day 30

dear sage,

you've been gone a whole month now, and we all miss you greatly. please come home. i miss chilling out with you, and playing fifa and going out catching pokemon. team instinct for the win, am i right?

josh told me that simon doesn't speak to anyone at all anymore. i decided to test that theory, and josh was fucking right. simon wouldn't talk to me at all, he took one look at me and broke down into tears. i gave him the rest of the photos, along with the box. the rest of the photos were just you and him. we'd all taken the ones with the rest of us in. as i write this down like the loser i am, i'm looking at a photo of me and you, we're down on tower bridge, and we're both holding up our middle fingers. i remember jj taking the photo and he said instead of saying cheese, say fuck off josh and we did.

i miss you sage. you're literally a sister to me, and i miss you so fucking much. i find myself crying myself to sleep. my girlfriend tries to comfort me, but it just doesn't work. i think she might leave me...i think she might dump me...i hope not, i need her.

im sorry if i caused you to leave because of what i said. i didn't mean it! it was all a joke, it was just banter between me and josh...please sage, i'm so so sorry!

~ethan x