messages between sawyer and willow
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Willow: taylor can see something is wrong
Willow: u need to talk to him
Sawyer: ok i will
Willow: you can do it sawyer! 😉
Sawyer: thanks for everything Willow
Willow: np! im happy to help
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Sawyers POV

I received Willow's text and smiled. She had been so helpful during this time. I looked up to see Taylor approaching me. A knot twisted in my stomach. I don't know if I should even tell him this. Willow's words of encouragement stayed in my mind and I knew I had to do this.

We were outside of the school during lunch time. Usually I would always sit with Taylor but lately things had been different.

"Hey." I said casually as he reached my side.
"Sawyer, what the fuck is going on with you?" He huffed. I had to take a deep breath to stop myself from snapping at him.
"Sit down." I said and motioned to a bench nearby.
He raised his eyebrows and shot me a questioning look but he still did what I said. I followed him and sat by his side.

"We need to talk." I said steadily.

"No shit. I've been trying to talk to you for the last few days but you've been ignoring me." Taylor replied.

I inhaled another deep breath to calm myself before I continued.

"I'm going to tell you of how I'm – feeling – and I just want you to listen to me – please."

Those words did not feel right coming out of my mouth. Another questioning look from Taylor told me what he was thinking, but he still remained quiet.

"I'm tired of living in your shadow Taylor." I sighed. As soon as I said that, it felt like a massive weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

"This year, you've really become – popular – and I think that's changed you."

I had to choose my words carefully. Surprisingly, Taylor didn't interrupt. He sat there and listened attentively.

"You've blown me off heaps of times for parties or even girls. At school, I feel like I'm just your – sidekick."

Taylor looked away and focused his attention on something else. I was about to get mad at him for not taking this seriously when suddenly he spoke, his eyes still looking at the trees in the distance.

"I'm really sorry Sawyer. I never meant to hurt you. I never even realised I was hurting you and I mean this when I say it –"

He turned to look at me again.

"You've been my best friend for years and I guess I took that for granted. I really have missed having you around."