Chapter 3 "Hide My Fears"


"Wake up every day stronger than yesterday, face your fears and wipe your tears."


Silence was the only thing roaming around Amelia. As she strode to school, tears fell out from her eyes; luckily the wind froze them making them fall without anyone noticing. Unfortunately, Ravenna had driven near her. "Amelia, let's go." She called out.

Amelia shook her head. "I'm fine."

"What's wrong?" She wondered.

"Nothing, I just feel like walking today." Amelia lied.

"Then why don't you look at me?" Ravenna questioned daringly.

Amelia hesitated after taking another step. She hastily turned to Ravenna. "I'm fine." She pronounced. Ravenna studied her face. "You look normal." She said. "Something must be wrong."

"I just want to walk today, Ravenna." Amelia stated. She turned and resumed her pace through the blizzard snow.

"Okay." Ravenna supported her choice. Amelia felt relief rush over her. "Thank you." She muttered, to herself, to the wind, to God if he really did exist. Amelia snatched her scarf and threw it over her shoulder, protecting her neck and covering her chin from the cold. Unexpectedly, Amelia was surprised to have her hand pulled away, making her stop ineptly. "What on earth happened to your hand?" Ravenna wondered troubled as she studied her hand. The glove allowed her to see most of her fingers, which were bruised and slightly swollen. With the intent of removing her glove, Amelia drew her hand away. "Weren't you in the car?" Amelia questioned looking back to where she last saw Ravenna. The car was gone, as if she never driven it this morning. Amelia gawked in confusion. "Where's the car?"

"What happened to your hand?" Ravenna interrogated dismissing Amelia's perplexed mind.

Amelia stared at Ravenna. "Nothing." She affirmed thrusting her hands in her pockets.

"Did you punch something?" She inquired.

"What?" Amelia responded incredulously.

"Or someone?" Ravenna implied. "Did you get into a fight?"

Amelia attempted to speak but no words past her lips. "Amelia, what happened yesterday?"

"Nothing, okay?" Amelia declared stubbornly. "Just because of what happened yesterday doesn't mean my whole life is a living hell, you helped me out yesterday and I appreciate it but stay out of my business. I want to walk alone. Please, leave me alone." Amelia begged.

"Alone." Ravenna spoke. "Of course, you would want to be alone, you don't know anything else."

"What is that supposed to mean?" Amelia questioned.

"You have no friends, you have no one to talk to, you always say 'I'm fine' or 'Nothing'." Ravenna pointed out. "Clearly, you don't know any other words or you wish to not speak them."

"Who do you even think you are?" Amelia asked. Ravenna caught her breath as she watched Amelia. "You really think that just because you welcomed me into your home, bought me coffee, gave me cake, that you have the right to criticize me, to judge me?" Amelia stared into Ravenna's eyes. "You don't know me! You don't know anything about me! Stop acting like we're even friends. One day does not make us friends, or best friends, or sisters. You're just the girl who helped me out yesterday. That's it, you're nothing else." Amelia walked away from Ravenna, "Just leave me alone!"

With that, Amelia simply left Ravenna on the sidewalk petrified of what she had just witnessed. Amelia didn't know what to feel or to think. She acted out and Ravenna pushed her to do it. She went on her own, alone. Thankfully, there was no wind in the day to struggle her on her way to school. Amelia walked in peace, however, even if it was only a day, it was nice to have someone around again.

Amelia head on to school though instead of walking through the main doors, she went around the school. She entered a slim pathway that was stuffed with snow enough for it to slip up inside her pants, making her shiver up to her spine. Finally, Amelia reached a small glass window. With several rocks, she managed to break the glass and stack piles of glistening snow for her to stand on. Even though she sunk in it occasionally. Amelia thrust her body inside and carefully held on to the shelves she found inside. As she used them to pull and carry her legs through the window, a sound, or better said, a voice, disturbed her concentration. "Amelia!" Ravenna exclaimed watching her legs dangle in the air.

