Hi!

I decided I wanted to give this fanfiction a bit more... I don't know how to say it... to make it more... professional? (Is that the right word?)

Like... the other fanfictions.

Hope you like this chapter!

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Remus' POV

She said that the fact he was a werewolf didn't bother her at all. She said that she was just surprised he didn't tell her before. She thought it was amazing. She wanted to know everything about them. Weird stuff like: What happens to your clothes when you turn into a wolf? Or Don't you feel hot with all that fur? Still deep inside of him he thought she was only acting, to make him feel better. That she was uncomfortable about that and she was only faking to be happy about it just to see a smile on his face.

But she knew nothing. Tonks didn't feel the pain he felt during the transformation. She never had the fear or killing or hurting someone you care about. She never felt excluded for that condition. She never felt what was to be poor because of that.

Werewolves are just monsters, he thought. That's why nobody likes them and nobody should like them more than friends.

But as he tried to convince himself that everything was fine, he discovered how much he really loved Tonks. He discovered how deep were his feelings for her and how happy he would be if she loved him back. But he didn't want to hurt her. In his worst nightmares, probably caused by Walburga, he would see her laying on the floor dead. Killed by him. He didn't want that to happen. He had to somehow find a way to not keep falling for her. Maybe by staying away from Tonks, he couldn't. That would hurt him in ways he wouldn't be capable to explain. He had to keep falling.

He couldn't take his eyes away from her. Thinking of how beautiful she was. How she didn't have a boyfriend already. Even when he was supposed to be concentrating on what the death eaters were saying. She was hearing them but he wasn't.

Tonks' POV

We were both hiding under one of those cheap invisibility cloaks. And just in case we were behind some trees.

I could barely see some of the death eaters, the only one I recognized was Bellatrix Lestrange.

They were all sitting in a circle around a fire, maybe caused by magic. The fire lighted up their faces, they were like five. All of them had bags under their eyes and a fierce expression on their faces.

"Remind me why are we here." said one of them. He had dirty blonde hair and pointed face.

"I think that wasn't polite enough" answered a woman that looked similar to the guy who asked.

"Sorry" said sarcastically the man. "Could you please remind me why the f*ck are we here?! Better?"

She rolled her eyes at him.

"Much better. We are here to wait the Dark Lord's favorite servant-" she started saying but suddenly changed her mind at the look Bellatrix gave her. "I mean... death eater to arrive."

"He's not the Dark Lord's favorite death eater!" exclaimed Bellatrix who seemed really annoyed.

"Then who do you think's Tom's favorite death eater?" answered another guy with round face and curly back hair. "Definitely not you! You weren't very useful while you were in Azkaban!"

"What I did was based on my love and loyalty for him" Bellatrix said solemnly, maybe too solemnly, so solemnly I was disgusted.

"And I think the Dark Lord never really cared much about that" hissed the black haired one. "Plus, Snape and Tom have been close since he became a death eater."

"So close they could be a couple." said the last man who hadn't speak before. He reminded me of Kingsley, he could be his lost brother.

Bellatrix turned red. Unluckily for her, the other death eaters realized about that.

"Can you imagine it? Snape and the Dark Lord!" squealed the pointed faced girl. That annoyed even more Bellatrix.

"HE'S NOT WITH THAT STUPID HALF BLOOD PIG!" Bellatrix stood up and pointed her wand at everyone else.

"I bet they've already kissed" finished Kingsley's twin. And that was all she needed to hear.

Bellatrix, red as a tomato, casted the Crucio spell. Unluckily for me, she didn't choose what person she would cast the spell on but did it anyway. A red light came out of her wand and landed right on my chest.

I felt the pain spreading from my chest to the rest of my body. Every single part of my body hurt. Every single hair I had. It felt worse than being squashed to death by a giant rock. Worst than being burnt alive. It hurt me in ways I couldn't explain.

I resisted the urge to scream, if the death eaters found us everything would be ruined. I tried to relax but I think Bellatrix used all her hate and jealously to cast the spell. Not even my best auror training helped me with this. And those were only the first five seconds.

Luckily, Remus realized what happened even before I did. He put his arm around my shoulders and apparated.

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When we apparated in Grimmauld Place, I was still under the effects of the Crucio spell. And I must say that apparating under Crucio is not fun.

I was shaking and screaming on the floor with an horrified Remus standing next to me.

I heard Sirius rushing down the stairs, he was the only one who could be there at that time. He found me shrieking on the floor and Remus kneeling next to me.

"What are we gonna do?" I couldn't see his face but based on his voice, he was really worried.

Remus' POV

He tried to be as strong as possible, even tough it was really hard. He knew that if he acted worried it would be worst for Tonks. For some reason the spell had a really long effect on Tonks and every single scream that came out of her mouth broke his only heart in millions of pieces.

Remus was the kind of person who blames itself for everything, this time wasn't an exception. He thought that if he would have been there to protect her maybe the spell would have been casted on him. He would be suffering and not her. Maybe he could have died but he would have saved her. He loved her, he couldn't see her suffer.

"There's nothing we can do" Sirius answered calmly. "Just wait until the effect stops"

Remus held back his tears and brought his head next to Tonks' face. She was covered in cold sweat. I won't leave you, he whispered in her ear.

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A few minutes after the incident Remus found Tonks shivering on a green tattered couch in Grimmauld Place with a cup of hot tea in her hands. He approached to Tonks with a blanket, put it around her cold shoulders and sat next to her.

"Is this how it feels?" she asked timidly.

"How it feels what?" he said confused.

"The transformation from human to wolf..." she looked right into his eyes with her big brown eyes opened like plates. He loved those eyes so much. He stared at them hoping she would never blink.

"I suppose yes" he said softly. "It's hard to be a werewolf. There's some stuff that people like us can't do..."

"Like what?" he had never really thought much about it before she asked her about that. He only had very unclear ideas of that.

"Like... having a proper job because of people's opinion on us. Like... enjoying a full moon night." Tonks didn't seem satisfied with the second one and looked at him with a face that clearly said: Really? "Like... finding love..."

"Why not?" she asked really surprise by the third one.

"Because... nobody would ever love a werewolf and... maybe werewolves are just too scared to hurt people they care about" finished Remus before Tonks could say something against the first argument.

"Remus, you are hurting nobody here. Stop being scared." she placed her hand softly on his cheek and pulled his cheek like cute grandmas do.

They stared at each other for a few seconds.

Those beautiful brown eyes.

Those pretty pink lips.

"Is it hard to face the werewolf transformation by yourself?" she said breaking the silence.

"I haven't been always alone"

"Really?"

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This chapter is dedicated to...

@The_Cupcake_Cult

Because I think she has been really exited for this update (I don't know if any other there was also that exited) (And if you were, sorry for not mentioning :( you). She has also been so nice with her comments! Thank you so much!

That's all for now!

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