DROWNING

"Brace yourself," He started walking towards the main room of this suite and instantly pinned me through the back of the door as he closes it and devour me for those roses of kisses.

His moved so aggressively as he bites my lower lip and shivered, I could feel his hands moving up underneath my shirt and instantly reaching for my mound, massaging it alternately, and as the liquor inside of me spread, heat instantly rule my whole system, as I hold his hand and guide him on doing it on my mound.

Leusam didn't waste any seconds and instantly ripped my shirt off using his other hand, he pulls my bra down, letting my breast serve nakedly in front of him, he looks at it before he gaze at me, clenching his jaw and say, "Slap me now, so I can stop," he hardly whisper, touch my cheeks trying to control himself.

I felt butterflies in my stomach as he gently caressed my face and told me to stop him even though his face was begging me to give in to him. He was catching his breath and trying hard not to touch my half-naked body.

I also notice that he's avoiding looking into my eyes and just focusing on my cheeks, I don't know but that makes my heart pound and felt so much happiness inside of me.

I urged a small smile before I slowly moved my hands up to his nape, I held his chin and made him look me in the eyes. "Don't stop," I whisper with a smile on my lips, making him weakly sigh before he kisses me.

His kisses weren't like the first one, it was sweet and alive, filled with emotions. He's touching me aggressively but I can still feel that he's holding me like the thing he owns that's too precious for him.

I don't know how could he make me feel that way even though, I'm drunk as fuck, but I don't care anymore, all I want right now is to feel him in every part of my body.

He filled me with kisses all around my face down to my neck like he was not leaving any spot, licking and sucking every part of my skin, making sure to mark it all. Every time he kisses me and I can feel his breath through my delicate skin, I feel so weak and just grip on him tighter for strength.

I just close my eyes and feel his movements, because my vision is turning into two, it makes my head hurt so much. When his kisses go to my shoulder, I grab that chance to hug him and just rest my chin on his shoulders and let him move whatever he wants.

He carries me again properly and walks towards the glass window here inside the room where you can see the whole city. He slowly puts me down, so I open my eyes and look at him. He smiles at me before he kisses my forehead and turns me around to face the night view.

I felt his arms wrap around my waist and slowly pull down my pants, "Isn't it beautiful?" he whispers, I just nodded at my answer and suddenly my eyes widened when he pulls me step backward and bend me down, making me hold into the glass window for balance support.

He ripped my underwear and I could hear him unbuckling his belt while holding my waist, "But my view right now is the most beautiful view I could ever ask for," he whisper.

"Ahh," He just inserted it in one trust and I felt like, I was ripped apart, I started gasping for air as he starts thrusting aggressively, "Ah ah ah" I was moaning so loud because of his rough movements.

His grip on my waist is his way of guiding me to meet his thrust making it more pleasurable. "Ahh Le-Leusam," I utter, every thrust he didn't fail to reach my peak of that pleasure and I'm going crazy because of it.

Liquor inside my whole system is firing me up, I held his right hand on my waist and slowly lifted up my body to rest my back on his chest and try to reach his lips. He was thrusting and at the same time, we were savoring each other's lips.

I'm already feeling my peak, so I grab his hand tighter, "Hmmm," I moan between our kisses, he thrust faster and harder, making me stop kissing him and letting out this overflowing pleasure inside of me. "Ah ah ah..." my moan and our body making a loud sound around this room.

"I'm near," I lean my lead on his shoulder and let him kiss my neck, he starts biting it and letting out deep breaths as he thrust deeper. He was both gasping for head and sweat all over our bodies adding more heat for the both of us.

"Fuck" He groan as my body weakens, we both reach our peak, and I could feel that warm liquid me overflowing down to my thighs.

I lose so much strength and just let him carry all my weight, we stay still for a few seconds before he slowly lifts me up like bridal style, brings me to the big bed, and lay me down before he positions himself between my legs, leans down for a kiss and starts penetrating me again.

He started filling me again with his thing and, holding both of my hands above my head and locking it with his right hand, while his other hand was busy in my mound.

He keeps on pounding inside of me while we are both drawing ourselves with this pleasure we are making, "Love me," I heard him mumble something but I'm too drunk to understand but he whispers it again between our kisses.

