Your POV :

Taehyung insisted  to walk me home . We were walking when all of a sudden he asked ,
" Um...Y/N , c-can we be friends ? " I looked at him then looked down. I knew he would ask that but I didn't thought he would do it this early . I obviously wanted to be friends with him . After a long time , today he made me feel like my old self . I liked his company so much . I'd be lying if I said I didn't wanted to spend time with him again . I also felt safe around him . I know I can trust him but I can't trust myself .

I removed my hand from his grip & started .
"Um... actually ... After a long time , I felt good today , Taehyung. I felt free talking & laughing with you . It'll be a great pleasure to be your friend but I don't trust myself . I'm sure I'm gonna hurt you again . I think it's better If I don't get close to you or anyone . I'll be more grateful if you forget about our todays encounter . " I said truthfully .

I could clearly see hurt in his face . He was looking down . " See , I hurt you again . Stay away from me, Taehyung . It's better for you . "

He shot his head up & looked at me . He held my hand again . This time his grip tighter than before . " I'm not hurt . I'm just a bit sad . Not because you don't want to be my friend but because you are again speaking those bullsh*t of yours . How would you know that you are gonna hurt me again ? " He paused & took a deep breath . " You can't be like this Y/N . You have a long way ahead.  You just can't punish yourself like this the whole time . Bad things happen but you have to over come it.  "

He was right . I had to & I wanted to overcome it but I couldn't .
" I know . It's just I'm afraid I'll hurt you badly like I did to Jung- um...my previous friends. " I didn't want to tell him about Jungkook yet.  I know he'll hate me after hearing that . It's pathetic that , Though I wanted him to stay away from me I didn't wanted him to stay away from me.  It's just so confusing .

"Ugh...again . Y/N , you have to stop thinking like that.  Ok , um...what about we do an experiment ?"
" What ? " I asked totally confused .

" Let's be friends . Then see if You hurt me or not . "

" Why are you so eager to get hurt ? " I asked almost face palming myself .

" Huh...you know what made me feel bad ? The way you kept your self reserved . The way you ignored me . Not the way you talked to me . "

I opened my mouth to say something but he again started ,
" Trust me , I'm not lying . I never thought about what you said to me cz I knew that's only your shield . The thing hurt me most , the thing made me think about you most  was  why don't you open up with anyone & ignore them . So you can be sure that you'll never hurt me by being close to me . "

His words specially his last line made me feel those familiar but foreign feelings again.  I was happy , overwhelmed ? I don't know what I felt .
And the thing confused me the most was why does this guy want to be my friend so badly ?! What does he even find in me to choose me as his friend ?!
It took me sometime to process everything & get a hold of myself . Then I looked at his eyes which were sincerely staring at me . Pleading me to be his friend .

" How are you gonna pay for breaking such an expensive thing ? " I asked him pretending to be  annoyed.  He stared at me dumbfounded.
He looked around then asked , " what did I break ? "

I couldn't hold back my chuckle , " My shield , what else ? Your the first person who made me laugh after so long & also your the first person to be my friend after whatever happened to my past also . "

His confused face brighten up & his lips turned in to a rectangular shape showing me his signature boxy smile .

" Finally . Thank you so much . "Saying so  He hugged me excitedly . I couldn't help but to smile & hug him back .

Then he broke the hug & said with a proud smirk " And about that shield of yours ? It wasn't Gucci or branded so didn't take time to break . I can pay for that easily.  "

" Yeah yeah Mr. Rich Bratty Friend of mine , Now turn left . " I said rolling my eyes playfully & guiding him the way as he didn't know my address .

He started laughing & soon we reached my place . I asked him to come in but he said it was already so late & so he wanted to go home moreover we had uni at morning .

" Okey then . Bye . Take care on the way . "

"Sure . Meet you tomorrow at uni . "

I raised one of my eyebrows . " Tomorrow ? Well you should say today . It's already 1am. "

" Oops . See u in .... 7 hours then . " He said giggling .

" Sure . Good night . "

" Sleep tight . " He said before turning back & walking away .

I went inside my apartment which was on the fifth floor of the building . I closed the door , took a shower & went to bed . As I closed my eyes Taehyung's face with a boxy smile came in my vision . Without knowing a smile took place on my lips . And After like an year & half , I drifted off to sleep smiling . All thanks to the beautiful angel Kim Taehyung .

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Happy Friendship day to all....

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