Aurora POV

I slip out the bathroom and dry my hair. My eyes are still red and puffy.

The guilt from what just happened was to much. I kissed James. I don't even know why! I'm such an idiot, I start panicking and sit down to calm myself. Should I tell Aaron? I feel my head starting to hurt. My phone rings from besides me. The caller ID is unknown. "Hello?"

"I sent it to him. Now he hates you." Brendas voice sneers through the phone. "Brenda? What are talking about?" I sit up and ask in confusion.

"You and James, I saw you two at the parking lot."

I can feel my heart drop to my toes. My eyes widen and my face pales.

"W-what? It was a mistake! I didn't mean to! It just happened!" I shout with wide eyes and look around panicky.

"But you still kissed him. And that doesn't explain why you left with him."

"He apologized and said that Aaron told him to bring me to his apartment but then the said that Aaron cancelled and he dropped me off at my house! Nothing happened!" I rant and bite my nails, on the verge of tears.

"This is pay back, you threaten me with my secrets and I'll expose yours."

I feel tears slide down my cheek and I hastily wipe them. "What was his reaction?" I whisper and grab my keys and bag.

"He was screaming then he threw the phone. Anyways adios, good luck trying to fix this." And she cuts the line. I stare at my phone with blurry vision.

I have to fix this. I have to explain it to him. Im such a bitch.

I rush out the house and hurriedly start the car. Luckily I know where he's staying because of James. I can't even say his name without cringing.

I think I was the last straw to breaking Aaron Knight completely.

I arrive at his apartment and park the car wherever there was space. I try ringing him but them remembered that Brenda said he threw it at a wall.

"Damn it!" I mutter and jog into the lobby. I approach the main desk and the receptionist gives me a pointed look with her pointed and narrow nose. Probably because I look like road kill.

"Um, which floor is Aaron Knight in?" I mumble fidgety. He probably doesn't even want to see me.

"Top floor, but I'll have to ring him first before letting you go." I nod my head and bounce from one hip to another.

She gets off the phone and motions for me to go on up. I rush to the elevator and make my way up to the top floor, penthouse.

The elevator opens and I knock on the door hurriedly. After a few seconds the maid opens it. "Is Aaron Knight in?" I say rushed.

She nods and glances behind her nervously. "Well, I was the one who let up. Mister Knight is on the roof with liquor and I'm worried out of my mind."

"Shit! Fuck." I tug my hair and push past her. I run upstairs and throw open the roof door. When I lay eyes on him my heart stops.

There he is,

Seating on the ledge with the bottle in his mouth. His feet dangling off. He looks so....carefree. His hair a mess, his clothes wrinkled and his eyes closed and he tilts his head back.

"A-Aron?" I say shakily. "Who's there? I told you to leave me alone Macy." He grumbles not looking at me.

"No-o, it's Aurora." I step closer and cry quietly and the position we're in right now.

One wrong move and he falls. And he's insanely drunk.

His eyes snap open and close again. As if my name brought up a bad nightmare.

"Aurora? I know a Aurora." He laughs quietly. He still hasn't looked at me.

"I'm that Aurora." I explain softly and inch closer.

"No. That Auroras dead to me. You wanna know what she did? She broke a a broken heart even more." He says quietly opens his eyes to the sky.

"She's a monster." He mumbles.

"Aaron, I'm sorry. It was a mistake."
I cry and put my palm on my forehead as a way to stop my racing mind.

He doesn't say anything but continues to stare up at the sky. "Come down Aaron. I'll leave and never contact you again. Just come down." I beg and clasp my hands. I grab my phone, ready to dial 911.

He suddenly stands up, now standing on the ledge. Wobbling and drunk.

I scream when he stumbles over but catches his balance in time. "Please Aaron, get on the ground." I plead and cry harder.

I dial 911 and he raises his hand. "Put that phone down!" He shouts. "Okay! I will." I dial the number and put it on the ground.

"Aaron please get down, let's talk it out." I beg loudly so the operator hears on the phone.

He has a dangerous glint in his eyes that terrifies me. "No. It's not even about you anymore. I have nothing to live for anymore-," he sneers but I cut him off.

"What about Ray?! You can't leave him!" I shout desperately.

"I already have plans for Ray with a foster family that I know very well." He spits and shuts his eyes tightly, as if in pain.

"Please Aaron. Don't do this. I love you." I beg and step closer. I sob harder as he throws the bottle and it crashes to the ground.

"Don't you dare say that. Don't say that you liar." he whispers and wet tears slide down his cheeks. "I hate me. I can't do this anymore." He closes his eyes and I feel like someone ripped my heart out of my chest.

"Aaron don't-," I yell.

"I can't do it anymore." He whispers so quietly I almost didn't hear him. I feel like I can't breathe anymore as I run towards him with my arms outstretched ready to grab him.

I grab his wrist and tug him the opposite direction so he comes falling next to me.

I breathe a sigh of relief and see Aaron's passed out. His hair laid on his forehead and he looks so relaxed. I lay my head down next to him and take deep breaths. Aaron tried to kill himself.

