Hello to you! My awesome freader!

I opened this chapter about 6 months ago, maybe more. But ever since I wrote the last chapter, I just haven't been able to think of what to write.

 2017 was a crazy one.

It started off with me continuing my last year of high school when in Feb I heard the news of my grandmother being diagnosed with cancer, it didn't affect me much because in my head my grandmother was the strongest person I know. However, as you all know it didn't turn out well. 

And on May 21, I finally graduated high school.

My grandmother could not come to my graduation because she had a blood transfusion, and I was a little sad but I knew she was there even if she wasn't.

In mid-June, my grandmother came for a week visit but after 3 days of her visit, she became so ill.  And on the last four days of her life, I would go every day to the hospital just to be there, even if I was absolutely useless. As you might imagine the first time I actually saw her with my own eyes lying in the hospital bed the "inside of me" just broke. All I kept thinking was that she was going to be fine. The saddest part of that day was the first time she laid eyes on me she didn't recognize me, it was only when the nurse came back and woke her up to tell her I was there and she gave me a big smile and said "Ayiaaahhh" and I completely broke down crying but she didn't know because she went back to sleep.

I know the experience I am sharing might or is a bit personal, but I thought it's time I let my thoughts run wild and let whoever went through the same thing know they are not alone. Also just for future reference for myself :P

Moving on, a small creepy thing I would like to add, at the exact moment when I was writing my "memoir" or whatever it is called apparently my grandmother was actually passing away and I had absolutely no idea. My dad actually came to my room in the morning and told my other grandmother "she died" and I was barely awake at that time, but once he said those words I was alert and waited for my other grandmother to leave the room, and I bawled my eyes out once she did, and after a couple hours later my mom come to the room and says "she went peacefully" and even if I knew it alreay I wanted to cry as if it was the first time I heard it, and I thought if I started crying with my mom in the room she would not have a reaction instead she started crying with me and she hugged me real tight and kept saying "I know, I know."

 Anyway! After she passed away and all the documents were prepared, she flew back to the Philipines, and because my mom could not travel I was going to go alone with my aunts. And that was the first funeral I have been to in my life. I promised my self on the night they show a video and people talk about her I would not cry, but what do you know? By the end of it, I was bawling my eyes out along with everyone else.

And on July 4th I travelled back home. And on July 16 my cousin was born, and on the 26 My baby brother was born. 

On August 9 my birthday rolled around uneventful, and it was a bit weird without my grandma calling to wish me a happy birthday. On August 11th my mom threw me a 'graduation party' and birthday party and invited her friends, which was great.

In mid-September, I started university. And I met someone I met once in a party in 7th grade, and don't ask me how I remembered her because I don't know.

October and November nothing eventful really happened. 

When December came, the last 'pending' cousin was born on the 17. However, the hospital he was born in is money sucking so they kept making excuses and now he is in the ICU for babies. Now they transferred him to another hospital and he seems to be doing fine. :) 

Now that 2017 is over, I greet 2018 with open arms... I can't wait to see what it has in stores for me! 

Thank you to all who still reads this book, I don't know why you do 😂

I know it's not funny, but well I never claim to be funny so this is what you get 😂😂

Always keep smilin'

-Ayiah_Jaddo xx