"Whoa!" Amelia yelped. Her fingers slid down the shelves and her entire body fell to the ground. She pushed herself to her knees to face Ravenna. Nevertheless, her eyes rolled around and her head growled with pain. "Ravenna?" She managed to say.

Ravenna poked her head through the empty window. "This is like the best idea you've ever had!" She expressed excitedly. "It's like being a spy!" She laughed with pure joy.

"What are you doing here?" Amelia asked.

"Looking for you of course." Ravenna said. "How do you get in this thing? Do you think my bottom fits?" She studied it for a moment. "I'll give it a go." Ravenna lifted her leg and tried to put it through the window but it didn't seem to be working.

"Uh, no, Ravenna, not like-"

"Almost got it." She croaked. "Wait! No, no, no. Falling!"

And she fell. "I think I broke something."

Amelia laughed for a moment or two and then brought herself up to check on her friend. "You okay?" She chuckled.

Ravenna held out her hand and presented to Amelia her broken fingernail. "Do you think people will notice?"

"Only if you tell them." She assured her. "C'mon, let me help you." Amelia extended her arms to Ravenna and pulled her up to the window. "It's like I'm flying." Ravenna mentioned.

"It's like I'm holding the sky." Amelia uttered, carrying Ravenna on her back.

"Lamp!"

"What?" wondered Amelia.

"Ow!"

"Whoa!"

Both slammed onto the ground, laughing with tears streaming down their cheeks. "I said lamp." Ravenna told Amelia.

"I couldn't hear you." She giggled, sitting right up.

"Merlin's beard, I swore I saw my shoe flying somewhere."

"It's right behind you." Amelia told her.

Ravenna snatched her shoe and placed it back on her foot. She crossed her legs and first watched Amelia laugh a little longer to enjoy these few happy moments. They weren't much, but even the tiniest things matter. "Hey," Ravenna began, "I'm sorry for pushing you to talk. You're right, I'm in no position to make you do that."

"We just met yesterday and you're already pouring your heart out." Amelia clarified.

"Oh, shut up Amelia."

"I'm sorry too." She said. "I didn't mean to lash out at you like that."

"Well aren't we such sore losers."

Amelia laughed without a sound for quite a while that Ravenna actually began to worry. "Amelia, are you choking or something?"

"What? No." Amelia said.

"Then why on earth are you clapping?" Ravenna stared in wonder at Amelia as she gradually ceased to laugh.

"That's a thing about me." Amelia commented. "Most normal girls have those cute laughs and cute faces as they laugh, but I don't. I laugh so hard that no sound comes out and I just sit there clapping like a retarded seal."

"That's unfortunate." Ravenna snickered.

"Tell me about it."

Ravenna motioned towards Amelia. "C'mon, I think it's time we head to class."


"I don't understand mathematics." Ravenna revealed. She and Amelia picked up their books and paced out of the classroom into the hallways. Dozens of students pushed passed them as they strode to their lockers. "Don't worry you're not the first one." Amelia conveyed.

"I didn't know squares had roots." Ravenna disclosed bewildered.

Amelia giggled. "It was a shock to all of us." They parted ways. Amelia faced her locker and for once she didn't hesitate until the locker was already open. But nothing came out, which was a huge relief. She grabbed her books though suddenly, someone decided to slam her locker shut. Luckily her hand wasn't anywhere near. "Hey Amy, how's it going?"

"What do you want, Josh?" Amelia faced the boy with disgust. His brown hair was swooped to one side, his jawline was strictly defined as his eyes glowed like green pearls. His body rested on the lockers next to her and he stared at her with a gaze Amelia wished she had never known. "I just wanted to know how you've been." He said.

"After 2 months, 28 locker bombs, 17 buckets, and 9 chases, why the rush?"

He scoffed with annoyance. "You're such a drama queen."

"Says the one who broke up with me because I didn't want to have sex with him." Amelia wondered.

"I did care about you." He truthfully revealed.

"I wish you hadn't." Amelia stated.

