"Hello!" Harry smiled at his therapist as he took a seat in front of him. 

"Hey, Harry! How are you today?" Dr. Murphy asked. (Yep a Good Doctor reference. hehe)

"I'm good. It's my day off today, so I'm having a relaxing day." Harry smiled. 

"How are your yoga sessions going?" The therapist questioned. 

"To be honest with you, I rarely do that now. My schedule is just too bizarre for that these days." Harry chuckled. 

"Yeah, I understand. What about the journal? You still writing it?" 

"Yeah, I do that every night. It has helped me a lot with my depression." Harry admitted as he pulled out his journal with a brown leather cover. 

Of course, he is not gonna share its content with his therapist because it contained everything about Louis and his therapist didn't know anything about him. He always asked Louis to wait outside when he walked in here because he knew that there was something fishy about Louis' existence and he didn't want his doctor to notice that. He couldn't quite put his finger around it but he just knew that something was up. It's like Louis only existed for him, and whenever he tried to talk with him outside his flat, people looked weird at him, like he was talking to himself. 

"That's great, Harry. I'm glad you are in a happy place now. I guess your meds are helping you too?" The therapist questioned. 

"Yeah, they do too." Harry made sure to take his meds for depression because he doesn't want to mess up his life with Louis and his meds help him. 

They talked about general things in life and he was glad when the appointment ended so he could freely talk with Louis after reaching home. 

-

"Open the door bitch" Harry jumped in surprise when he heard Niall's voice holler through the intercom of his flat. He quickly opened the door and was immediately attacked by a bear hug from Niall. 

"You are back in London!" Harry exclaimed excitedly. 

"Yes, I am and I know it's your day off!" Niall chuckled as he pulled back from their hug. Harry led him into the flat and they settled on the couch. 

"How have you been Harold?" The smaller boy questioned. 

"I'm doing pretty great actually. How was the tour?" 

"It was great as always. So much fun and so much energy everywhere." Niall smiled fondly at the memories. They talked about their day-to-day lives for a little bit before moving to the kitchen to pour themselves two cups of tea. 

"How's therapy going?" Niall asked as he blew on his tea to make it cool down a little bit. 

"It's good. I actually came back from an appointment a few hours ago." Harry explained. 

"Helping with your depression?" 

"Yes, it does. Louis helps me too." Harry bit his lip nervously when that slipped his mouth.

"Louis? Does he call you now?" Niall asked because he was sure that Louis stopped talking to Harry about a year ago. 

"I- uh-" Harry stammered, not knowing what to say. Does he tell Niall about Louis or would he judge him too like everybody else has? Plus, Louis didn't want him to tell anyone about him. 

"Is there something you aren't telling me mate?" Niall furrowed his brows because he could sense that Harry was hiding something and he has felt this for a while now. He would often find Harry staring into space, moving his face like he is having a silent conversation with someone but he thought nothing of it because Harry was known to space out back in college. However, right now, he feels that something is out. 

"He wouldn't want me to tell you," Harry said that more to himself but Niall heard it. 

"Who wouldn't?" Now Niall was concerned, thinking maybe Harry is being threatened by someone, specifically Louis. 

Harry just stared out into space without giving any answer. He didn't know why Louis was not home now. Maybe it's because he didn't want to see Niall or maybe he is hiding from Niall but why would he do that? There were a lot of things that didn't make sense to Harry but he didn't care about them as long as they allowed him to be with Louis. 

"Mate?" Niall placed his hand on Harry's shoulder making the taller boy jump. 

"We live together," Harry said after a few seconds of silence. 

"You and Louis? Fucking hell mate when did that happen?" Niall was so excited because that was actually good news but he was a little bit sad that Harry didn't tell him this. 

"Yes. It's been like 6 months now." Harry said, blushing a bit. 

"That's great news, man. Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Niall questioned. 

"He didn't want anyone to know." Harry shrugged. 

"Oh, okay." Niall found that a bit weird but he let it slide. "So where is he now? I wanna meet him finally. I have only talked to him on the phone."

 "He was just home when you came in but I don't know where he disappeared to when you came in." Harry shrugged chuckling a bit. 

"Go and find your boyfriend, Harry. I wanna meet him!" Niall said, pushing the curly lad out of the kitchen. Harry walked up the stairs to his room, chuckling at his dramatic best friend. 

"Louis?" He called into the bedroom but Louis was not there. He proceeded to call around the house but there was no sight of him. This made Harry panic a bit because Louis didn't just disappear like that. He would always be there standing right next to Harry whenever he needed him. 

