— for her.  

  Because at the end of the day, he's your best friend's boyfriend.
And maybe putting your best friend's happiness before yours is the right thing to do.

Sometimes you were annoyed with yourself after the numerous amount of times you assumed that he even liked you. From the number of times he sat next to you during the 9AM biology lecture to the times where you've bumped into him at the library even though it's not midterm or finals season for fucks' sake, you've seen his face everywhere.

Jeon Jungkook. He was the reason why you stayed up all night staring at your ceiling after wondering why he has been stumbling into your life when the last thing you asked the heavens to do was to give you a boyfriend; a distraction. You're at the peak of your degree and with you doing tremendously well in class, the last thing you needed was a boyfriend.

But obviously, the heavens were having too much fun playing and fucking up your feelings to the point where you too, started to take more notice of all your encounters with him and where you too, started to fuck up your own feelings.

And now here you were, slowly falling in love with the boy who sat next to you in all of your 9AM biology lectures. And now here you were, naive and all, receiving these encounters and good deeds from him as acts of admiration and infatuation when in all reality—

"I really like your best friend."

"I—what?"

You stare at him with slightly widened eyes, but his innocent, doe-like ones stared at yours alarmingly before you snap out of it. "Uh—I mean—what do you mean?"

"Your best friend, you know, the girl who sits with you in our biology lecture, the girl who tags along with you when you both study at the library?" He says nervously while he scratches the back of his neck.

You blink once, twice, and suddenly, your burst out into nervous laughter. He looks at you as if you have ten heads, but you playfully slap his arm to ease the tension in the atmosphere. "Oh, her? That crazy girl that sits next to me and is basically with me almost all day?"

He nods his head innocently and you inwardly sigh because wow you are basically my ideal type in living and breathing form I truly don't deserve you, so all you could do is give him two thumbs up as a sign of your approval.

"I mean, that's great! It's great that my crazy best friend finally has a guy that actually admires her. She'll be so head over heels for you when she finds out that you like her—"

"Don't tell her!" He exclaims while cutting you off and you jump at his sudden tone. He looks at you with doubt and defeat before shrugging his shoulders and mumbling a soft, "I don't even think she'll like me.."

You roll your eyes at him before raising an eyebrow at him, "I'm pretty sure she likes you, that's probably why she's been all up my ass this whole semester."

"You—You think so?" He stutters and you brightly smile at him, nodding your head eagerly although you could feel your heart start to shatter. He mirrors your smile before pulling you into a celebratory hug. "Thank you, thank you, thank you! I can't wait to take her out on a date—"

"First, get your hands off of me, I barely know you." You say sternly and he gently puts your small figure back onto the floor. You clear your throat and he finally shoves his hands back into his pockets. "Second, I'm not easily persuaded by any of my best friend's suitors, so don't think I'm an easy obstacle to pass, got it?"

"I—I thought we were friends—"

"And last but definitely not the least," you mumble, glancing down at your nails before looking at him through squinted eyes, "if you hurt my best friend, I will not hesitate to cut your dick off, got it?"

He gulps nervously and quickly nods his head in agreement while you're internally laughing your ass off because wow who knew he would be such a scaredy cat and you flash one last smile.

"Great! Now, go get her, tiger."

You get it, you were basically the living form of a relatable post on Facebook whenever it came to you and your best friend, Jiyeon. It was simple: out of the two of you, you were the uglier one that all the guys seemed to look past. Indeed, they would go straight towards Jiyeon, ignoring you in the process as if you're invisible.

You actually don't mind at all, since you never truly liked the guys. They'd always come and go, date Jiyeon and dump her after a couple of months. They were all trash, anyways.

But no one told you about guys like Jeon Jungkook. No one told you the consequences of being in love with your best friend's boyfriend.

First, no one ever told you that third-wheeling was a pain in the ass. Following them around a stupid amusement park after being dragged to tag along by your best friend is a curse within a curse. There was never a time where it wasn't painful to watch Jungkook feed Jiyeon a spoonful of ice-cream. There was also never a time where it wasn't painful to watch Jungkook stare at Jiyeon as if she was his whole world. Your heart was giving you its first sign—jealousy will definitely get the best of you, but you've already grown accustomed to hiding such emotions.

Second, no one ever told you the reasons why you start to think your best friend is annoying after the endless nights she's talked about her relationship. With Jiyeon being your roommate at the dormitory, it was equally painful to hear her ramble on and on about her upcoming date with Jungkook or the sweetest thing he did for her because 'oh my god, he's such a sweetheart I think I might marry him' and it was all starting to make your ears bleed. Your heart was giving you its second sign—at the end of the day, your best friend is the luckier one, and maybe Jungkook's not the one for you, but the one for her.

Third, no one ever told you that it was painful to be put on the sidelines. No one ever told you how painful it felt to watch your best friend feel so happy to be with someone you wish you were with. You lost count of the nights you've spent in your dorm all by yourself, crying because why doesn't anyone like me? Am I not good enough? Out of all people I'd fall in love with, did it have to be my best friend's boyfriend?

This was the third and final sign. No matter how much it hurts, you have been nothing but selfless. And by now, you've learned how to hold back the tears, to shrug the feelings off your shoulders, to get over him even though that would be impossible to do and even though it's impossible to happen.

Because at the end of the day, he's your best friend's boyfriend and maybe putting your best friend's happiness before yours is the right thing to do.

