THIS IS A DIARY ENTRY BUT NOT A PAST ONE A RECENT ONE

I can't do this. I'm afraid.

If I get too close to anyone again.. I could be ruined. I could get pushed off the little ledge that was currently holding me up.

I don't want to fall.

I need.. to stop letting people get close to me: it's only hurting them as well as me.

Isolation. (reAd mY bOoK IsOlATioN plS #spOn) Maybe that's the only answer.

But what if they try and send me 'home'? They can't do that, can they? I don't want to see my aunt.. I'll just make her depressed and anxious again and she doesn't need that.

If they try and send me back, I'll... run. I don't know? I'll do anything not to go 'home'.

I have my exams at the moment and my anxiety is so bad? I've been sick every morning (like actual vomiting) and I've been crying and my stomach just constantly aches? It's got to the point where I can hardly eat because I'm afraid I'll get sick and I'm scared to wake up in case my stomach is hurting again?

Does anyone have any advice??