Hi, my name's Derek and I'm really fucking gay for my best dude bro friend Jim. But Jim can't know this, so I must calm it down.

This is very hard for me. I run everyday from gay thoughts, and I'm scared that one day they will catch up to me.

As far as I know, Jim is very straight. But that's what I also thought before I met him so.. things can change.

But sexual orientation aside, I don't think he would like me. That's why I am keeping my sad gay feelings locked away.

He has the key and doesn't even know it.