It was another one of those nights where you lounge outside of the convenience store with a steaming cup of noodles and a bottle of soda after completing a study session at the library. You stretch your arms out, sighing happily before settling down into your seat.

Leaning closer towards the cup of noodles, the steam warms up your face and you take a deep sniff. "Ramen at its finest, the best comfort food, indeed."

The moment you dig in, you get a generous amount of noodles on your fork before shoving it all in your mouth. In the midst of eating, you weren't aware of the familiar doe-eyed boy standing a few metres away with a huge frown spread across his lips. He finally notices you slurping your noodles away and his frown is replaced with a soft smile, and he shoves his phone back into his pocket.

His feet take him all the way to the convenience store, and he stops in front of the entrance doors to get one quick glance at you. You were too occupied with your food that you barely even noticed him looking at you with a goofy smile.

He enters the convenience store and grabs his favourite instant ramen and its complimented drink. He checks it out and almost instantly, he's making his way towards you.

He takes a seat right across your table and catches your attention. You glance up with an alarmed look and a strand of ramen hanging from your mouth. He bursts out into giggles and you smile, "hey, you scared the shit out of me, you dickhead!"

"You look pretty terrified," he says in between giggles. You nod your head in agreement before taking another bite of your noodles, drinking some of the broth right after. "What brings you here on an uneventful night?"

"I just finished my usual study session at the library, and I decided it was about time to treat myself some ramen for my hard work." You explain and he purses his lips into a line. "What about you? What brings you here? I don't remember seeing you at the library today."

He falls silent, and you hear him mutter softly before shoving noodles into his mouth. You furrow your eyebrows questioningly.

"What was that?"

He sighs frustratingly as he throws his head back, slamming his chopsticks back down onto the table. You jump in your seat, and he sighs again. "Love sucks. Love is shit. Love is so fucking complicated—"

"I feel you," you cut him off. With a smile starting to spread across your lips, he pulls out his phone and shows you his lockscreen that was free of notifications.

"Can you tell your best friend to at least text her boyfriend to tell him that she's doing okay? Tell him that 'oh, I'm just out with my friend' which by the way, is my own best friend Jimin! I feel betrayed, I feel attacked, I feel like she—"

"You're jealous, aren't you?" You cut him off and he sighs before nodding his head in defeat. "Ah, I've been there, done that."

"And she just hangs out with him so much that I feel like I'm the one third-wheeling even though it's our date!" Jungkook groans, "she just had to ask Jimin to tag along."

"Yeah, I've been there and done that as well."

"And sometimes I get annoyed when Jimin starts talking about her and things like how she's doing in class, if she's been eating her meals, if she's been doing this and blah, blah, blah." Jungkook rolls his eyes, "I'm her boyfriend! He doesn't need to care about those things, he's just her friend."

"Yeah, I don't know how to help you with that—"

"Ugh, why is love so complicated!" He wails his arms and whines like a baby while you stare at him amusedly. "Why does love have to be such a jerk? Can't I just love whomever I want and have them love me back? I mean, it's not that hard—love is a pain in the ass."

"Love is a pain in the ass when you realize that you're in love with your best friend's boyfriend," you say barely above a whisper and you chase your words by shoving one last mouthful of noodles.

"What—" He asks.

"What?" You repeat and he looks at you blankly. "What—oh, I said 'love is a pain in the ass just like life. Life is a bitch and then you die.'"

"Was that a Nas reference?"

"Indeed, it was."

The rest of the night is filled with laughter and tears before the both of you reach the dormitory. You're a few metres from the entrance doors and you're in the midst of wiping away your tears of laughter that you suddenly stumble on your two feet. You feel two arms catch and prevent you from falling on your face.

"Oh, thanks, Jungkook." You laugh again. "I could be very clumsy sometimes."

"I feel like I've been a burden to you, you know, with my whole situation with Jiyeon," he begins, "have you ever been in love? Maybe I can help."

"Oh, don't worry about it, my love life is much more complicated than yours."

"How so?" He questions.

"Oh, you wouldn't want to know because I'm in love my best friend's boyfrie—wow would you look at the time, I should go get some beauty sleep before I get even more uglier that all of Jiyeon's suitors stop courting her because of me."

"W-What? I'm so lost." He pouts his lips.

"I'm kind of lost too, bud. But hey, if I were you, stop letting others make you feel worthless and unwanted. I'm sure someone is out there that'll make you feel wanted and definitely worth their wait," you ramble on and on and you don't notice how he's slowly starting to fall in a deep trance within your brown orbs.

You fiddle with the hems of your knitted sweater before realizing that yikes, maybe I'm giving him the idea that I want them to break up and I don't want that to happen—

"Oh and uh—don't think I'm just saying this because my best friend is being really shitty to you, I'm just saying this because I genuinely care, as a friend." With slightly widened eyes and the need to cringe, you smile nervously, "hope you figure things out eventually, until then, goodnight Jungkook! I'll see you in bio."

It is only when you're already inside your dorm that he realizes one thing. And when he realizes it, he slowly smiles and feels his cheeks start to flush a light tint of red. He starts to remember all the times he's laughed at your biology puns and jokes, the times where you both messed up your lab reports, even the times where you both studied for the midterm only to end up falling asleep.

Maybe that someone has been there all along. He suddenly laughs at himself, who knew love would be so simple?

"Maybe love doesn't suck at all if you exist."