanted,"

"You need to let me meet this guy. I'll rearrange his fucking face and make him chew on his nuts,"

"There would have been a time where I would have said yes but Dizzy, I'm done. I want to be home,"

Dizzy sighed, "I'll book a plane ticket for you. I'll get the earliest I can for you. Just remember, you won't be blue forever,"

I swallowed back tears and then yelled in pain. I lifted my hand to my neck and yanked a dart from it, "Are you fucking kidding me!"

"Blue? Hello? What happened?"

The words I was trying to say came out in a drunken slur and my vision went blurry, making me drop to my knees. I looked at the feet that appeared in my line of sight and that was the last thing I remembered before I blacked out.

Fucking wimps using tranquillisers.

Bucky

My fist hovered over Blue's door. I had never hesitated so much in my life. Not even when I tried to kill Steve and we fell out of the damn sky.

I held my breath and knocked but I was met with silence. I pushed the door open and saw that the bed was made and there was a brown envelope on her pillow addressed to me.

My hands shook as I grabbed it and I knew she had left before anyone was awake. I knew her well enough to know she didn't want anyone to see her cry. But I was the one to make her cry and now I felt even shittier.

𝑺𝒆𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒕,

𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆 𝒂 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈.

𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.

𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇𝒊𝒔𝒉.

𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑶𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒄𝒂𝒔𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒂𝒔 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆𝒕𝒚 𝒔𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏'𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕. 𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆.

𝑫𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒔𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒔𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝑫𝒊𝒛𝒛𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒅.

𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰'𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑨𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅.

𝑫𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝑰 𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒄𝒓𝒐𝒔𝒔, 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆.

𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔.

𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰'𝒅 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒖𝒓𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖.𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇𝒊𝒔𝒉.𝑾𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝑰 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒌𝒆 𝒖𝒑. 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝑰 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈.

𝑰 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝑰 𝒈𝒐 𝒏𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒐𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒅 𝒊𝒕. 𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑺𝒉𝒊𝒕, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒊𝒓𝒕𝒉 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕.

𝑩𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒚, 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌...𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆. 𝑰'𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰'𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒑 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒔 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒑 𝒇𝒐𝒐𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒚. 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒓.

𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒇 𝑰 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐.

𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔. 𝑫𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕.

𝑰 𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒅𝒐𝒈 𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒔 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑰 𝒈𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒃𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆. 𝑵𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕.

𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆

I couldn't read her name. Tears were dropping from my face like a tap and I jumped to my feet, racing from the room.

"She's gone!" I yelled as I reached the kitchen, "I can't...what do I do?"

"We find her," Steve said and I realised they were geared for a fight, "Get changed. We will need you on this mission,"

"Now isn't the time for a fucking mission! Blue has gone and-"

"Blue is our mission," Steve said and handed me a photo, "This came to us a little while ago,"

I stared at the photo and felt sick, "Who took her?"

"That's what we are going to find out. We don't know," Nat said, "We found her belongings across the street from the tower. Including her phone. We can't trace her but we have Peter looking at the CCTV,"

"I know how to find her," I whispered and I felt everyone look at me, "She took my tags while I was asleep,"

"How do you know that?" Tony asked, "Are you sure you didn't-"

"Because I never fucking take them off and she told me. In this letter she wrote me," I said wiping my face of tears, "I never told her, but I put a tracking device in them. Well, Tony did for me just in case The Winter Soldier made his return. But if she is wearing them, then we can find her and bring her home,"

"Alright," Steve said, clasping his hand on my shoulder, "Let's go get your girl,"

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