I had got my schedule from the office when a familiar face came up to me.
"Arya," Brandon said with a smile.

"Brandon," I nodded back.

"What do you have first?" He asked me and I just passed him my schedule.

Someone was watching me I could feel it. I turned to see a girl with blond hair, saying she was pissed was an understatement.

"Who's that? Why is she staring at me?" I said glaring straight back at her.

"My ex," He whispered before turning me around and handing me back my schedule.

"You have mostly A classes just like Princess and Lacey." He said walking with me.

"Your friends?" I asked.

"Princess is, as for Lacey my best friend's girlfriend." He replied and I nodded. "Well here we are, Arya," He smiled.

I felt my heart rate increase slightly every time he said my name. I nodded and thanked him.

"Who are you?" The teacher said as I walked in.

"Arya Jones," I replied looking around the room.

" You must mean Arya Heart," She said looking at the register. "Would you like to say anything to the class?"

"I'm Arya," I said coldly.

"Well... okay then Arya please sit next to Lacey on the back row." I watched as Lacey raised her hand. Immediately one of the first things I noticed was her warm smile which seemed genuine.

"Hey, I'm Lacey nice to meet you,"

"Hey, I'm Arya," I offered back.

"Sit with me and my friends at lunch," She said immediately catching me off guard. "Brandon will be there," She said with a tiny smirk.

"Is that meant to mean something," I shrugged.

"Well after seeing you two in the halls and blog pages releasing you two dancing together at your party, it would be crazy if it didn't." She replied shrugging giving me the same energy I gave her.

Before I knew it Lacey and I were talking like old friends. I found out she also wanted to try out for the football team. English was soon over and I began walking to lunch with Lacey to lunch.

"Hey babe," One guy said pulling her into a deep kiss so I simply started walking by myself I wasn't going to watch that.

Before I knew it I heard Lacey call my name so I slowed down as she and her boyfriend caught up. "Hey, I'm Ace you must be the mysterious new Heart,"

I scoffed, "That's what people are saying? Hi, I'm Arya,"

"Sorry about that, we just haven't seen each other in a while his dad took him on a business trip," Lacey said embarrassed.

I nodded, "Help me find the cafeteria please I'm already lost," I said confused making them both laugh.

I walked in and I immediately felt a lot of eyes on me including my brothers who were all sitting at what I assumed was the popular table. After scanning around, I made eye contact with Brandon who was sitting with another girl who I assumed was Princess. As we walked over she simply eyed me as if she was searching for something.

"Hi, I'm Princess," She said shaking my hand gently.

"Arya," I replied before taking a seat in between Lacey and her as the boys were on the other side.

"Is this everyone in your friendship group?" I asked satisfied it had a mix of people and it wasn't too large either.

"Kind of there's Jayden he hangs out with your brothers a lot and also us. Then there's Tj he's all over the place except we never know where he is." Princess said before taking a bite out of her sandwich.

Lacey smirked before whispering, "Bradon your ex has been eying us,"

"Which one is she?" I asked not looking up and making it obvious.

"The one with your brothers with blond hair. Her name's Claire."

"Eww," I said rolling my eyes trying not to cringe.

"What?"Lacey asked.

I cringed, "I just saw her kiss my brother."

"Well they are together she dumped me for him, can't believe we used to be friends," Brandon said irritated.

"Really?" I asked surprised.

"Yeah your brother Andrew, TJ, Jayden, Alex and I used to be a group and when Andrew and I fell out, well everyone chose their sides. Now, the two groups hate each other except Jayden and Tj who refuse to get involved," Brandon said and I nodded.

"They are ass-" Ace started.

I cut in, "My brothers you can talk shit but expect to get hit in the face," I said coldly.

"I like you," Princess smiled at me.

"Hey guys," A person said who I assumed was Jayden.

"Hey," The table said back in the union.

"You must be Arya," He smiled at me with his cute pearl teeth.

I replied with a small smile."Yep, Jayden right?"

Before he could even finish water was being poured on my head. I stood up and looked at Claire, the whole cafeteria fell silent.

"Stay out of my way." She yelled at me.

"This is so cliche," I laughed back in her face taking Princess' coffee and spilling it on her shirt. "Sorry, I'll buy you another."