I start crying uncontrollably and I don't know for how long but hear sirens and I feel someone whisper comforting words to me than walk me into the house.

I look back quickly and see police officers and doctors crouched down near Aaron's passed out form.

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"I want to see him." I whisper desperately and clasp my hands.

"No Aurora for the hundredth time my answers not going to change." Daniel spits at me with hatred. He's standing in front of Aaron's hospital door like a guard and hasn't move since the time I've been here. Seth is in there with Aaron but I haven't see James.

He has every right to hate me. They all do. I broke up their friend group and Aaron nearly committed suicide. Becca said she doesn't want to talk to me anymore cause I'm a cheater.

"Does he want to see me?" I ask.

"Absolutely fucking not."

"Aaron if your listening, I'm going to get in there and your going to hear what I have to say! One way or another!" I yell at the door.

I go back to my chair and sit miserably. My phone rings again with a call from my mother. This is like the fiftieth call. I ignore it and slouch down. I start shaking and and my head drops down into my hands.

A few minutes later Seth comes out and glances at me with a hard face. "He wants to see her." He tells Daniel.

My heart starts beating so fast and I sit up immediately. Daniel immediately refuses and whispers something in his ear. A few moments later Seth motions me in.

I jump up and run in but Seth catches my wrist. He pulls me back and tightens his grip. He stares into my eyes with such hatred and rage that it feels like he's about to step on me.

"Two minutes." He says viciously.

I've never seen Seth so...angry but I deserve it. All of it. I nod my head and open the door softly.

I lay my eyes on Aaron. On the hospital bed looking worse than ever. His skin paler, hair messier. My breath catches short for a moment.

"Aaron..," I whisper and choke up.

I close the door and come near him but he stops me with a raised hand.

I open my mouth to speak but he beats me to it. "Aurora you need to leave me alone." He says calmly and looks at the wall.

"Let me explain first." I beg.

"No. I know what happened. You can never contact me again. You need to stay away from me." He says in a monotone voice.

"Please Aaron." I start crying.

"I can't anymore Aurora. Please don't contact me." He says tiredly.

"I know I fucked up. You need to give a chance to explain. Please." I beg with my hands clasped. He doesn't say anything and just shuts his eyes painfully.

He has all these wire attached to him and it hits me that I'm reason for all of this.

I stare at him helplessly and realize this is what he wants. I screwed up, I pay the consequences. He doesn't want me anymore. I don't even bother saying anything. I walk towards him and push his hair back and tears blur my vision.

I plant a soft kiss on his forehead and step back.

"I love you." I whisper sincerely and turn around.

But before opening the door and I look back once more and he meets my eye. "I'm sorry Aaron. I hope you find happiness." I whisper and rush out.

I'm such a screw up. I walk past Seth and Daniel and wipe my tears hurriedly.

I run out the hospital and into a cab. I can't stay here anymore. I feel myself starting to panic. I have no one. Becca hates me, Aaron hates me, the boys hate me. I need to leave.

I start to hyperventilate and I feel like someone stole my breath.

I have enough money to last a life time in my trust fund. And I turn eighteen in a two days. I'll take online school and finish high school. I leaving. I can't stay here.

I tell the driver my house address and once we arrive I tell him to wait just a second. It's barely noon so I'll be in and out.

Dads at work and moms with Parker.

I sneak in and up to my room. I grab a duffel and pack all my necessities. Passport, clothes, important stuff. I change really quick and tie my hair.

I look at my room once more and close the door. I don't know if what I'm doing is right or not but I can't stay or I'll go completely insane.

I jog down the stairs and my mom appears with Parker in hand. "Aurora? Where are you going? And why haven't you been answering your phone!" She yells incredulously.

I ignore her and crouch down to Parker. "I love you bud, take care of yourself." I plant a kiss on his forehead head and stand up.

"Mom, you most likely know what happened. I-I can't stay anymore." I whisper and begin to cry again. "I'll go crazy." I explain helplessly and she looks baffled.

"Aurora Collins if you dare get in that ca-,"

"I love you mom. Please try to contain dad." I say and rush outside. I can hear my mom call my name but I don't care.

I rush in the cab, "Airport." And he takes off.

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"What's your earliest leaving flight?" I ask fidgety. My hairs a mess, I'm a mess. I cried the whole ride here.

The women looks at her computer and replies, "Leaving to Florida, Orlando in thirty minutes."

"Great. I'd like first class please." I hand her my Master card and she gives me my plane ticket.

I can't believe I'm doing his. I need to do this. I need to start over and this is my ticket to do just that. No more Aaron, or the Golden Boys, or Brenda. London really screwed me up.

I wipe a fallen tear and and put on an encouraging smile. It's all in the past now.

I love him, a lot. And I know he loves me. But even the ones you love can be toxic for you.

I'm toxic for Aaron. He deserves so much better. I hastily wipe fallen tears and take a breather.

Florida, here I come.

Who cried, I did.

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ALSO, YOULL FIND OUT WHY JAMES KISSED HER IN THE SEQUEL.

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