"Why don't you try calling him?" Niall suggested, seeing the panicked expression on Harry's face. Harry nodded and grabbed his phone from over the kitchen counter before dialing Louis' number. It rang for a few seconds before Louis picked up. 

"Hi" Harry could hear a groggy voice from the other end of the line and he smiled when he realized that it was Louis' sleepy voice. 

"Hey, Lou. Where are you? Niall is here and he wants to meet you." Harry said, putting his phone on speakerphone so Niall could hear what Louis had to say.

"What?" Louis was so confused and he pulled the phone away from his ear to check the caller ID because he sleepily picked up the phone without doing so. He knitted his brows together because nothing Harry said made sense. 

"I'm in LA, Harry. What do you mean Niall wants to meet me? Nothing you say is making sense, curly." Louis shrugged. 

"What? How did you go to LA so soon? You were just here this morning." Harry chuckled thinking it was one of Louis' jokes. 

"Curly, are you drunk? I have been in LA for two weeks now." Louis was confused more than ever now. Niall quickly grabbed the phone from Harry and put Louis out of speakerphone before speaking. Harry just stood there processing what happened right now. 

"Hey, Louis! I'm Niall. I believe you remember me?" Niall asked. 

"Yeah, yeah, mate I do. You are Harry's roomie, right? The one who became a singer?" Louis asked just to confirm.

"Yep, that's me. You are in LA?" Niall asked to make sure that Louis was not joking. 

"Yeah, I am. What is Curly talking about?"

"Listen, mate, I am as confused as you are right now because he just said that you were in his flat right before I came here and we called you after looking for you in the flat." Niall didn't dare to tell anything about Harry mentioning they were together because whatever was happening, he was sure Harry didn't want Niall to be the one to reveal his crush on Louis. He would need to do that himself. 

"No, man I have been in LA for two weeks now. I came here with my boyfriend for vacation actually." Louis was so awake now because this was so confusing. 

"Just let me speak to Harry and get back to you, yeah?" Niall said before hanging up. He walked back into the living room to find Harry sitting on the couch, staring at the TV on the wall which was turned off. 

"Haz?" Niall called his best friend as he sat next to him on the couch. "What's up?" 

"I don't know. He was here right before you came and now he says he is in LA?" Harry looked at Niall confused. Louis must be playing a joke on him. 

"He was not joking, mate," Niall said carefully, not wanting to hurt Harry. He was kind of getting what must have been going on because given Harry's medical history, it was possible but Niall prayed to god to make it not.

"But-but he was here. He has been here all the time. He even went to the theatre with me whenever I performed surgeries. I was just about to make us lunch before you walked in." Harry explained. Niall sighed as he placed his hand on Harry's knee.

"I think we should speak to your therapist Harry."

"Are you saying I imagined him? That I hallucinated him?" Harry's voice was rising a bit.

"I don't know. Let's just calm down, yeah? We will see what is going on. Just give me Louis' number. I will call him to see what's going on. Just don't get worked up on this. who knows, maybe he was joking and he would show up later." Niall threw in the last bit even though he knew it was not true because he didn't want Harry to freak out and end up in an ER or something.

-

"Hello, is this Louis?"

"Yes, it is. Who is this?"

"I'm Niall. I got your number from Harry." Niall explained.

"Oh, hi again Niall. I was waiting for you to call. Is Harry okay?" Louis was concerned and he felt bad for not checking up on his friend for a long time.

"When are you coming back to the UK? Is there any chance you would come to London when you do?" Niall asked, ignoring Louis' question about Harry because he didn't know how to answer that question.

"I'm coming to London in three days. Why? What's wrong?" Louis was scared now. He could feel his heart beating faster.

"I don't know. Harry should be the one talking to you. I think you should visit him, mate. I don't want to cross any lines than I already have. Just come to his flat and talk to him when you come back to London, yeah?" Niall asked. 

"Yeah, I will. I'm scared now. Just tell me is he okay?" Louis was pacing the hotel room now. 

"He is okay for now and I don't know what will happen next but he is pretty calm now," Niall said. 'Too calm' He thought but didn't say.

"Have he tried something again?" Louis asked remembering how Niall called him after Harry's suicide attempt when he was in college. 

"No, no, he has not. Just come and visit, mate, yeah? I will be staying with him until you come." Niall said because he didn't want to worry Louis and ruin his vacation. 

"Okay. Thank you so much!" Louis said before they bid their goodbyes and hung up. 

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A/N - Thoughts?

-Ash