why......

Why!

WHY!!!

"Why does pain exist, Why is it real, Why am I even alive ? What's my purpose?"

These are the thoughts that swarm through my head ever since that day..... Ever since they disappeared from my life. I try to avoid everyone because of them. My presence is a MURDER.I killed them.... or at least my "other side" did. But in conclusion the reason they died  is....ME. Its all my fault. If I didn't live, if I didn't meet them, if I didn't barge myself into their lives...... Then maybe they would still be alive and happy. so in order to atone for my "sins", I will cause pain to my self and take in all the sadness and sorrow they faced because of me. I will slowly kill myself starting from the inside out. Then finally the other side will be free.  After all... life greatest lessons are through PAIN. 

Hi Guys I'm a beginner with this but I hope you enjoy  if your want me to continue this series please tell me!!!!