"Lou, it's always been you. Only you."

"Harry, love, you really expect me to believe that?"

"But Lou you don't get it."

"Get what Harold?"

"LOU."

"What?"

"LOUISA."

"Huh?"

"LOUISA WILLIAM EDWARDS."

*thud*

"Hey Lou, mum wants you out of bed rig.....why are you kissing the floor?" The person I unfortunately share a roof with asks me.

I was just in the middle of a really good dream with the love of my life, Harry Styles. It's the only place I get to meet him and what does my brother decide to do?

"Get out James."

"Lou. It's 8. You have school."

"Shit."

And just like that I'm in the shower, closet, kitchen and out of the house like the Tazmanian Devil. Whilst I'm rushing and trying to get my arse to school let me introduce myself.
My name is Louisa William Edwards.
Born on the 27th of August 1998.
I'm 5'4". I tell people I'm 5'5" but let's keep that between you and I.
I live in Brighton, England. My favorite place. The beach is a bonus.
I'm in year 13. I take my final A-levels at the end of this year. My last year in school. Things cannot be scarier.
Books are my life. They are the things I just drown myself in whenever I have the time, whenever I'm feeling low, or  whenever I just want to escape reality. Reality being my life.
There's literally nothing very exciting about my life. I have no big dreams or passions. I want to have one. I want to know where I'm going with my life. I want to do something, you know? Anyways.
The second love of my life would have to be ice cream. Best. Invention. By. Man. If you love ice cream as much as I do, we are going to get along just fine!
I keep to myself and I think I'm too nice to people. I'm nice to people who don't deserve nice. And I have a hard time saying no. I'll never admit it to my friends though. They give me shit about it all the time and..

"LOUISA YOU ARE LATE. HA. EVEN I WAS EARLIER THAN YOUU."

Ah. My friends. What would I do without them?
Bunch of nut jobs.

Joking. I really don't know what I'd do without them.

"Vincent shutup. This is a one time thing only."

Meet Vincent Vance. One of the people I call my best friend. Annoying as hell but always manages to put a smile on my face.

I now brace myself for whatever bullshit is coming my way this fine Monday morning.

306 days till graduation. 306 days till my Life begins.

~

I managed to make it through half the day. Double Physics AND double Chem. The joy.

It's lunch now and lunch has got to be my favorite period.  There awaiting my arrival, as always are my best friends.
Anne Ryders, my dark and twisted sister. The smart one. Like really smart. She puts Sheldon Cooper to shame. Not even kidding. She wants to take up Law.
Natalie James. The fearless one. She can do it all basically. She wants to take on the business world.
Andrew Flynn. The one who gets bullied by us. We do love him though. He wants to become a fashion designer.
Mary Evans. The tall one. The know-it-all. She wants to take up Law as well.
Samantha Levine. Another smart one. This one, you just don't mess with. She wants to become a surgeon. Save lives and all that.

"YOU CAN BE A STAR."

And of course, you've met Vincent. He's the weird one. But even he knows where he's going with his life. He's got a fancy blog and everything.

Seeing them is always a reminder of how all of them have an idea of where they want to be, what they want to do, where they want to go and then there's me.
Kind of the DUFF. Designated Ugly Fat Friend.

I don't want to be something that the world needs. I want to do something that makes me come alive. Now you must be thinking, Louisa. The world is your oyster. Stop watching youtube and go and do something.
Trust me. I've tried. There's always been something that's stopped me. It's probably got to do something with my self confidence, insecurities, I don't know. But I've got to figure out something. Soon. Year 13 is going to come to an end soon. I've got to get my shit together.

Is it to much to ask?

~

Author's note-

Hello everybody!
So this is my first book. I've never done anything like this and I couldn't be more excited. Do leave your suggestions and constructive criticism in the comments :)
Thank You for stumbling upon my book.
Till we meet again, Auf Wiedersehen.

Without Wax,
Sanjana Ramesh