I woke and blinked adjusting my eyes to the light. I looked over and saw John sitting in a chair beside my hospital bed. He was asleep and had an arm draped over me.

I didn't want to move too much or wake him. I really didn't want to talk to him.

John woke up and sat up rubbing sleep from his eyes.

Fuck.

"Charles! Do you have your memory back yet?" He asked putting a hand on my cheek

I shoved his hand away and turned the opposite way, pulling the blanket up to my shoulders.

"Charles please don't hate me..." he mumbled. I ignored him.

"I hope you know I've been trying to contact you for the past month" he said

That long? So he does love me?

Don't be delusional. Of course he doesn't!

"Charles I'm ready to commit. I've dated and been with other people and I wish I hadn't. Please give me another chance. It's been three years.."

He can't still love me. It's been three years.

The nurse came in. Good save.

"Has he regained his memory? When he is he can go home" the nurse said
"What're you talking about?" I asked
"Charles?" John asked
"For the last time I don't know who Charles is." I said

The nurse left the room. I sighed in relief.

"But I thought-" John started
"I have my memory stupid." I said crossing my arms
"But- Why would you make the nurse believe you didn't?" He asked
"I lived with Burr. Where am I supposed to go?!" I said frustrated
"Stay with me! You can't stay here. Your hospital bill is high enough and I'm still your emergency contact." He said
"Fine.." I sighed

John went out and told the nurse everything. They agreed to let me leave.

After paper work and an awkward passive aggressive car ride we got to John's.

"Three years and you still have the same apartment" I mused
"Well I was in a relationship with the landlord at one point it's a little awkward to sign all the paperwork to leave. Don't ask." John mumbled
"Kay.." I mumbled and went to the bedroom. I set my suitcase beside the dresser.

I glanced over and saw the picture of us I ripped in half before I left

Clear tape held the image together. It was in a new frame since I broke the other one.

John walked in and saw me holding the photo. He froze not knowing what to say.

I looked at the picture for a second before setting it back on the dresser and going to the living room.

John had a blanket and pillow on the couch for me.

"Thanks" I mumbled
"Of course" he nodded "want something to eat?"
"No thanks." I said lying on the couch and scrolling through my phone

I saw a picture John posted eight months ago. He picture was of John and another guy with curly hair. He had stubble and was taller than John. In the picture John was kissing his cheek.

I narrowed my eyes at the photo jealousy rising in me.

John walked by and saw what I was looking at.
"Oh that's Lafayette. He broke up with me three months ago because I was too clingy." John said
"Oh.." I mumbled scrolling through more photos he's posted

Quite a few photos with guys.

"I've been dating but it's not going well. No one else is like you" he said sitting beside me
"Then why'd you break up with me" I glared at him
"I'm stupid." He said bluntly

I rolled my eyes and kept scrolling. I found a post from last year.

'Does anyone know how to contact Charles Lee? It's important' I read. I looked at the comments and saw Burr's account.

'He told me to tell you to leave him alone'

"I did not!" I said
"What?" John looked at my phone screen
"I never said that! I didn't know you've been trying to contact me for a year..." I teared up
"Oh yeah...after Burr said that I kind of gave up. I thought you'd always hate me.." he said trying not to cry. I heard his voice crack.

I hugged him and kissed his face all over. John hugged me and buried his face in my shoulder.

"I'm sorry" he cried
"It's okay.." I sighed
"No it's not! You tried to kill yourself because I made you feel unloved. If I never would've broken up with you you'd still be perfectly fine!"
"Well I'm fine now. And I'm here a-and I'm not going anywhere. Okay?" I said
"Okay.."

"I missed you" John days after awhile
"I missed you too"

We made eye contact for a split second. He started to lean in...

*slap*