I feel like somewhere deep inside of me I already knew I wasn't straight

I just didn't want to except it

You hear these stories of LGBTQ+ people getting killed or jumped

It's scary.

The first time I had the idea that maybe in not straight was when I was 12

I'm 16 now

It was at a sleepover

All my friends where pointing out 'cute' boys in a magazine

But all I could focus on was the girls

They were so pretty

Of course I didn't mention it

I just put up an act

When in reality the idea of a relationship with a boy made me sick to my stomach

Not that there's anything wrong with it.

Only one person knows I'm gay

My best friend

Her name is Ally

She's beautiful

I don't have a crush one her

Or

I don't think i do?