"I miss you." Josh grasped Amelia's hand with such delicacy it made her heart skip a beat. Amelia immediately drew her hand back. "I wish I never met you." Once she tried to turn around, Josh twisted her wrist forcing her to turn back to him. "Let go of me Josh." She told him.

"Your life was a whole lot better with me, remember that?" He said. Unfortunately, she did and they were the best few months of her life. She wished it was never gone. Amelia did not respond, only with all her effort did she intend to pull her hand away from but it only felt like it was breaking apart.

"I can be better," He proposed. "I will be better for you. I will change." Josh promised. Amelia stared at him and butterflies crowded her stomach making it ache with lost love and broken hope. The lights in the hallways seem to dim and fade for his face was the only one she could see until a friendly silhouette appeared by her side.

"Are we playing Romeo and Juliet?" Ravenna asked them. Josh and Amelia didn't seem to know what to answer to that, though on the other hand, Ravenna clapped with joy. "Great! I'll be the poison." And she slapped Josh's hand off Amelia's. "Find another hand to hold on, Josh. She needs this one for English class." Ravenna hooked her arm with Amelia's and walked away from a soundless Josh.

They were both quiet on the way to class as they were during the class. When the bell rang, the girls head on to the cafeteria for a snack, or at least what Amelia could afford. Once they sat down Amelia continued to be silent, Ravenna couldn't help but wonder. "What did Josh want?"

Amelia shook her head. "He wants us to be back together."

"You're not considering it, are you?"

"Ravenna." Amelia warned.

She lifted her hands in defense. "All right, I won't push." She crossed her arms in the table and focused on Amelia. "What do you think?" She finally asked.

Amelia shrugged. "I was so happy when I was with him, my life was amazing. The bullying stopped, I was hardly home, I didn't have to work everyday, I had coffee twice a week." Amelia began to giggle with joy. "I even went to the movie theater!"

"And what about Cassie?" Ravenna pondered solemnly. Amelia's complexion lost its smile and felicity. She fidgeted with her fingers with pure disappointment. "I was never around." She admitted. "Cassie was always home, sometimes at school, but I was barely with her."

Amelia couldn't notice but Ravenna felt desperate sorrow. She rubbed her head to stop the sadness from erupting inside her. "He doesn't deserve you, Amelia." She explained. "Your happiness can not be lived by someone who cares only about the picture but not the background. Love is not the product of a better life darling." Ravenna squeezed her arm. "Love is the product of a better self."

"You don't believe he'll change?" She asked.

Ravenna smiled sympathetically with all the calm in the world. Her eyes showed memories as her words spoke experience. "I believe if he had, he would be apologizing instead of kneeling down on one knee begging for your partnership with him again."

Amelia sighed with relief, even giggled a bit. Two or three tears slipped out of her but she didn't mind. "I almost fell again."

"Let's hope it's the last time." Ravenna jumped with glee when a light bulb ignited above her. "I have a great idea." She moved from the table and sat next to Amelia. She expressed enthusiasm like a six-year-old child plotting their next snowball fight. "Let's do a 'Message to My Ex'." Ravenna presented.

Amelia gawked at her. "A what?"

"You heard me," Ravenna snatched out a notebook from her purse and a pen. She handed them out to Amelia whom took them with a sort of confusion. "Here, write a message to your ex. It'll make you feel better."

"What exactly do I write?" Amelia inquired looking down at the blank paper.

"You seem like the poetic type, figure it out." Ravenna leaned in to see what she would write. Amelia thought for a few moments and finally wrote what she would like to say. "Excellent!" Ravenna cheered. "Read it to me. C'mon."

Amelia held out the paper and read, "Roses are red, violets are blue, I'm so glad I realised, I'm better off without you."

Ravenna congratulated her with an applause. "Now isn't that a lovely way to end a chapter."


Sorry for the late update, I hope you enjoyed this chapter :D 

I would like to thank @@orchestra_memes for motivating me to keep writing :) 

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