"Love me tonight, like we don't have tomorrow."

I don't know but suddenly I sober up and realize what he said, he was pounding me so deeply but my mind won't stop rewinding what he just said, "I'm drowning in obsession for you El, so love" he whispers to my cheeks before he starts giving me sweet kisses like he always does.

My heart started beating so fast, it's so fast to the point that I feel weaker. Was he serious about the words he was saying? "Hmm, fucking tight," he groans and continues pounding me with pleasure.

I could already hear the bed making a sound because of his aggressive thrust, but my mind is still occupied by the words he said.

I look at him when he moves away and focuses on thrust as we are near to our climax, my heart keeps racing to watch him move, suddenly becoming slow motion, sweat falling from his hair, veins in his neck, his thin lips, that long lashes, and those eyes.

I was falling for him as he said but suddenly fear started to build inside of me, fear of expecting too much from someone.

"Ahhh," "Fuck!" I ached my body as we both reached our climax; I felt my womb filled with his semen.

And, that's when I made up my mind not to love him tonight because tomorrow, I will be expecting so much from him that he might not be able to give because I'm just a stripper paid to get laid off.

He weakly rested his body above me and hugged me like I was all his, I just closed my eyes and hugged him.

My heart is beating for you but my mind is running from you. "I would do anything for you," he whispered before I fell asleep.

I sleep in peace in his arms and wake up with his soft kisses, "Good morning, El," he said and smiled at me, fixing some strand of my hair and putting it at the back of my ears, kissing my forehead so gently.

Napapikit ako ng sinubukan kong gumalaw dahil sa pangangalay pero naramdaman ko ang kirot ng buo kong katawan dahil sa ginawa namin kagabi, at pati na rin ang sakit ng aking ulo.

"Sorry, I wasn't able to control myself last night, believe me, I don't want to get rough on you," he whispers while helping me sit on the bed, and massaging my back to lessen the pain unnoticed.

"Wanna take a shower?" he asked while tying my hair, I nodded and after tying my hair he carries me off of the bed and bring me to the bathroom, slowly put me down to the bathtub, and filled it with warm water.

"Here, rest your head here," he put a soft towel in the tub and slowly rest my neck on it as he started putting shampoo on my hair, Leusam silently massage my head while spreading the shampoo all over my hair and wash it after.

"Wanna stay here for a while?" he gently asked while wiping the water on my face, I nodded, "Ok call me when you're done, ok," he gave me a peck on the lips before he stepped out the bathroom.

My heart is still pounding, I let out a heavy sigh before I drown myself under the water. I can't be attached to my customer. I won't fall.

I took me 15 minutes on staying inside the bathroom and when I decided to step out of it, wearing the hotel bathrobe, naabutan ko siyang may kausap sa telepono kaya sinubukan kong hanapin ang damit ko.

But just like the last time, I saw it at the side of the room, all ripped off into pieces. Bagsak balikat akong napalingon sa kama na may nakahandang Saint Laurent Stella Mccartney .

I walk towards the bed and sigh before I start wearing the dress, not minding him at the side talking to someone. I also sat on the bed after and checked the heels he bought again. It's a Saint Laurent Stella Mccartney Falabella faux leather sandal. Hindi na ako nagabala pang tignan ang presyo nito dahil mas lalo lang bibigat ang pakiramdam ko.

While he's talking to someone in his phone I decided to step outside of the room and clean the drinks we left in the entertainment room, habang nagliligpit hindi ko maiwasang sampalin ang aking pisngi ng maalala ang ginawa ko kagabi.

"Stupid Louen," I whisper and throw everything in the trash, paglabas ko ng silid na iyon naabutan ko ang mga staff ng hotel na naghahain ng pagkain sa lamesa, "Good morning ma'am," they greeted me and leave after fixing all the food on the table.

Tinitignan ko ang mga pagkaing nakahanda ng yakapin ako mula sa likuran ni Leusam at sinabi, "Let's eat," we both seat and start eating, hindi ko siya magawang tingnan sa kanyang mga mata dahil sa kahihiyang ginawa ko kagabi at isa pa nagwawala ang puso ko sa tuwing nagtatama ang aming mga mata.

