Dark is a perfect word to describe the night sky, until the teachers lit the bonfire and the night is suddenly illuminated by the roaring warmth. The students cheer, smiling as they eat their cotton candy and brandy snaps whilst I stand a distance away from everyone else. 

"You would have loved this," I smile, looking up at the stars. "I can imagine you now, stuffing your face with cotton candy and acting like a child who is hyper on sweets. You would be beyond excited about the fireworks, but you would jump every time they were set off. Your blabbering would make me laugh and you'd keep on doing it just because it made me happy. That was the thing about you, you made others happy; you made me happy. But what about you? You were always so determined to make me happy, yet you never thought about yourself. It was alright you telling me you wasn't going to sleep until I was happy, but what about you and your happiness? Do you think I can be happy without you? Knowing I can never see your smile again that made so many butterflies suddenly appear in my stomach? How am I supposed to live? I know what you would say, 'smile for me', I guess I at least owe you that. I will smile everyday, I will carry on your way of thinking and I will go out of my way to make others happy."

Tears begin to trickle down my cheeks as the first firework explodes up in the sky.

"It's as if you brought me back to life to watch me die again," I laugh sadly, waving at the stars. "And I would never want it any other way, thank you Hoseok."