"My life is just me pushing a boulder up a hill."

I'm just pushing a boulder up a hill, so that it doesn't land into a lake called depression. My parents are getting divorced - it hurts because they fight a lot, my dad never cries and now he does a lot... Ever since that happened my grades are getting worse. My mother locks her bedroom door. Because of these problems I'm having a hard time socialising, I laugh sometimes but then I say something wrong and the whole conversation breaks down. I've been fighting a lot to hide my pain. Because I don't want my parents to know I've been hurting myself, I don't self harm with knives or blades. I use a needle, so the scars go away quickly.

Random guys start treating me like I'm their girlfriend when I don't post pictures of myself on social media, I usually send them a rude message back in a foreign language and they treat me terribly. The relationship between me and my mum gets more and more tense and the fighting with my brother gets worse, sometimes I look at my balcony and wander if I should just jump off so that my misery will stop.

Hi!

I know it can be very hard when your parents are kind of at war, and it does affect you. The best thing you can do is talk to them openly and tell them how their fighting is affecting you. They might be fighting with each other, but they both really love you. It may not seem like it, but trust me when I say that the one thing they do, and always will agree upon is that you should be happy. Your parents gave birth to you, you mean the entire world to them.  <3

I looked through some websites about this, and here's something I found:
Sometimes adults change the way they love each other or can't agree on things and so they have to live apart. But kids and parents are tied together for life, by birth or adoption. Parents and kids often don't agree on things, but that is part of the circle of life - parents and kids don't stop loving each other or get divorced from each other. Therefore, your ties with your parents are forever.

And about the needles, do remember that any kind of self harm is not good for you at all.

You know most people say it's selfish and conceited to love yourself. I completely disagree. I think you should fully love yourself for who you are. You're not perfect, and you know that. But you also know that it's okay to have the little imperfections that you do have. You love being you!

So love yourself and love your body. I heard somewhere that your body is a gift to you from God, and if you don't believe in God then it's a gift from the mysterious force that created life. It's a gift to you, see how lucky you are, I'm sure you have some good features. I bet your eye colour is gorgeous.

If you love your body, you won't have any desire to self harm. You have a beautiful body, please don't hurt it!

And suicide is never the answer. Just think about your parents, your closest friends. They would be extremely devastated. You've been given a pretty good life, and a pretty good body in which to live that life, so now it's up to you to make the best that you can out of it and live your life to the fullest. :)

And those guys who tease you? Seriously stop talking to them. You're just inviting more and more unnecessary comments when you talk to them. They're obviously stupid jerks who don't deserve your attention and precious time.

Stay strong, don't give up, and everything will be okay :)

Lots of love
A_B