"That burns," She said through gritted teeth."You must think that you are somebody because your brothers are successful."

"No, I think I'm somebody because I have the satisfaction of knowing I will always be better than fake-ass bitches like you." I snapped back.

That's when she slapped me so I lunged at her and punched her in the face before kicking her stomach making her fall to the floor. "At least both my parents are alive," She laughed and that's when anger consumed me.

"I'm not the one to start this with, bitch." I jumped on top of her and punched her over and over until Andrew and Jayden came and pulled me off. After a few seconds, I got out of his grip and lunged at her again this time stopped by Xavier.

"Are you fucking insane," One of her friends said rushing to her aid as well as Andrew.

Andrew? Is he for real?

"No she is for thinking she had a chance," I yelled back before starting to walk out of the cafeteria.

"Fuck sake Arya," Andrew said squeezing my wrist once I was already out the door. "Why are you like this always fucking everything up,"

I looked at him astonished, "Me... I'm fucking shit up. Sorry for fucking existing Andrew for walking into your life but I didn't have a choice. She did, she walked up to me, insulted me and talked about my mom. So forgive me for not allowing it, forgive me for giving back twice she gave me but my mom didn't raise a doormat people can walk all over."

"Yeah you are right she raised an unwanted child, a mistake," He said bitterly I noticed Lucas, Kyle and Xavier close behind.

I called my hands together for a second before releasing them."I know I'm unwanted, you needn't remind me."

I turned my heel only to run into the principal, "Office now Heart."The way it rolled off the tongue made me feel like he had said that a lot.

Before I knew it Zuri was being called into school. Anxiously I watched as Zuri walked in she looked furious. The principal had made me seem like a monster.

"I am utterly ashamed of you!" She said slamming her purse down. "You are meant to be the principal and this is the favouritism you show towards your niece. Well, maybe we need to get you removed. Your niece hit Arya and provoked her so anything that she did was self-defence."

"Mrs Heart please calm down," He said trying to calm Zuri down.

"No why is my daughter the only one in trouble where's Claire's mom? Claire boasted so much about having two biological parents well let's see then, shall we? Let's show her what a disappointment of a daughter she is going around being horrible to kids on their first day. Principle, if I ever see favouritism towards your niece again you will lose your main investors, understood."

"Okay, Mrs Heart but a sanction has to be installed."

"That is true but the suspension is too far or if you wanna suspend Arya make sure your niece gets the same sanction. Or will detention suffice?" She smiled.

"That will be fine Mrs Heart. Sorry for calling you out of your busy schedule."He said almost sounding scared.

"Give me a moment with my daughter, alone please," She said looking at him and then the door.

"You okay?" She asked hugging me and tears whelmed up in my eyes. "You are there the only person who defended and believed me."

"Why wouldn't I defend you you're my daughter," She said rubbing my back as I sobbed.

"None of them defended you?" She asked surprised.

"Andrew blames me, Claire is his girlfriend," I said hugging her back.

"I never liked her," She said with disgust which made me laugh. She let go of me and wiped my tears. "I know I will never replace your mom and I won't ever try to but I see you as my daughter. I know everything is hard right now but you are family Arya. You said before the family isn't blood, you're right it's who you choose for it to be, I choose you okay? I will always try my best to be here for you." She said squeezing my hand.

Out of everyone, I had never expected Zuri to be the one who was always on my side and since I arrived she had been. I believed every word she said to me and I couldn't help but smile that she saw me like family.

Zuri and I said goodbye to each other and I went back to classes ignoring the whispers of me being exactly like my brothers.

Detention wasn't too bad either I did homework for the hours. I left the school and to my surprise, Fabian was waiting for me inside his car. "Hey," He smiled and I nodded and got into the back. "I heard about the school you okay?" I hummed in response texting Aline everything that had happened.

I knew Fabian hadn't done anything but it was hard, he would be on their side, he had known them longer and if Andrew and Lucas didn't defend Mom, why would he?

I had foolishly warmed up a little to Kyle and Xavier and they betrayed me too.