"I'll be leaving the country for a month" he said, natigilan ako sa pagnguya dahil sa sinabi niya at this time tiningnan ko na siya sa kanyang mga mata. Aalis? Ng isang buwan? bakit?

I didn't ask but he answered what was on my mind already, "I have business meetings for 5 countries and that would take a month to finish, you want to come?" he asked me with a serious look.

Agad akong umiling bilang sagot at sinabi, "I have training right," sambit ko, "Yeah, I forgot," he said and continue eating. "I will be out for a month. I don't want you to dance in that club when I'm not around El," he said and looked straight into my eyes.

"Bakit?" sagot ko, I mean trabaho ko iyon hindi pwedeng hindi ako pumasok at isa pa paano ako kikita ng pera kung hindi ako papasok ng isang buwan.

"I already talked to Cherille about you not dancing for a month, focus on your training and don't go to that work anymore," he said and handed me a thick small brown envelope.

"Ano ito?" tanong ko, "Your allowance for the month I'm away," he answered, tinignan ko ito at hindi makapaniwalang makakita ng 10 thousand pesos sa loob at isang cheke na naglalaman ng 300 thousand pesos.

"Don't dance while I'm away El, I'll instantly know if you disobey what I said, use this money for your monthly expenses and just focus on your training," he said and continue eating, hindi na ako nagsalita pa at nagpatuloy nalang sa pagkain.

After eating he sent me home, "I'll see you in a month, miss me ok" he said before he kissed me on my cheeks and held my hand so gently, "Think about me every day you wake up," he whispered before kissing the back of my hand.

I nodded like a child and step out of his car, watched him leave and go inside the house, spacing out, I won't be seeing him for a month.

"Tangina mo talaga, Six!!!" natigilan ako ng sumigaw ng napakalakas si Erille, at doon ko lang na realize na nandito pala si Six. "Anong nangyayari?" tanong ko ng makitang pinagbabato ni Erille si Six ng mga damit niya.

"Hi Louen, good morning," sambit ni Six at tumayo sa harapan ko ng may ngiti sa labi, I smile at him and say, "Hi," pero naguguluhan ako bakit sila nagaaway?

"Mamatay ka na talaga, Six!!!" sigaw ni Erille habang palabas ng kanyang kwarto, anong nangyayari, puno ng drawing at hita ni Erille at pati noo niya ay may drawing ng smiley face.

"Sorry akala ko freedom wall yang hita mo ang lapad eh ahahaha, Louen para sayo, mauna na ako ah kita nalang tayo sa bar mamaya," he said and run to the door, "Hindi ako papasok mamay---," hindi ko na natapos sasabihin ko ng isara niya na ang pinto at tuluyan nang umalis.

"Ahh mamatay ka na!!" galit na sigaw ni Erille kaya nilapitan ko siya at pinaupo sa sofa, "Kalma Rie, ano bang nangyari?" tanong ko.

"Eh yang putang inang Six na yan, kagabi ka pa hinahanap sa akin at tapos inabutan ng ulan dito kaya, dito kona pinatulog sa sofa pero ang demonyo pinasok ako sa kwarto at tignan mo ginawa sa aking hita at mukha! Paano nalang ako papasok mamaya nito sa club! Putek permanent pentouch yong ginamit niya!!!!" halos sipain na lahat ni Erille lahat ng maabot ng paa niya sa inis.

"Kalma, tutulungan na lang kita burahin yan, may pasok pa tayo oh," sambit ko at sinamahan siya sa banyo, at inabot kami ng isang oras sa pagbubura ng mga drawing sa katawan niya.

Nabura na ito pero bakas pa rin ang ilang drawing nito sa kanyang hita at braso kaya napilitan si Erille mag pantalon at hoodie ng wala sa oras. Buti na lang medyo ok na ang pilay niya kaya nakakalakad na siya ng maayos.

"Kita na lang tayo mamaya ng lunch ah," I said when we part ways to our second class, habang nasa klase hindi ko tinigilan ang checkeng bigay ni Leusam sa akin, hindi rin nawala sa isip ko na hindi ko siya makikita mamaya at ng isang buwan.

"Focus on your training, Louen," bulong ko sa aking sarili at sinubukan siyang tanggalin sa aking utak. "Focus!"