Another past entry

I want to be in a relationship. That would be nice. I'd like to cuddle someone and kiss them a lot. I've never been with anyone before which is kind of sad since I'm 15 and everyone at school is in a relationship or has been in one before.

I don't think anyone will want to be in a relationship with someone like me. I have so many problems and I'm just a burden, you know?

No one should have to handle me crying every day because I hate my life.

It's not nice of me to hand my burden to someone else.

My aunt is struggling to cope, I know. She sometimes shouts at me when I cry or won't get out of bed. She always apologises though and I know she means it. I'm just stressing her out.

She told me that she might send me to boarding school because then I won't have memories haunting me all the time and I could make some friends.

I said I really liked the idea.

Maybe if I go somewhere else, I can meet new people and make friends. I could pretend that I'm cool and happy and get them to like me. Then I can make my first friend.

That won't happen because I'm a loser. A loser who likes childish stuff and still cuddles a bear when I fall asleep. If anything, I'll just get bullied at boarding school.

Oh well, that would just add onto the already pages long list of why I hate my life.