It had just been a shitty day for me my stomach was killing me and the medication Zuri got for me had helped but I just wanted to lie down. When we got home Fabian got out before me and went inside the house. After a while, I followed him deliberately slamming the door as I entered and there, my whole family sitting on the sofa.

Fuck them all 

I didn't even spare them a glance, I walked past them at full speed and went upstairs and got changed into workout clothes. I remembered I had walked past a gym when we had that big party. After searching for a while, I found my black boxing gloves and went downstairs.

"Arya I was about to call you it's dinner time," Zuri smiled and I smiled back and nodded.

I sat down next to Zuri and Fabian. Hesitantly, I looked at the rice and chicken on my plate. After taking a few bites I was full so I started tapping my fingers on the table.

"Can you stop that it's irritating," Andrew complained and I ignored him and continued. "I'm talking to you." He said getting more irritated.

"You guys all need to talk about what happened today," Dad said calmly. "Arya, are you okay?"

"Is she okay? She beat up my girlfriend!" Andrew exclaimed.

"Didn't she start it?" Zuri asked him taking my defence.

Andrew paused then continued "Yes but beating her up like that was excessive just because she talked about Mom," He said making the room go silent. Everyone stared at me waiting for a reaction like I was a show pony. Ignoring everything around me I continued to tap my fingers on the table it was keeping me calm the beat consistent.

"I don't think it was excessive at all, what happened to you guys promising you would be there for Arya," Fabian said taking my defence. "You guys so quickly changed your mind. You guys shouldn't have let his girlfriend pour whatever on her you should've stood up for her at that moment."

"I want you to break up with her," Dad said. It was so weird even though they were all arguing about me. I still felt like an outsider I couldn't have felt more disconnected.

"No, I have been with her way longer than I knew about her existence." He said saying her disgusted as if I was a disease. "She means nothing to me all, that's why I didn't defend her and the boys care about me more than her so they didn't either."

Abruptly, I stood up from my chair took my boxing gloves and left without a word. What was the point anyway, all I had been doing since I arrived was fighting.

Punch

Why me?

Punch

It's always me, I'm the problem, the mistake.

Punch

Why me?

Punch

I cannot live like this.

Punch

Fuck it all.

Punch

I cannot do this anymore.

Punch

I just can't.

Since I had arrived, deep down I had been searching for love to fill up the hole where my mom used to be. Everything was a mess. I was unwanted, I was unrecognised, I was unloved. Things a couple of weeks ago I couldn't imagine being.

I got on the treadmill after throwing my gloves on the floor. As I ran I tried to remind myself some people cared for me Aline there would always be Aline.

How long till she leaves me too

I increased the speed of the treadmill to try to drown myself out.

Faster 

She'll leave too

Faster

You guys are only friends because of your Moms

 Faster

How long until she realises that too?

Faster

I'm nothing she doesn't need me.

Faster

I'm nothing more than a mistake.

Shock consumed me as the treadmill slowed down and I looked around to see all my brother's in with me and Lucas holding the plug of the treadmill.

"I told you to slow it down you were so in the zone you didn't hear I was scared you'd hurt yourself." Lucas croaked out as if he was scared I would hurt him. I got down and started collecting my things.

"You were destroying that punching bag," Kyle said attempting to make conversation.

Swiftly, I walked past them all before I felt my wrist being pulled back. "Stop doing this Mom and Dad are worried about you!" Andrew yelled in my face. Blankly, I just stared at him and then my wrist before taking it away. He grabbed it again. "Mom abandoned us the same way Dad abandoned you, so forgive me for not caring all that much about her." Once again I looked at him blankly I didn't take my wrist in case he took it back again.  Slowly he let go and when he did I left.

As I was getting ready for bed I caught sight of my reflection and for whatever reason it angered me. Maybe it was the fact slowly I losing myself, maybe it was because slowly I was becoming the opposite of everything I wanted to be. Frustrated, I punched the mirror and it cracked and shattered leaving a broken mess on the floor.

As I looked down at the broken glass. Slowly I picked up one of the bigger pieces. A tear rolled down my cheek, already knowing what my mom would be thinking from heaven. She would be upset if I broke the promise of never hurting myself again, never leaving a scar on my body again.

But she broke one too, she said she would always be there for me and she left the biggest scar, one that could never be self-inflicted.

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