When your born you scream like hell right? Mainly because you've left your little safe haven in mummy's tummy and now your in the scary and cold world. But personally I reckon its because babies have a sense of maybe how hard its going to be like growing up. But then again that's just silly isn't it.?

But wait its not! As kids tend to grow up they pick up things which actually astounds me.. Kids are more supposed to be resilient and be able to cope with whatever life throws at them right?.

 Yet I happen to be perhaps the odd one out? I'd often wondered in my life does crying and keeping going make me weak or perhaps even making the same mistakes over and over again? Or does it make me stupid?

I often keep forgiving people only for them to hurt me again.. You've read my book Being Deaf have'nt you? If you haven't you should.. I keep half forgiving my dad and half being mad at him. I actually want people like him to be happy.

But you can't force someone to change even if you had magic powers.. They have to figure it out on their own just like I have to figure out what it is exactly that I'm doing wrong and to work out exactly what my issues are.

We all have Demon's right? We can't help it.. It's who we are otherwise life would be boring.